38 38. ....their use....

What happened, you ask?

To know that, let's go back in time for a few minutes...

Qin ZiXuan was lost in his thoughts for a second when the doctor checked his eyes.

He was lost in his own world while his eyes never left her.

It was always like this for him, yes, it may sound cliche but it was real for him.

If it was not business related matters like meetings, appointments or such, then, whenever she was beside him, everything turned blur, as if, they were insignificant to him, which they were though it is cruel to them.

He was asked to close his eyes by her but every second he spent with her was too precious for him to close his eyes and miss it, he loved her and no words were enough to describe the feeling.

Sometimes even he was not sure himself.

Just why did he love her so much?

He could give many many reasons for it.

In his dark rotten world, he found his amnesty in her; she took him out of that vile cage called his 'past'; she made him feel needed, that he, himself was allowed to live his life, that he was no one's replacement, that he was allowed to choose the life he wanted to live; she had him experience everything and every emotion he needed to call himself a human and not a monster, she made him know the joy of having a loving family, she also made him feel the despair and helplessness of being too weak, she made him learn to be patient, finally she made him experience and delve in the deepest shade of love, the love he felt for her but still, to him this would be a superficial 'reason'...

Deep down he knew the answer to this silly question that has risen countless time in his heart, and no, he wasn't questioning his feelings for her rather it was just that, sometimes he felt like he was living a dream and when he wakes up he will go back to that darkness; she was the reason he was able to climb out of it so, it's a given that he will fall back into that abyss if she wasn't by his side and he was actually frightened of that because the him, from back then, was someone who couldn't even dream of having so many emotions inside of him, back then, it was impossible for him so, he always finds himself asking such questions.

Well anyway, the answer to that question, for him, would actually something that he wouldn't have expected of 'him', from back then, to be!

It was quite romantic, if he sad so, himself and very cliche, 'Did Love ever require a reason. Isn't it just meeting a person and before you know it you find them to be a part of your life already? Isn't it just feeling the warmth and comfort of home, when you are beside them?...Did it ever needed your mind to think of a reason, wasn't it just your soul finding it's mate and acting on its own to have them in your life?'

Ah! Isn't it also about how you always go out of tangent, when you think about them like just now?

Well, anyway back to the topic.

Since, he was looking at her from his high vantage point stealthily, so that, he didn't arouse her suspicion as she took him carefully to her room with the team of doctors and concerned staff in tow, he didn't take notice of the 'doctors' themselves.

Even inside her living room, all his eyes could concentrate on was her busy figure, taking calls and responding to some others as she prepared some freshments for the team so, he genuinely had not noticed the eyes of a new face in the team who had his eyes locked on her since, the first time he saw her.

When the middle-aged doctor finally coughed to get his attention back, did he come out from his staring spell at her, no it was not a neurological disorder, it was just him zoning out.

He appeared nonchalant and kingly like it was not him who has been staring at someone so much so that, he had forgotten the existence of the doctors themselves.

Well, it was true.

They didn't deserve his attention while she was still here.

Wasn't this just some checkup?

He could have it whenever he needed it plus he didn't actually care about it.

He knew it was some kind of small infection as the itching had already receded a lot compared to earlier, just some drops, a night of good sleep and he would be alright again.

He only came because she would get angry otherwise and also that if he appeared to be a bit in discomfort, she would leave everything and take care of him; he could kill three birds at once, he got an actual checkup, her anger from the morning would be forgotten and he gets to be taken care of by her, a great deal for him, he had an evil smile in his head as he eyed the doctor, 'sometimes, they do have their use'.

If the doctor who was intimidated by the eyes and looks of the young master and demon-ice-emperor of the whole business world in C-country, knew what was going through his mind he would have already puked oceans of blood.

Atsuki's corner:

Qin ZiXuan: Jiiiiiiiii....(Japanese onomatopoeia for staring)

Qin Meilin: I feel like XuanXuan is staring at me.

She takes a small peek at him from over her shoulders while multi-tasking of readying some drinks for the visitors and answering a call from the team.

She meets his eyes or more particularly, the eyes which were stuck on the macarons and cookies she had placed in a plate.

Qin Meilin: "....."

Atsuki: 'Believe me what he likes and wants to eat, is definitely not those.'

Qin ZiXuan, who had shifted his eyes just a second before she peeked back due to intuitions: "....."