1 Confession 1: My sexuality

I have a secret... My sexuality. I've recently come to the conclusion that there is a high chance that I'm bisexual. To be honest, I think maybe even lesbian. I've noticed that boys I see aren't really cute. I think Jacob Sartorius is cute a little. I'm so confused. My main reason for questioning my sexuality? Millie Bobby Brown. Everytime I see a picture of her that I like, I look at her body. I look at her beautiful brown eyes and get lost in them. I look at her lips and want to kiss her SO bad it hurts. I also like to watch videos of lesbian kisses. For a short while, I didn't like gay people. I think now that, I just hated myself. I remember when I used to talk trash on Millie Bobby Brown, and then one day, my friend Tynaya, asked me "If you hate her so much, why do you talk about her all the time?". That was the moment I realized, I love loved her, I just didn't know how to show it. I've recently have fallen for her a bit harder than I used to. I used to think I was just a fan, I guess my feelings grew and I fell for her as I got older, and she got older. Nobody except me( and now you) know about my sexuality. I think I maybe will tell someone soon, once I've come to the 100% conclusion on my sexuality. Currently, I'm 70% sure I'm bisexual. I'm so disappointed. I don't wanna be gay or bisexual. I wanna be normal, be straight like everyone else. No, my mom doesn't hate or not support gays, no, my friends(most of them) don't hate or not support gays, I just want to be normal, be straight.