5 Some Inner monologue and hope
The question in my mind right now is how to get as much personal as possible for the main phase of my plan.
But that could be left for future me, right now I just want to sleep and get all of this stress out of my system.
Even if I didn't show much of it right now I'm pretty much stressed out.
I have died, been chosen as a Gamer (one of my fantasies till I died admittedly), and got reincarnated in a pretty dangerous world that would do its best to fuck me over because of my drawbacks.
I'm hated by a fucking CONCEPT.
Not that it wasn't worth what I got in the end. I mean there wasn't anything besides the memories of a woman that I can't even remember the name of and my company that tied me to my past life.
*Sigh*
Even though I can't remember her name it still hurts me deeply to think about how she isn't by my side. I'm sure if she was alive when all of this happened I would have gone nuts and would say fuck all just to get back to her.
People might think that I was just another rich cold-blooded asshole who didn't know shit about love and loving.
They couldn't be more wrong.
I'm a man of family first and foremost. all I had done in past, all the happy families I destroyed, all the "Innocent" people I killed, both directly and indirectly, everything "Evil" I had done...
All were for me to see my little brother smile, to see him free of the burden of money, so he can just live his life to the fullest, which I couldn't do till it was too late...
*Sigh*
Wonder how that little shit is coping with my death.
*Chuckle*
Being a big brother was the best feeling I ever experienced in my whole dark life. till she came into my life my only light was that little shit and his stupid antics.
It might sound like an edglords inner monologue but anyone who has experienced being the big brother, who knows the taste of a kiss with nothing but love would have the same feeling.
*Sigh*
Enough with the depressing thoughts, I'm a Gamer now, it might be possible to see them both again.
[Regret? Gamers can't have that
Why would you be overthinking things? The Game was created to make a second chance without any regrets to all members of the association.
You're no exception master.
□ Objective 1: Find a way to get back to your tutorial world
□ Objective 2: Become the God of that world
□ Objective 3: Bring your lost love back to your embrace
□ Hidden objective: ???
■ Reward: ???, ???, ???
■Hidden Objective reward: Title: God]
[I hope this will help you, master]
... I'm so happy right now that I don't know what to say...
It was wishful thinking on my side to see them again but to think it could be achieved...
"... Thank you, Alicia." This could be my most genuine show of appreciation in my whole life.
And I fully meant it. ALL of the things I could have gotten don't come close to this piece of information.
I feel like I can do anything right now like I'm free like I have... hope to see her again.
And with those happy thoughts, the gentle hands of sleep embraced me in the land of dreams.
*Next morning*
Last night was one of the most relaxing periods of sleep that I had BUT, it was short-lived.
Around midnight I was awoken by a feeling that was foreign yet familiar. it took under a second for me to understand what it was.
Kotaro was a trained warrior, a true warmonger who went through hundreds of massive scale wars to assassinations, so his instincts were many times sharper than what you could imagine.
That feeling was his alarm against unwanted guests, so as I had all of his memories and experience it was not strange at all to have those same instincts.
The strange part was how I couldn't feel any bad intention or the so-called killing intent/bloodlust from the said guest.
Oh and killing intent/bloodlust is completely true according to my memories.
You know that the human mind releases some frequencies of energy in all states, like when you're in deep sleep as an example, and killing intent is just one of those many frequencies but it's released when you have the intention to kill someone.
And the reason became clear when I heard the voice of my guest.
"Look at my baby boys sleeping face, he's soooo irresistible." My dear (possibly yandere) mother said while creasing my hair.
Yup, yandere is right.
afterward, she just hugged me and slept with me till now that I'm awake.
Honestly, woman, your obsession with me is more unhealthy than what I remember from Yuno.
(A/N: Yes Kotaro, she's much worse.)
I have this feeling to punch someone's face right now, but I can't put my finger on who it is.
Anyway, after last night's discussion I forgot to ask something, 'Hey Alicia, show me my mother's Affection bar'.
[Nene Toyotomi
Lv 690
Rank: 98
Affection:100+]
... You thought I was OP? then what the actual fuck is SHE? Lv690??? Dude that's out of scope.
And she's in 100 with me already? OH HELL YEAH.
Fate was after my ass? fuck her (maybe even literally).
I have an OP mom bitch, now I'm after your ass.
Muhahaha *Cough* Ahem.
That was just a slip, nothing more. yes, nothing.
Anyway 'What is the plus Alicia, I thought 100 is the maximum.'
[The + means special mentality. it's mostly used for crazy people or the like.]
Ummm... now I'm a little scared.
[Go go, master, crazy is nothing in front of you~~]
Was that a compliment? meh, I take it as one. 'Thanks, Alicia, I guess.'
But really, even if she was "Normal", I wouldn't be surprised if her Affection was 100. not all parents love their children, that's for sure, but you can't deny the paternal loves existence in most of them.
Look at me if you want an example. an A-grade certificated multiversal level asshole, but I still played the parent role for my little brother.
Oh right, shouldn't I get the rewards for her Affection?
[Thought you would never ask~]
[Perk for reaching 50 Affection with Nene Toyotomi
Yandere Magnet
You Attract the crazy, but do you want to stick it in one?
Easier Affection gained with people with Yandere status]
[Perk for reaching 100 Affection with Nene Toyotomi
Moons blessed child
Your soul is blessed by the moon
Affinity with Lunar powers increased by 50%
Moon related power levels are far easier
Moon related being recognize you as blessed by their god]
I don't want to think about the first one too much but it's a plus anyway.
But the second one. depending on my Awakening Ceremony in three years this could be one of my best perks yet.
It doesn't say anything about the direct increase of power like my masteries but the advantage of increasing my rank faster is immensely appreciated.
Now I better wake this drooling mass of beauty, don't want to be late for my first meeting with my future subordinates, do we?
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So that's that.
What is your opinion? I tried to flesh out Kotaro a little and give you some info of his past.
please do tell me about it and if you find anything that slipped past my notice point it out in the paragraph comments.
Your ideas and suggestions are welcome and if I find it compatible I would surely use it.
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Your AWESOME author, peace out😉👍
