2 Just me

Ugh, I woke up feeling dizzy and my whole body hurt. Um... The pills.... Where are they? I get up. Find any scrap of clothes I could wear on the dirty ground. I don't feel going out today. Still, I have to. If I remember correctly, an art gallery outside is open. I'll check that out. Maybe they serve some free appetizers or hors d'oeuvres. On the street, I saw some thugs fighting each other. Suddenly, they looked at me. I ran away as fast as I could. For some reason, seeing them fighting made me panic even though it's none of my business. I don't know why.

I went to the library and saw some colouring pictures. I suddenly want to colour some Disney characters. I ask the librarian if I can use some crayons to colour them. He told me no. I was sad. I went to find my favourite book. The "Alphabet with colours and images" book was in my hand. Hidden in a dark corner, I start to read and sup on my thumb.

Um? Why am I in the library with such a childish book in my hands? What time is it? Oh no. The art gallery is already closed. Arg. Again. A day with no food. I might die at this rate. I wake up my sleepy body from its crouching position and I went back to my "cave". I went outside to find my usual spot. Wrote the same words every day, "Please spare some changes for medicine". Pathetic. But it's the only thing that works. A few hours later, I managed to collect 20 bucks. Enough for lunch and these goddamn pills. I went back home with my head lowered and I wasn't paying attention to where I was going. I didn't have to look anyways, people always disdains me from the corner of their eyes. So what? I can't change anything right now. I bumped into someone really strong and mumbled out a sorry. The person didn't respond. Oh well, maybe he didn't feel anything. I'm just a fly. I stroll around the streets when suddenly, someone pinned on the wall next to me. My wrist hurts but I didn't show it on my face.

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I drive to my house where the suppose dinner with the Ming family was supposed to happen. I hate blind dates. Me, Ekon Zhou, blind dating? As if I have the time for it. all they want is money. I can probably pay them to leave me. Sure it's cruel but so what? Or else, these annoying "flies" will keep buzzing around me. Better get rid of them early than late. Besides, all these women are white lotuses. All they do is pretend each day to be meek and gentle just for protection. Somehow, some bastards like Leo, my only friend, still fall for it. How dumb is he? I walk with a foul mood when someone bumped into me. Well, not a bump, barely a little push, Still, it irked me and I pinned her on the wall. Ouch, my nose! What a foul smell! I look at this woman and realizes it's a homeless person. Perfect, whatever violence I do, they won't be able to report it.

"Hey! Why did you bump in me without saying sorry? Huh?" I yelled at her.

"..."

No responses. Is she such a scaredy-cat? I look at her face and all I see is a blank expression. she's not even looking at me nor trembling. Is this how normal people react to these types of situations?