2 Beginning

I'm exhausted.

I don't want to open my eyes and meet their mocking stare.

I don't want to get-up in bed and just be tortured till my body collapse to floor.

I don't want to go outside my manor and just be humilated by my husband in front of his subjects.

I don't want to wake-up!

I just hope that the sun won't raise and the moon would just stay at sky. So that I'll just be in the comfort of my cold and silent chamber and thats so no one will bothers me.

I am hurt. I am in pain.

I have Love him.

No, I still Love him. But Why? Why does I still love him even though I know that he will never love me and that he despise me.

Am I really that difficult to Love?

Am I that ugly, That no one would ever want to see?

Am I that so dispecable that they would mocked and humilated me ?

I have so many questions that I really wanted to be answered but alas no one could ever answer me for even just a glance of me they could not help but want to tear me apart.

All this nightmares begins when I was 3yrs old. I am still too young to remember everything that has happened but I have known for a fact that at the night of my 3rd birthday my parents died. I don't know the reason but my handmaiden just informed me that they were gone. I don't know what to feel and do for it still does not sink in my mind that they were gone afterwards my Uncle becomes the Lord of the East.

At first everything was still the same then later on I was move to a different manor, left with no maids to tend on me. Then I was dragged everyday in the dungeun to trained how to handle diffirent weapons, and how to master combat skills and my powers. I don't know the reason behind this training and I am afraid to voice out any complain to my Uncle because he will punish me for being disobedient to the elders.

My training under the guidance of uncle Mo (complete name Yui Lei Mo- current Lord of the East) and Captain Cai ( complete name is Yui Cai- Cousins of Yui Mo and the late Lord,Yui Zhu Ming. Current General of the Elite Royal Guards of the East) is so difficult and dangerous and in order for them to check if my skills has improved they would throw me to the forest of yell (Breeding forest of the contractual beast in the east) and instructed me to bring back 3 demi beast corpse under the affinity of water. I was not allowed to return if I won't brought it back.