death and rebirth

warning: this chapter will be slightly graphic

It was just like any other normal day, I awoke from my bed still feeling like I could use another few hours (or days) of sleep... of course i know that it's my own fault. I tend to spend time that should be used for sleep on watching anime or reading manga.

I live in the UK so I have to be up and at it from 7:30 in the morning because I have to be in school at 8:20 or i will get a detention. Naturally i wake up late every day, and this is what started it all. On the first day of school, 2 years ago I got into school 2 hours late and everyone had already found their friend groups and i was apparently too late to join any of them (damn season 2 of COTE coming out at such a time).

I say that as if it's their fault but i just didn't put the effort into asking. Most of the girls in my school are what the Japanese would call a 'gyaru', who wear a certain style of clothes and dramatic make up. It just so happens that they all have such shitty personality's as well. As the 'loner' of the school, it seems i am the prime target of bullying. Don't get me wrong, i'm not fat or ugly by any stretch of the margin but i'm just average compared to everyone else and am (for some stupid reason) looked down upon for watching anime.

I won't get too into it but because of this i tend to skip the first hour of school to limit social interaction, and ultimately this will be my downfall. It was 8:47 and i was just walking to school, as I turned the corner i saw a manic man running at me with a knife.. and he went straight past me but when i took 2 steps forward i saw a business man bleeding out on the sidewalk seemingly stabbed in the abdomen. As i looked into the mans eyes, i could see the desperation to live and the fear as he watched as his very own life force left his body in the form a red, metallic liquid.

I walked to the side of the road to throw up and of course i was hit by a speeding car, yes you heard right, a CAR. NOT TRUCK-KUN AS ANY ONE WOULD WISH, THIS IS IT. IT'S OVER FOR ME, I WILL NOT REINCARNATE AND BECOME A PRINCESS OR AN S RANKED ADVENTURER. I'M GOING TO DIE LIKE ANY NORMAL PERSON!

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But as it turns out i was reincarnated, except into a completely normal world... how sad. Even sadder is the fact that i wasn't even born in japan, I was born into the united kingdom (again) as the only daughter to a very traditional, Tory man who looks down on everyone for one reason or another. On the one hand nothing is ever good enough for him but on the other hand i'm 7 years old and home schooled at a collage level.

He likes to say that it's because of his amazing genes but i know that it's because i have the memories of a similar world and life. At first i had a huge problem with these memories as a babies brain is not built for 18 years worth of memories. luckily a babies brain is also pretty much empty of memories so there was some room to compensate, I also found out i have a photographic memory. How do know this you ask? BECAUSE I CAN REMEMBER EVERYTHING, AND I MEAN EVERYTHING! I REMEMBER THINGS I USED TO NOT BE ABLE TO REMEMBER, I KNOW EVERY DETAIL OF MY PREVIOUS LIFE FROM THE MOMENT I WAS BORN TO NOW.

To be honest it's horrifying being able to remember the end of my own life, just lying there after being thrown a good 3 meters from a red Honda, the pain and suffering i felt as i slowly died. Watching as people got their phone out to record me instead of calling an ambulance to save my life. It was at that moment that i truly realized how cruel a person could be that they would rather get likes and comments online instead of saving a human life.

Another problem i had was with my own mortality, but not in the way you would expect. I didn't care anymore, why fear death when i'm just going to reincarnate? Why do i live? What's the point? Well i recently came to a satisfying conclusion, for fun. to reach a different ending each time. I am fully convinced that life is just a game.

However, that doesn't mean that I shouldn't study because that is an important factor in having fun, especially when I live in the world of CLASSROOM OF THE ELITE!