1 Why?

Lucian, choosing a woman is not just random, you need to get to know them first before you can love them completely, because if you love a woman that don't love you, only you will be hurt in the end.

"Yes, you are right dad, why don't I listen to you? I know you're right but why?, all I just wanted is to love, so why is it so painful"

I'm Lucian and I had the worst experience in middle school and do you know why? let's go back to my middle school day.

I was a student with 24 crushes throughout the school, and 23 of them gave me a letter saying "Hi! Lucian I'll be waiting for you in this place after class, I'm not leaving here until you show up so you have to show up no matter what happens. " if you could read those letters what else would you think if not "oh God am I the only man in this world?"

I'm happy for someone to confess their love for me, but the confession I thought it was, is just another way for me to help them with their crushes and that's why they give me the letter because their crushes are just my friend.

What do you think of me cupid that will help you with your crushes? and even so I think, I still can't stop myself from helping them because I want them to be happy, and because I see my crushes happy I thought I would be happy too, but that's wrong, what I didn't know was that little by little I was breaking inside.

But even in those events I didn't show them how sad I was, so I thought. Maybe no one will confess to me, this is my last chance, i just have to confess to my last crush.

My last crush was Bea, we met when middle school started on the opposite side of the section list, at first I thought of her I liked her right away, but I didn't have the courage to confess before because I think our world is so far away to each other, she is the campus crush and I am the pig of the class.

"God please give me a miracle."

Before I confessed I first asked my friends if they had a crush on Bea, the first thing I asked was my bestfriend Kyle "Yo kyle! Do you like Bea? If not, I will confess my love to her tomorrow."

"Of course not." and I followed up by asking my other friend, and their answer are the same.

Because of their answer I had hope, so after class, I immediately waited for her on the rooftop, her answer was, "I'll think about it first, I'll tell you on graduation day." Graduation was next week, I waited quietly.

It's graduation time and all the graduates are already inside the gymnasium, Bea's graduation and speech will be over because she is the Top in the entire 3rd year.

Her speech was long and finally her answer to my confession and the one I was waiting for the most. "I want to introduce you to the one who always supports me, my boyfriend." I was surprised by what she said. "he never leaves me and he is always there to help me in any test given by god, so before we graduate from middle school I just want you to know that he is my treasure."

Her boyfriend has taken the stage and that is my best friend Kyle. "Just wait, I still have something to say, to the one who confessed to me last week, this is my answer, you have no chance for me."

The spotlight focused on me and the whole student looked at me, I scratched my head once smiling at them as I bore my embarrassment. And that was the last time I smiled.

After that happened I seemed to lose the urge to show up in crowded places, and I would only show up at high school once.

I didn't go out of my room in four months, I woke up and looked out my bedroom window, I saw the students talking happily while going to school, so I thought of going back.

The next day...

"Mom, Dad, I'm going to school so i'm leaving now." they were surprised by what I said.

"Are you okay now? be careful on your way."

As I was about to enter school I saw a chair in the park and boredom overtook me, I sat down to rest, but instead of just sitting I slept all day.

I would have slept soundly if only a group of men had not come to harass a female student. "Hey girl what's your name? come with us, we'll treat you." The woman shout so that's where I woke up.

"Can you do that somewhere else? can't you see someone sleeping here?" I said in great anger.

"Huh? and who are you to rebuke us like that? do you know where you slept, you are in our territory so don't show that you are the best." said one of them.

I answered them until they got annoyed with me, one of them tried to punch me but I avoided it and I punched him straight away.

His companions were angry so they rushed towards me one by one, but I knocked them all down. "I didn't shut in myself just to rest, I'm learning martial arts so that even if I can't protect my heart from a woman, I can protect myself from someone like you."

After I bragged, the police arrived. "oh shit the long question is already there." At my speed I was never caught by the police.

While I was on my way home, I saw a couple fighting, I wouldn't have planned to get into trouble if the man hadn't just kicked his girlfriend.

My body moved unconsciously and I suddenly punched the man, the man turned over and boom the police came again because of the report of the neighborhood.

And there, I explained everything that happened, but they still didn't believe me because the woman didn't want to admit that she was hit.

I got out in the morning and went straight to school because I was so embarrassed to face my parents.