7 A Hard Gaze

...Wh-Who are you?

I was blank, confused. Why was this thing here with me, plus why was it my family. I didn't understand what was going on, how could something go into my mind? How can anything go inside and live inside someone or something? This did not make any sense! This broke the scientific law of The Great Me!

Each time I heard the voice, it was coming from the inside of my mind. I definitely remembered that before I destroyed the sphere, the thing had talked, not from inside me. I had heard it from the outside, sensed its direction, and sensed its strength of volume. I did not hear it outside... but within my body! It was within my head! The thing was inside of my intellect!? How is this even possible to do!? This does not form any sense of logic! It was a logical fallacy! ...Then again, nothing so far went according to how I thought logic was supposed to be… This… had it merged with me?

[Host I am a system.], the cute mechanical voice, had announced in my head once more. Wait… was this even considered cute? Yes it was high-pitched, but this thing is what caused me to be coo-coo, ever since I had woken up. I felt like I was going crazy… In fact, I even felt like I had a mental disorder just like the system said earlier… Was it true? Am I plain stupid? Does my IQ not win against a fish?

Ever since I came into this world, it was one crazy event after another. I did not understand even one thing over the course of events, nor would anyone else that knew of my events! Who can even understand this crap of insane affairs that have kept happening to me.

I was right now truly wishing that I was dead already, I wished to be in a coma once more, never to see this poop of a world, ever again in my life.

I was in a daze once more, till I was able to abruptly snap out of it. My head raced with new concepts and judgements. This thing had said system, and since it was now inside of me, does that mean it truly merged into me? Was this a good thing or a bad thing for me?

I didn't know the answer, however as my train of thoughts had reached this point, the system had answered for me.

[Host, I am like what you are thinking about, so called 'inside of' or 'merged with' you. Although it is not exact, essentially I am part of you now. We are one being, and I can never be separated from you ever again!]

Isn't not being separated a bad thing? I was depressed. Who wants something talking inside of them in their life? I did not want someone to spectate my life, everything he did. Who would wish to have someone have a hard first person pov of you when you pee, change, or shower? Who would want to have a hard gaze on you, constantly as you do small things? Perverts. That was what.

This was like a parent making their kid put on a impossibly strong leash, one that the parents will know exactly, exactly everything in your life! Every single little to big thing that happens in your life. All the embarrassing moments. All the moments you wish for your parents to never look on your phone.

Why did the internet make a incognito mode? It was exactly because people are way too shameless, and do immoral things. How will I ever find out how I will have a kid in the future now!? It was too shameful! This was a disaster in its own right!