20 A good girl with a dead heart

Now Justin was confused he or Nadine was acting as a maid here because he has been cleaning up the groceries while Nadine was casually sitting at the dining table while playing on her cellphone but Justin doesn't dare to reprimand because Nadine still hasn't forgiven him.

"Where do you want to put the rest?" Justin asked carefully.

"At my place," Nadine answered briefly.

"What's the code, I'll take it to where you are now. I don't like it when my place gets messy."

"Tomorrow, I'm lazy to clean."

"Okay..."

Nadine glanced suspiciously because Justin had been so obedient to her since then, she then put down her cell phone and looked at Justin openly, making him feel awkward.

"You want to eat?" Justin asked, his heart going to explode if Nadine kept looking at him like that.

"What do you want to cook?" Nadine asked, she smiled faintly before walking towards Justin who was behind the kitchen table.

Justin was still nervous, he was even more confused when Nadine grabbed the apple behind him and made him hold his breath.

The scent of Nadine's body made Justin's heart weaken, he wanted to hug Nadine but he didn't want Nadine to be scared of him again.

"Why are you silent? You offered me something to eat earlier, what can we eat?"

"I can't cook."

"Really? I didn't see any maids in this house so how have you been eating all this time?"

"The maid who takes care of my house is returning home because her child is sick."

"So I have to cook?"

"Isn't that your job?"

That's right... Nadine then sighed heavily as if she was reluctant to cook, she then walked towards the refrigerator.

"What do you want to eat?" Nadine asked while seeing what she could cook.

"If you're tired, just order food."

In an instant, Nadine's shabby face immediately turned back excited.

"Great idea." Nadine smiled before finally walking towards Justin's tv room.

Even though Nadine was acting casually, Justin feels happy because he feels closer to Nadine.

He then approached Nadine and sat next to her.

"Want some pizza?"

"Sure."

Justin then ordered a pizza according to Nadine's wishes then turned on the television.

The atmosphere became awkward when the television showed the drama that was seen on the bed.

Justin quickly turned off the television because he didn't want Nadine to feel uncomfortable.

Pizza came and made the previously awkward atmosphere even more relaxed.

Nadine took out a beer from the refrigerator and drank a lot even though Justin forbade her but Nadine still couldn't stop her until she got drunk.

Nadine's face was already red, she finished the last bottle and cried.

"I should have bought more."

Nadine bought a lot of beer but Justin didn't take all of them because he didn't like beer, Justin didn't know if Nadine would finish five bottles at once.

"What's the fun of being an actor?" Nadine asked, she was so drunk that her voice wasn't very clear.

"Someone told me that if I was good at acting and suggested that I become an actor if we parted later it would be easier for her to find me."

"Then has she found you?"

"Already."

"Then what? Are you guys back together?"

"She forgot about me."

"Oh, bad girl."

Justin smiled faintly, he supported his chin and looked at Nadine who also did the same.

"Why are you evil?" Justin asked.

"I'm bad? I like being bad so I don't have to get hurt anymore." Nadine replied, she smiled sarcastically and looked for the wine she had seen on the shelf near the kitchen and drank it straight from the bottle.

Justin immediately stepped closer to Nadine and stopped her so she stopped drinking but Nadine pushed Justin instead.

"So stingy, I only asked for one bottle," Nadine said angrily, she then sat back in her original place.

"You're very drunk, Nadine."

"I'm not drunk, Justin! Look, I'm going to tell you a story about a good girl who died at heart."

Justin finally fell silent and listened to Nadine and hoped that Nadine would admit that the woman they had been talking about was her.

"I used to be a good girl, but when my mother married my father's boss when my father died only two weeks ago. I felt betrayed, my mother never even looked sorry. I tried to ignore my hurt and still be nice to everyone including my stepfather and also my stepbrother. But in the end, they always hurt me."

Nadine's tears began to fall. "I thought my stepbrother loved me as his sister as much as I loved him, I liked him and started depending on him. When my mother turned away I felt he was all I had but he kept forcing me... He forced me to love him. He was stupid, I was his stepsister but he insisted on having a love affair with me and his father warned me to stay away from him. Said I was a flirt... Like a bitch..."

Nadine wipes her tears, she tries not to cry but she cries anyway.

"I did everything they wanted, but whatever I did it was always wrong. I tried to stay away from him as my stepfather wanted me to while my mother forced me to continue being nice to him. I was so depressed at the time that I chose to stay away from him because he was starting to make me mad. scared, he loves me like an obsession. He started to get angry when I ignored him and kept on rejecting him until he finally tried to rape me. I was so scared, the only person I depended on hurt me more and hurt me more, I asked for help but my mother instead slapped me and said if it was my fault I was wearing a nightgown and his dad looked at me like a bitch that night."

Justin's heart was burning, he didn't know if Nadine went through all that while they were apart.

"In this scary world I'm all alone, so why should I be nice to other people? They might also hurt me, right? Like my mother who betrayed me and my brother who still forced his feelings on me even you who yelled at me in the shopping mall earlier. No one is good to me so I'd rather be bad, at least I have my faults so I don't get hurt too much."

Nadine downed what was left of her beer only a few drops then threw it to pieces.

"In this world I only have myself, I will do anything to be happy to be Justin, so don't make it difficult for me, or I might hurt you."

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