6 Chapter 6

Birsha

I can’t help the fit of laughter that comes out in response to her words. "Well, dear friend, you should be. She’s a sight, and I can personally attest to the pleasure and pain she’ll inflict on you." I finally explain after my laughter subsides.

A wave of jealousy hit me when I thought of her with Alexia and not myself. I wouldn’t trust anyone else to be placed in that situation with Shikari. This must be done. I’m chanting over and over when I’m startled when a hand is placed on my shoulder suddenly. I look up and realize that, while I was in my inner war, Alexia moved to my side.

"It will be alright Sire; I’ll be respectful and she’ll be taken care of. I promise you that." She says as she thrusts her calming heat into my shoulder. I feel it spread through my body and instantly I feel more at ease.

"Thank you, Alexia. I know you will. It's not you I doubt, it’s me." The sadness and longing in my voice is evident and I know she can feel my inner turmoil. She sets her glass down and makes her way to the door before turning around.

"Sire, it’s no secret that I’ve longed for Shikari for years. I know she’s yours and I would never do anything to change that. I respect you and her, you should know, she still loves you. While she may still be extremely angry with you, she’s still deeply in love with you. Her soul is clean, and her desire is addicting. She became a close friend of mine before we left her. For that alone, I will forever protect her." She says just before taking her exit without looking back.

After Alexia leaves, I sit for a few hours finishing up my work and trying to keep my mind off Shikari and what it’ll be like seeing her again. The bulge in my pants makes it difficult to concentrate and it’s been ragging ever since I found out she was coming. I’ve tried to ease the pain myself however, it just won’t lessen the desire.

It's like my damn cock knows my hand is not her delicious body. I shift uncomfortably in my chair and groan in annoyance. I need a distraction. I pick up the phone and order the one girl in the club that has the same color skin and hair to come to my aid. A few minutes later Kay knocks on my door.

I yell for her to enter and she does with her personal sashay of the hips she thinks is sexy. Every submissive in the club is required to walk the floor naked only the Dom's are allowed clothing. So, I wasn't surprised when she walked in naked, however, I did notice her sporting a new red leather collar with diamonds studded across the leather. I could tell just by looking, the diamonds were real.

The submissives in the club are paid very well however, not well enough for her to afford the diamonds on that color. Must have been a gift. I think to myself before brushing the thought off. Her caramel-colored skin is just a slight shade darker than Shikari, and her curly hair is different but similar to hers as well. That’s where the similarities end. They have different eyes and different body features. While Kay is very thin and has small curves, Shikari’s all woman and has curves that make a man immediately notice and lick his lips.

On a personal level I can't stand this girl, she is needy and whines when she speaks. It’s honestly like nails on a chalkboard. But when I squint my eyes and make her keep her head down, I can pretend it’s the love of my life and not this girl in front of me. For that reason alone, I keep her coming back.

"On. Your. Knees." I command with my voice, knowing she knows the drill and what’s expected of her. She drops without question. "Crawl to me."

I watch as she again follows direct orders and comes toward me as she still sashays her hips while she crawls. She’s not ugly at all; she’s just not Shikari. I sigh and narrow my eyes to try and trick my brain once again as she finally reaches me. I look down at her as she kneels with her head bowed toward the floor and her arms laid above her head. She’s a pro at this.

"Lift up and unzip my pants and pull my cock out," I command her as I twist in my seat to allow her access. She crawls up and I feel her lift up as her hands slide up each of my pant legs. "Do not touch anything but my zipper and my cock." She stiffens in surprise at my command, drops her hands, and starts on my zipper. As she unzips my pants my cock pops out as if it were a clown jumping out of a damn jack in the box.

I narrow my eyes as I look down on her, she wraps her slender fingers around me and squeezes softly. As she moves her hands up and down, I imagine Shikari was in front of me watching like she used to do. I imagine her sitting up on my desk, her skirt cinched up around her waist. She has her legs spread giving me a show of my own. I lean my head back against my chair, "Suck my cock." I ground out the command as I continue to visualize the true woman I want. I see her legs spread with that sexy smirk she used to give me when she was excited. I imagine her touching her beautiful pussy, feeling her juices as she gives herself pleasure while she watches me get my cock sucked by some random woman.

She used to love commanding a woman to do her bidding on me. It excited her as much as it did me to watch her get off on it. Her pleasure was my pleasure and mine was hers. "Faster and deeper." I say in a husky tone remembering her saying the same thing once. As I get closer to my release, I see her in my mind's eye moving her fingers faster and dipping them into her core like I used to do.

She fucks herself faster and harder and I need to feel the same against me. "FASTER." When the girl on my cock starts to moan, I imagine it was Shikari moaning against her own pleasure of watching the girl on her knees before me. I see her release and imagine hearing her screaming my name as I come in the girl's mouth. Fuck I miss her. I think as my release comes hard and I feel Kay drink me down.

When she’s done, she stands, and notices my cock’s still hard. She tries to make a move to sit on my desk and I know she’s wanting me to fuck her. I won't. I never do. I haven’t been inside anyone since Shikari, and I won't. "No. Leave now." My voice came out harsher than I’d intended but I need her to know this is over.

"I can make you feel good, Sire. I can make you forget whoever it is that keeps you wound up." She says in a voice she thinks is sultry.

"No one can ever make me forget her and I don’t want to. Thank you for your assistance." I dismiss her without even a second look. I adjust myself and turn back to the work on my desk. I hear her huff and then make her way out the door. Once I know she’s gone, I sigh inwardly in exhaustion. After I clean up my desk, I make my way up to my room and get ready for bed. Tomorrow is going to be hard, is the last thought I had as I drifted to sleep with her name on my tongue and in my heart. Shikari…