2 Real

I remember how the melancholic sound made its way on my ears, the steps hovering towards each step as the music turned higher and higher until I was left breathless.

Then I opened my eyes.

His eyes remained cold, his gaze piercing through my brown eyes as I breathed into his familiar scent: clean and misty. He was holding my waist, though the heat of his hands didn't travel into mine for it was just slightly grazing. We're in a position where we can feel each other's heartbeat, perhaps if his eyes weren't looking at me with such pure hatred and disgust.

'Ah, this is a dream from the past' I said inside my head, with those thoughts, I leaned over his face and slightly graze my lips into the corner of his mouth. He remained still, as if he was a statue, but when my lips kissed him, he stiffen in his place.

"Thank you"

Then pear like tears formed into my eyes and fell down on my cheeks, staining my maked up face. His eyes shook slightly when he saw my tears, as if I was possessed like a demon, he started blinking and clenching his jaws.

"Ying Zhen.....what the hell are you doing?" His restrained voice startled me, but when his grip on my waist tighten and the pain from it travels into my head, I suddenly grew blank.

Then for a moment, I think of the unimaginable.

"No-No! Your lying! No.....no...I don't want to.....I don't want to!"

It wasn't what I wished for! I do not want to live in this world again! I only wanted peace, why wouldn't god even grant me this single request?!

I didn't notice his concerned gaze nor the shock looks of the people around me, but instead I run away as fast as I can. Not minding the tall heels on my foot, I run as if I was running for my life.

The long and silent hallways screamed at me, my eyes were misty, blurred from the continuous tears that are still falling from my eyes. My feet halted when I suddenly fell from the garden because of a rock which made my heels stuck. The pain from the fall became the evidence, I was still lying to myself.

But now that the facts where showed in front of me, all I could do was to mourn from it.

"Ying Zhen! Are you mad?! If this is the way you want me to notice you then fine! You got my attention so stop running away!" His frantic tone made me suspicious about this whole ordeal but when I look at his eyes, I knew it was real.

He still held that biting frost of coldness when he looks at me, and his words remained the same; it still made me clutch my heart in tremendous pain.

"Why?! Wei Feng Li! I don't want to do this anymore! I don't want to live this life again!" Crying with such great sorrow, tears flowed in my eyes as I sat into the ground, still hysterically shouting.

"Zhao Ying Zhen! Stop it" He hissed while he painfully grab my wrist but I bit his hands and took a stone with a shard edge and pierce it in my pulse which smeared my white dress with my ow blood.

"Young miss!" Shout the familiar voice of my Nanny Rong which made me smile, ignoring the pain in my pulse as I let it freely fall in my dress.

"Let her. She wants to kill herself then let her do that"

FengLi turned his back, his shoulders were wide and every step emits a dangerous feel like he was a predator, walking into his den.

Before I could loose consciousness, I shouted his name, his back remained turned until I said.

"Thank you, Feng-ge"