11 Broken Girl

A/N: Chapters not edited.

this is still Ash's POV. figured he doens't get to convey his thoughts as much as his brother and he seemed just slightly bitter.

Ash: now why did you have to tell them that!

Kol: *Snickers*

See you at the bottom! <3

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"I've missed you….." the female's voice follows as I bolt upright in bed.

'What was that?' I attempt to recall the dream but for the life of me….

I cannot.

The light from the next-door neighbor's two-story cottage was blinding in the dark confines of my bachelor pad.

Our neighbor's place had seen better days but when the father left or died, the house slowly decayed. Like my family's home it was similar style. A large 2 story cottage as my family and our neighbors had been friends before tragedy struck. The stone molding was starting to crack, the wood of the cottage badly needed to be repaired. The roof was slightly caved in, the only reason it hadn't completely fallen in was because the look of recent repairs, recent as in 10 years. A stone balcony that was adjacent to my own was what had caught my attention.

the neighbor's light was a stark contrast too the gloomy dark night as the wind whipped against the glass French doors that led to my balcony.

'She's up early,' I can't help the large yawn from escaping, bringing tears to my eyes.

Her pale vision sat on her balcony, draped in a thick down comforter, her legs tucked against her chest in the large wicker chair. Her bright violet eyes seemed to be the only lively thing about her. As if drawn to her, I hop out of bed and my sweaty palms clasped the metal doorknob of the French doors which led out to the medium sized wooden balcony.

Stopping my movements as I see tears swimming in her eyes. Letting the stream silently fall to her clenched fists on the fluffy comforter.

The dull ache that formed in my chest only grows at the sight of MY CASSANDRA.

Building up the courage, I finally ease the glass double doors open.

"Cassandra?" I try to make my voice sound soothing, as if I was approached a frightened animal.

"Is there something wrong with me?" she bombards me with the questions that seems to weight heavily on her mind.

Unsure if her question is to me or herself.

"You're perfect!" I didn't mean to tell her that.

I mentally smack myself as she doesn't say anything.

Instead she continues to stare off into the night. At the small darkened figure of someone perched on my brother's rock.

'Kol. It's always Kol!' my face falls. 'WHEN WILL IT EVER BE ME... you look at, like that?'

she lets out a broken-hearted laugh. Not really reaching her eyes, as more tears escape and she burys her face in her legs.

"I saw him before he went out there," she shakenly lifts her hand to point to the rock that was sat on top the seaside cliff.

But I already knew he was out there; my fists start to clench up. I try to shake them to loosen them up.

'It's always my brother!'

'I want to scream.'

I wanted to confess my feelings to the broken girl that was just across from me.

'But, I can't.' my words are stuck in my throat. Burning me from the inside out.

I wanted to wipe her tears and take away her pain.

Her suffering.

'She should be with me instead of my infamous twin that caused her pain…..

I would be able to treat her better'

She would not be up crying at night.

She wouldn't be feeling like she is, I would care for her and make her feel like she was loved.

'Unlike my twin!'

'Why can't I?'

"He told me that we can't be friends anymore… and that he can't be seen with someone like…. Me." Her tears are more consistent, her eyes ringed in red from rubbing her eyes so much.

Her words are like ICE.

No feeling.

Only detachment.

"Cass, its going to be okay. If he won't be there for you let me! I won't let you feel like your less than. With me you won't have to feel lonely, you wouldn't be alone… with me."

'Alone.'

We both feel the crippling feeling of loneliness.

'is that what attracts me to you?'

"Let me love you endlessly!"

At my confession, she tugs on the night shirt that hugs what curves she has. She may be skin and bones, but I'd love to bury my face between her breasts. A bright blue bow adorns the spot that swims into my vision, drawing my gaze to the single button that is just begging to be unfastened.

Her smooth pale mounds barely exposed, but enough for my mind to wander further.

Thoughts of what I want to do to the broken girl in front of me playing in my devious mind. my thoughts cause a tightness in my lower region to form. My sad attempt at hiding my erection, bringing more attention to it.

'FUCK!'

Scarlet creeps over her delicate features, before she twists her body away from me.

'FUCK…. FUCK…. FUCK!'

"Sorry," I can't help the blush that spreads like wildfire up my neck, across my face and turning my ears bright red from embarrassment.

"Um…. About my brother," I say as I open the glass French doors which led back to my room.

'Hopefully, I won't embarrass myself any further'

"he is an idiot for saying that he doesn't want anything to do with you." The creek of movement from the wicker chair alerts me to her shifting position.

'At least she's watching as I retreat, so that has to be something'

"Cause… I do….." I can just picture the look on her face. Her jaw dropping to the floor, her eyes bulging from their sockets….. hand covering her mouth.

'ITS FINALLY MY TIME, maybe I can even get a kiss before I go back to bed' my thoughts seem to run wild with desire with thoughts of the broken girl.

But, when I turn to sneak a peak over my shoulder… her eyes are down cast fidgeting with the edge of the blanket again.

I sigh.

'FUCK!'

"he might not have mentioned it…. But, we're throwing our birthday party tomorrow night." Her breath catches. "I for one would be happy to see a familiar face… plus it would crappy if you heard a party next door and your stuck caring for your mom."

"I'll think about it," her eyes continue to gaze into the unknown of the night. As if compelled to find him.

MY BROTHER.

MY TWIN.

BUT, NEVER ME.

'FUCK…'

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A/N: Due to increase in work load and needing to concentrate on homework i will be taking a short break to get life back on track and to stock pile some chapters so that i will be able to update more frequently than every Sat. There is so much to come with little Cassandra/ Kol and Ash, i hope you will stay with me for the rest of their story when i start publishing again. :)