16 Chapter 15: Fiance

"Do you understand my reasoning yi-er?" Grandpa asked as he looked at me dotingly. i know he loved me but i don't understand why the need of marrying me for someone to take care of me, isn't hiring helper enough? but since i don't want to disappoint grandpa, I'll agree to it.

"Here" grandpa said, extending his hand to me to pass a calling card. " it's your fiance, be good to her, alright?!" he asked and to placate me with his gentle smile, so i just nodded.

pushing the button, my wheelchair started to wheel back to my room to sort out this situation.

My name is Li Yi, a successful model of my generation. my life is perfect and on planned, I'll be marrying my lovely girlfriend sunny, limiting my model performance and slowly started to mix in my grandfather's company until the company pass to me and then have a lovely children with sunny. Everything was perfect until that accident, an accident that my change well planned future.

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tap.tap.tap.

a series of tapping keyboard could be heard in the room as jian seriously working on his laptop.

"Here. Everything about the girl have been summarize already, you could check it out and see for yourself what that chick special to be chosen." as jian move his seat, i slowly move infront using my wheelchair

I carefully read the girls history and friends she's been with. family she belonged to and her occupation. I was shock when i saw a photo of me together with her, i look at cousin and raise my brow. Im confuse how am i related to her that i even smiled brightly in this picture, different from what I've been with sunny.

"Seriously, im also confused that you can't remember her." he said scrutinizing any reaction from me "You met here before, you go out with sunny"

I slowly frown and contemplate things. How could i forget her? I mean she looked familiar but my mind won't remember how we met. Maybe she was not ttat important? but my smile ..... that smile. i really look happy that time.

"Forget it, don't force yourself to remember if you can't." he said, then looked at me hesitantly "It's probably around that time, that you started using drugs that you forget her"

I silently looked at him and bitterly laughed. He's tight, maybe she was connected to that woman.

"Look for more accurate details about her now, ill be seeing her this weekend" i said then turn around to walk around the balcony.

why would i forget you? why would i feel this pain when i saw you in the party, i cant even let my eyes of you.....Just, just who are you for me?

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"State the price, how much my grandfather promise to give you and I'll double it" I looked at her, feeling a little disgusted. she even organize our wedding without meeting me? is she desperate like other girls, like her?

Melody looked away, but i saw a little hurt in her eyes. I unconsciously clenched my fist, and my jaw tightened. why would i say that? is it because i was irritated by what she was organizing without my consent?

My heart felt uncomfortable seeing her looking down, obviously avoiding my eyes making me annoyed. why would she avoid looking at me? is it because im crippled now?

"Hey are you listening? don't delay me just state the price and stop those nonsense that your preparing!" I yelled as i felt hurt for some reason of thinking that she disliked my condition. that im useless now.

She licked her dry lips and looked up at me, her cautiously looked at me making me irritated "Brother Li Yi, i....." "SHUT UP!" I yelled interrupting her from speaking. the way she called me let me remember that woman, can she just call me by my name and without that eyes. that eyes that looked exactly the same emotions. that pitifully pleading for me.

"you think, you have the right to call me intimately?" I said hatefully, i disdain that way of addressing me.

"Meiren Song you underestimate your identity! your just a lowly woman who was after my family's property, so dont think highly of yourself! got that?!" he looked at angrily, why would she looked at me like that? like she was horrified. am i that disgusting?

"I...I....." she choked on my words as her lips pursed. she close her eyes and slowly breath, then looked at my eyes.

"I want a family" she said and looked at me seriously taking me off guard, she was going off topic " I don't want to be lonely" she said, i saw my reflection in her beautiful eyes. my heart tightened, i looked at her seriously this time. who's not wanted having their own family? who's want to be lonely? I also want that but sunny broke my heart, she destroy my only dream. a complete happy family!

I looked at her deeply and said "I might kill you, if i have the chance. Do you still want to marry me?" I asked. i might killed her if she too would abandoned me. I don't want to have another false hope. i dont want to dream of those things again. I'll be going crazy if there is a second times that my heart will be disappointed.

I saw her became scared and a bit nervous but slowly became calm. I don't know why but my heart beat loudly, as she think seriously about what ive said. I know i don't know her but there's something in my heart that tells me we've know each other. way before this. way before i met sunny but why did i forget her? why does it hurt when she looks scared? why does i feel this toward her. as if im begging her to accept me. as if her denying would destroy me. I thought, I've already give up about relationships? about a perfect family? what is happening to me? i cant understand myself.

"That's fine. it's only a matter if i can get you accept me as a family before that, right?" she suddenly said making my heart jolt in unexplainable happiness.

This kind of happiness, I've never felt from sunny. what does this feeling mean? it's impossible that im in love with her right? why am i looking forward to this silent agreement between us?

Just what happened that i forgot about her?