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Waking up in the morning is still the hardest thing for me to do these days. Flat stomach and no baby gives me the wicked nightmares and panics in the morning. Reminding me that my child is not with me and in my dreams or you can call these nightmares because I always find my child dead which makes it worse in the morning for me to wake up.

Sleep to me now is torture not until I get my child back with me. I still go to my therapy sessions and every day I find myself at the hospital NICU.

The gossip with Tia hasn't calmed down. I'm now labeled as a homewrecker, man stealer and worse names that I can't repeat. Just what she wanted, the media to tear me up to ruin my image. I can't even go out anymore because of this not like Derek would allow me.