28 Angela's Interlude : What I want is...

This is not what I want. I didn't mean to do that. I don't know this will happen. It's not my fault. I just want to save the plot. No, it's not me. I didn't hurt him. It's her.

Kii is the one at fault here. She is the bug. She must be the reasons everything went bad. She has to be disposed of. She does not belong here. She is a villainess yet she didn't act like one. She ruined the plot. If she is gone, everything will go back to normal.

And Arzen-sama will wake up again.

It's not me. I didn't hurt him. I just want to save him. I didn't know the spell will have that effect. It was supposed to show Arzen-sama what he desired much yet regretted at the same time. It was supposed to show him 'a home' which supposed to be me. I'm sure deep down I was the one that Arzen-sama desired. I was his home, the one that can make him happier. I used the spell to show him that.

All because of Kii. It must be her fault that the effect changed. It's all her fault. It's because of her that now Arzen-sama been sleeping for a week.

I hate Kii. The fact that no one knew it was my spell that did it is no matter to her. She suspected me.

"Please counter-attack the spell or at least tell us what did you do to him" she bowed at me.

"It's not my fault," I told her.

"I'm not talking about whose fault is this. I'm talking about him being hurt, but you can help him. You can try the counterspell or if you tell us what spell you used, we can try to find the counter ourselves" she continued.

"Arzen-sama is not here. So, now you decided to show your true face and bully me?" I sneered at her.

"It's not bullying. I'm asking you to about what spell did you used. If I plan to bully you, trust me, you won't be standing all clean over there" she said.

"Are you threaten me now?!" I hissed.

"Should I?" she asked back.

"What makes you think it was my spell that makes him sleep?" I challenged.

"There was a trace of Holy magic used on him an hour before he was found. We both know that there is only one holy magic user in this Academy. I asked you nicely, but when The Royal Mage investigation comes out, they won't be so nice to you" she told me.

That bitch! How dare her to threaten me? I'm the heroine! There is no way I will be imprisoned.

"You just scared that when Arzen-sama woke up he won't be in love with you anymore!" I taunt her.

"I believe in Ace-kun. I believe in his love. Even if he stops loving me, as long as he is healthy and happy, that will be enough for me. What I want is his happiness" she said firmly.

Bullshit! The fake heroine thinks she was such a nice and pure girl. I will show her what fate a villainess like her should get. I will show her what a heroine like me can do.

"Tonight. Meet me here again tonight. Maybe I can tell you there. Come alone or don't come at all. And don't you dare to tell your brother!" I told her before I leave.

Such a mess. The plot is in a mess now. 

On Arzen-sama birthday party Kii was supposed to saw me and Arzen-sama danced in private and get jealous. On Aoi-sama birthday she was supposed to be imprisoned because of all her wrongdoing being found, but Aoi-sama didn't have a party here. She must be scared and forced Aoi-sama to cancel the party. 

What I can't forgive is the graduation party. She was supposed to be dead by then, Arzen-sama is supposed to confess his love to me and not propose to her! She stole everything that is mine. I won't forgive her!

So yes. It's time for her to be gone. I met these 'kind' men on vacation. I was lonely and we had fun. They are going to help me with Kii. Humph! She shouldn't mess with me. If she just gives up earlier, this won't have to happen.

The clock said it's 15 minutes before the promised time with her. I signalled the men to be ready in position.

After waiting for a while, I half expected she is too scared to come when her silhouette peeked from the corner. She was still in the outfit she wore this afternoon. Humph, lazy girl!

"Oh, so you came," I said.

"Of course I came. It's for Ace-kun" she said like it was an obvious thing.

"So, you want the answer?" I signalled the men to be ready.

"Yes, please," she told me.

"The answer is I don't know the counterspell, but you don't need to worry about that anymore. I will take good care of Arzen-sama" I smirked.

Kii widens her eyes and turns around to defend herself. She was too late, with a swift blow to her neck, she crumbled to the ground.

"Good job guys! Now take her away!" I told the men joyfully.

Finally, finally, now the plot is going to be back to the right track. Finally, I will get my happy ending!

"She is adorable, indeed. She will sell with a high price, I'm sure!" the leader smirked in satisfaction.

"Whatever," I told them "just get rid of her from here quickly!" I add.

"Na, Na, Na, darling! What you need to know about us scumbags are, one we are greedy. Two, never trust us. Three, we will take all possible profit" he said while walking toward me.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

He grabs me and kisses me on the lips. "You come with us too, darling. You will sell well for a sex slave" he smirked and rubbed himself on me.

"It's not what we agree on!" I pushed him.

"We don't do a deal, darling. You're our target from the start. Nice, sexy body, and good in bed. Ah, you're not only good but also enjoying it. As I told you, you will make a good sex slave. We will sell you after we had enough of you. This little lady here is just an extra. We thank you" he said before he signalled his men to capture me.

"You bastard!" I tried to attack them, but the men from behind me seized my hands and grab my hair.

The leader trailed his hand on my face and neck, I growl and spit at him. He growls back " don't be too full of yourself. You're not that special!" he said grabbing both breasts and bite my neck before he knocks me down too.

When my consciousness back I was in a prison and lying on a bed. My buttons were undone, somebody is sucking on my breasts and I have a dick inside me.

This lowly life! How dare them violated me when I was unconscious.

"Let go of me, you morons!" I shout at them.

Instead of letting me go, one man shoved his dick into my mouth, choking me. I tried to break free unsuccessfully. I love sex, but I hate being forced to do it.

"Just enjoy it. I know you love it. You're an example for them. An example that if they just do what we ask them to do, they will also feel good like you were" the man that was sucking my left breast said.

The morons! How can I enjoy this? 

"Remember that time? Just think we are in the same situation. The difference is that we have audiences now" the one on my left breast said.

That time? Ah, when they had gang banged me? I had so much pleasure back then. Now I think about it, the dick inside me feel so hot and big. Ah, it's Garu's. No wonder! They were right. Rather than fight it, I better enjoy it. They already did me anyway and we're already halfway. I won't able to fight them. What's the point?

Pleasure is better than regret. I'm already in a bad situation the least I can do is save myself from being in pain.

So I give up and give myself to them.

"Why?" Kii asked me after they left.

"Why what?" I sneered at her. "Why they touch me but not you? They must find me more attractive than you. Why I gave you to them? Because I hate you. You stole everything from me. Why I'm here with you too? Because they're greedy scums. That's it!" I snap at her.

"No. Why did you just give up? Why did you do that to your own body? Nobody will respect you if you don't respect yourself" she said.

"Shut up! You won't understand! Just shut up! There will be your turn soon or later. They won't just be satisfied with me alone" I warn her.

I don't know why I tell her that. I am aware I was not as fine as I seem to be. This situation reminds me of my past life. The past that I had buried even before I reborn here.

"I won't let them. We won't be here anymore when they come back" she said.

"Being confident is good, but overconfident is bad. We're hopeless. No one will save us" I told her.

"Having someone to save you is nice, but I'm going to save myself first. I can't afford to wait. I want to be back to Ace-kun side as fast as I can" she said.

"You're crazy! Look around us!" I snap. "You must be aware who had us by now."

"Slavers. Of course, I'm aware" she said.

"Then why?" I asked.

"Ben-kun said his master must be looking for him now and will save him" she pointed at the demon boy. "Polly-chan also said that she wants to escape from here" she then pointed to the sheep beastgirl. "Yulan-san along with Sera-san and Sora-san even already have strategies to escape. No one is giving up" she told me after she pointed at another demon boy and the elf girls.

"Oh, and how are you going to do that?" I mocked her. "She is a beast, demons are untrusted and they're not even humans" I point to each of them. They growl at me which I ignore.

"You're so pitiful," Kii said.

"You!" I start.

"Shush now, I only come to borrow this" Kii said before she took my hair pin.

"What the?" to my amazement the lock on her handcuffs undone easily. 

I was still in a daze even after she undone all our handcuffs like a pro. How can she know about picking a lock? 

"Ace-kun taught me" She answered my questioning gaze while her hands busy with the lock on our door. 

"There is no way a Crown Prince would know how to pick a lock!" I said in indignation.

"Shush... Do you want them to hear?" She glared. "And I said Ace-kun, not Crown Prince," she adds.

"They're the same person" I argue.

"They're not," she said with conviction. 

I was about to retort back when the lock on the door opened with a click.

"Shall we?" She asked with a smile.

Just what the hell is this girl? I asked myself as we find our way out stealthily.

Kii fought like an expert. I feel like I was watching a movie. She knocked every guard easily. She works with the rest of the other swiftly. I am convinced now that she was an assassin in her past life. No wonder she was such a cunning little girl.

We were deep in the forest now. One of the elf girls uses her magic to find us a place to hide in the meantime. When I asked them why don't they use magic to escape earlier, they look at me like I was an idiot.

"We will if they didn't place magic nullified barrier all over the place there" the demon boy snorted.

I scrunted my nose to him. Who the hell he think he is? A lowly demon like him trying to talk to me? He doesn't even have the right to breathe in the same air as me!

"Why do we even need to take her? She seems to be enjoying herself there. We should just leave her" he continued.

I open myself to retort. I was cut by the other elf girl. 

"I agree. She is not even appreciated your help, Kii-chan. Why did you take her?" 

I admit I was curious about that too. I turn to Kii who was placing Magic Protection around our place.

"Because she is there and I'm not her," she said.

"In other words you just want people to think you are nice" I sneered.

"I'm not nice. I didn't take you out there for a noble reason. I just don't want to feel bad for leaving a human being like you in a place like that when I know I can take you with me. I don't like you. If now you decide to go by yourself or keep being a nuisance by insulting them until they decide to throw you out. I won't help you. Your safety is not my responsibility. It's yours" she told me.

I gape at her. Stupid girl!

Soon everyone decides to take turn taking a watch while the rest sleep. Kii volunteer to be the first one. I just went sleep without bothering to join their discussion.

I was able to sleep for a few hours before I was awakened. I saw her standing in the entrance of the cave looking at the moon with a longing expression.

The moonlight shone on her makes her silver hair glistening. I admit, she looks enchanting right now. Deep down in my heart, a voice whisper "no wonder Arzen-sama fell deeply in love with her". I shake the voice. Yet, I can't tear my gaze from her face. She looks so sad and lost. And small. 

Kii looks as if part of herself is torn. She reaches her hand out as if to grasp the moon. "Ace-kun" she whispered.

Even in a situation like this, she still thinks about him. Her figure looks so lonely. I feel my heart thumped hard. What is this? What is this heavy feeling in my heart?

I rose and walk to her. She glances uncaringly to me. I sit near her.

"Why Arzen-sama didn't fall in love with me? I'm the heroine in this game, not you. We both a reincarnated person. What's so different about us? You're a villainess, why did you change everything?" I ask her.

"I'm not reincarnated. I born here and don't remember my past life. As to why Ace-kun didn't fall in love with you, I don't know. Maybe because he already loves me? I didn't use any magic on Ace-kun. Our love just happened. We didn't plan it." she said.

"You lied. The game plot becomes messy because of you!" I accused her.

"I did not lie. There is no plot. This life is no game. If you die here, you die. There is no reset" she said.

"If you're not around, Arzen-sama will fall in love with me," I told her.

"Have you ever fall in love Reyes-san?" She asked me. "I don't like you, but I like Noah-san. He will be sad if you are gone. He already lost so much. I don't want to be the reason he lost more" she said again.

"What this has to do with Noah?" I asked her.

"Have you ever listen to Angie-san heart inside you? Unlike the one that remembers their past from younger age, you remember after you have grown up. Before she becomes you she already has a life, has a love. Have you ever think about that?" she said.

"No. Angela is a heroine, she is..." I trailed. I never think about that. I just based myself from the game information, I never bother to find out who was I before I remember my other life. No...

"She is Noah-san beloved girl. They promised each other to get married after Noah-san graduated from Academy and then they will live in the countryside to be a farmer and grows Flowers. Angie-san like to grow things. That what Noah-san told me" She said.

"No. Noah is an heir. He will need to continue his father footsteps" I argue.

"Is he?" she asked.

I want to say yes, but suddenly I feel unsure. I only have information about Noah from the game. I never come to Noah place again even when I was supposed to live there in the past. I never meet Noah's family too.

Noah is only a stupid hotheaded man in my eyes, but somehow hearing that he told a story of his past with me, which I myself don't remember and sharing his dream to Kii, I feel hurt. I don't want him to do that. I always think that Noah will always stay by my side. Will always there. Thinking of the possibility of him leaving me makes me scare. So scare.

I turn to Kii. "Did Noah hates me?" I asked. I was afraid to hear her answer. I don't understand this feeling. Why the thought of Noah hating me scared me so much?

"I don't know. He vows to find out what is happening to his Angie. He called you an impostor but I know he still cares about you. If he doesn't, he will have already leave you by now" She told me.

I sat there shaken. What is it that I want? I don't know. But I'm sure losing Noah is not one of them. I don't even know that my feeling to Noah is this strong. I was too busy thinking about how to make Arzen-sama falls in love with me. I never spare a thought about losing Noah, because I was so sure that he will always be by my side whatever happen.

Will Noah really leave me?

It's been three days since we escaped from the slavers' hideout. So far everything went well. We are on the edge of the forest now. We almost on the border of The Elfen territory. 

The demon boy is a good leader. I hate to admit. The beast girl and demon kid seem to be unseparated now. Sora the elf was telling us the next route when they found us. They brought back up.

"Go!" Kii urged the kids as she found out that the backups are all quite strong magician.

"I won't let you!" one of the mages shouts and send a spell toward the kids. 

Kii interferes and froze the spell halfway with her magic.

We fought. I fought. But we were outnumbered. The only good thing is that Kii is good at fighting both with or without magic. She said she doesn't like me. She said my safety is not her responsibility, but she saves me anyway.

As I saw her fight, I feel tears start pricking on my eyes. In my past, I never had anyone defending me. People around me trying to use me for their own benefit, makes me do the same toward them.

This girl dislikes me. Her attitude and her words show that too. She didn't like me even for a bit, yet she still saves me.

Is this why they love her so much? 

Is this the reason why I never able to make Arzen-sama stop looking at her?

"What are you doing? Get away from here! Are you an idiot? If you can't fight, at least go and save yourself!" she yells at me.

Her dark magic dancing around her like a fire, while her hand shooting her Ice magic everywhere. Defending us and attacking enemies. She used her double magic at the same time, she will collapse soon. No, he should have collapsed by now.

"Aaargghh!" I screamed as one of the spells got me.

Kii turns to me and lost her concentration.

"No!!!!" I scream unconsciously as I saw her body blasted out.

Kii starts to stand but was soon collapsing again. Her legs give up.

"Kii-chan!" the elves and demon guy shouts at the same time.

"I'm fine!" she told us before she readied herself to fight again, she still on her knees. We knew then that she was not fine. 

The mages surrounded her starting to attack her with their spells at the same time. As I saw the spells heading toward her, I scream again.

What I want is her to be gone, but when it was about to happen, I don't want it to happen. What is going on? It may be because of what she said, maybe because I realised that she was right. This life is no game if you die here you die. Maybe because of, l also experienced this near-death situation that I am scared to see someone died. I don't know. I just don't want her to go.

"No! No! No!" I keep screaming.

"You should worry about yourself," my attacker said before he readied himself to capture me again.

Suddenly my attacker collapsed. I saw a demon-like fire headed toward Kii from the corner of my eyes. I turn to my saviour.

"Noah...sama" I sobs and throw myself to him, not caring that he might be hating me or maybe he was here to arrest me. I just want to be in Noah's arm this moment. I don't understand why but I just want to be with Noah.