36 I finally found you

Feng Qiao was still in the bathroom curled up in a ball.

His eyes were in a daze as the memories resurfaced.

Now that the pictures were known throughout the university, he knew that he could never show his face here anymore.

He couldn't take the pain the second time around.

More importantly, he was scared.

Not because what would other people think about him.

But what would the team think about him.

What would Zhao Lin think about him?

Feng Qiao couldn't care less even if the whole university condemned him.... As long as the team was by his side.

As long as there's even one person who would stay by his side he could take any insults thrown at him.

Just like how he could survive the bullying before because he has Jiang He, his only friend.

However, once that was gone...

Feng Qiao trembled as he thought of that possibility.

They are his most important people and he couldn't take it if they grew to hate him or be disgusted with him.

He just.... couldn't.

He was sure that the team must've heard of those pictures by now.

He wonders what are their reactions. Would they believe those pictures? They must've believed those... After all, everyone believed it.

Senior Xiao Yu... Senior Wang Shu... Senior Shao Wei... Would they hate me too?

Would they stop talking to me?

Would they look at me with those eyes like others?

And Senior Zhao Lin....

Feng Qiao curled up further to hug himself as he thought of Zhao Lin, his hands turned red due to his tightly closed fist.

Senior Zhao Lin probably now knows that I'm a Fag. Would he hate me? After all, I would always try to get close to him. He was disgusted for sure...

A face of Zhao Lin looking at him with contempt in his eyes appeared in his mind.

Feng Qiao tried his hardest to take that image away from his mind.

No... No.... D-don't.

Feng Qiao's whole body trembled.

That's what he dreaded the most. And he knew that if Zhao Lin grew to hate him, he would probably break completely.

Feng Qiao didn't know how long has he been sitting there and suddenly his phone rang.

He took it out and saw that it was Zhao Lin calling him.

Feng Qiao was shaking.

W-why is he calling me?

Fear enveloped Feng Qiao. He doesn't want to know what Zhao Lin thought about him. He was scared.

Just as he was about to hang up, due to his hands trembling, his hand slipped and answered the call instead.

"Feng Qiao? Hello, Feng Qiao!"

Feng Qiao heard Zhao Lin's voice through the voice and series of noises in the background.

Feng Qiao put the phone on his ears and didn't talk.

"Feng Qiao? Tell me, where are you?" Zhao Lin asked. Feng Qiao could faintly hear Senior Xiao Yu and Wang Shu talking at the background.

Feng Qiao didn't answer, how could he face them right now?

"Don't tell me then. Just stay there. I'll find you." Zhao Lin said as he hung up.

Feng Qiao was slightly stunned. He would find me? How? The university is so large, how could he find me?

However although he didn't think that Zhao Lin could really find him, his heart couldn't help but speed up.

He was looking for me...

Was it because he was angry?

Or... Is he worried?

Feng Qiao hugged his knees as he silently hoped in his heart that Zhao Lin wouldn't hate him...

And that he would come and find him.

Seconds, minutes, an hour passed by.

Still no signs of Zhao Lin.

Just as Feng Qiao was about to lose hope, the cubicle door was opened abruptly.

Feng Qiao looked up and saw Zhao Lin dripping in sweat, his breathing was rushed as he ran for a long time.

He.... really came.

Feng Qiao fell into a daze as he stared blankly at Zhao Lin.

"I finally found you." Zhao Lin muttered as he looked at this pitiful cat curled up in a corner, frightened and alone in this cold and desolate room.

He could feel something in his chest hurts seeing him like this.

Zhao Lin went closer to the still dazed Feng Qiao and embraced him in his arms!

Zhao Lin patted Feng Qiao's back gently while muttering gently to his ears, "It's okay. Everything is alright. Don't be afraid."

As if it was some kind of magic words, upon hearing these words from Zhao Lin, Feng Qiao's dull and blank eyes gained it's light as tears burst out from it.

All of the pain he was holding back in his heart seems to burst out from this moment.

Feng Qiao wailed loudly as he poured his heart out while tightly holding on to Zhao Lin, his only warmth, afraid that this was all just an illusion.