1 Prologue

PROLOGUE

"Help!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I wake up from that dreaded nightmare.

There I found him beside me in the wee hour of the night. Staring intently as if I am a lab rat that might be intoxicated by his self-developed potion called charm. He is always like that. He never showed me any significant emotion. His chiseled face always remained as cold as my favorite Vanilla ice cream; but what the heck I still know that I cannot live without him anymore. Then when I am ready to stop this craziness, he hold me in his arms as tightly as he could

No. I have to think this through.

It bothers me that we are we are just sticking together because we are both broken. I'm afraid that if that's the case, this blissful moments… feelings are just in my far away dream. Who am I to deserve such an almost perfect man? With my flaws and insecurities, what I am doing in his warmth embrace?

No. I am not like this.

It bothers me a lot that I care about these stupid things. I never cared whether people would stay in my life or not. I am mocking their desperate cries in my head. Their overly romantic belief in fairytales make me vomit out of my wits.

"I am with you. I am here. Nothing matters than this," that soothing voice that I seldom hear, I swallowed all the sorrow… regret… pain that I want to shout to this unfair world. Once again I believe in the words such as love and happiness.