7 Seven

I am staring at nothingness because I feel that every decision I made in this whole week are all mistakes. I thought I was already expert on this department, but that girl made it more harder for me. She's too hard, it was to difficult to made her fall for me.

Wait, I still didn't confirm her feelings for James. I need to confirm it, it may be brought me an idea to solve this.

I search her contact info on my phone and as soon as I saw her number, I dial it. There are things I need to confirm and plan my next move very carefully. I will make that campus queen fall for me.

"Hello, o' its you nerdy man. What do you need?"

"I just wanna ask if you have feelings for James."

"Yes I have."

"A' oooh. WAIT!! You did have feelings for him and you're not embarrassed to say that!?"

I heard a sigh in the other line after that, we quietly waiting for each other to talk.

"You know nerdy man, instead of asking who I like, why not use your time to make me fall for you?"

I should ask this sooner, I've been meaning to ask her this all the time. I know, I only do this for Carmela, but I don't know how it would affect to their arrange marriage if ever Thea fall for me.

"Why should I make me you fall for me, instead of just pretending infront of your parents."

She became quiet again. I give her a few minutes to talk and she didn't. I am waiting for her answer when someone suddenly push me at my back.

Then the call ended.

"You ask me why I need to fall in love with you?"

I look at the girl standing infront of me, you can see at her face the pain. I have an idea but I'm not quite sure if I am right.

She sit beside me and she just sitting there and give me a sigh. She might just controlling her emotions right now and readying herself to talk.

"Listen nerdy man. I really love that man and I want you to get rid this feelings for him." She said.

She love him. I have already my own conclusion that she loves him, based on her reaction on the mall. But look at her now. I can't even imagine this girl falling in love with this nerdy man. I sigh then took my glasses off and fix my hair.

I placed my hand on her chin and make her loom at me and she really look surprised. I caught her off guard. I can see her blushing, I think my charm still works.

"Would you prefer this look or the nerdy one?" I ask her.

She smiled at me with a seductive look. I was taken back. Seems she's not affected by my charms.

"I prefer this hot guy than the nerdy one." Then she says.

~~~

I look at the mirror again and heaves a sigh. Shit, am I sure in this? If I do this now, I can't turn back. If I expose myself in the university looking like this, I can't turn back into my nerdy look anymore.

I can still wear nerdy looks and clothes but the one they will see is the real me, and not the nerdy one.

I closed my door after few more consultation to myself. I walk towards dining table to grab some sandwich and leave. I saw Mom in the dinning table and it is really rare, I might as well join her.

"Hi mom."

Then she look surprised.

"Wow. That's my son."

I just smile and grab a sandwich. I need to balance my diet now. Since I start dressing as a nerdy man, I lost my balance due to studies and writing.

"O' son, the breakfast I prepared will be wasted if you will not eat plenty." She said.

"Did you close the deal with the Canadian businessman, Mom?" I ask to change the subject.

Mom are away in this past few days because she is setting the deal in Canada. We have a restaurant there, and we have plenty of branches here in the Philippines so she's making a deal outside of the country to negotiate to the authorities there.

And it looks like she made the deal, so she came back.

"No son. It's hard to put up a business out there." She said.

I'm shock on what my Mom said. My Mom is talented in comes of negotiation, so it is real shock if she got turned down in her offer."

Well atleast she will not get busy in following days. All her branch are managed by the appointed manager, so she can rest well until the next deal she will make. Our restaurant's name became a company afterall, with a lot of business partners. My Mom made a business in food service industry.

After we finished our meal, I say goodbye to her.

~~~

While I am on the car, you can see at my face that I am hesitating on doing this. Am I sure in this? There's no turning back if I did this.

I am back on myself when I heard someone knocking at my window. It is Carmela. Shit, how I can introduce myself looking like this? She didn't know my past and my real self.

I calm myself and I don't have plan and guts to leave the car and face her, but when I saw her crying, I heave a sigh and get my eyeglass eventhough I'm wearing contact lense. Then I fix my hair into two.

Then, I open the door.

She threw herself to me. She is hug me tightly, and since it is hard to breath, I tap her shoulder lightly to let her know that I can't breath properly. She loosen her hug but she still hugging me and start cry hard.

"D-Dale... Dale.. He is getting married." She said in between on her crying.

Then I was shock. We have agreements that Carmela will never know about this. I held her shoulders and loose her hug, then I ask her.

"Who told you that?" I ask her.

Her eyes widen.

Shit, I can't contain my anger.

"J-James."

I feel her fear at me. The way she look at me is the way others look at me when I stare at them like this. I know, she is scared of me right now.

I closed my door and walk away from Carmeka. I know what I need to do, it's now or never. I came back at the car to leave my eyeglass there and leave.

Before I could walk away, Carmela stop me.

"What will you do, Dale!?" She ask me.

I was furious at her and James.

"What!? You are going to be a stupid again?, damn it Carmela. I always give him a chance to redeem himself and love you wholeheartedly, but still you have that expression on you!!" I am mad at her.

She's crying while hugging my arms, begging me to stop.

"I didn't do any harm on him since you love him, I patiently waiting for him to love you more, but now. Sorry Carmela, I can't take it anymore." I said.

I get her hands off on my arm and walk towards the gym faster. He is basketball varsity also. When I reach the gym, I ask someone to call him for me and meet me at the back of gym. I don't want my friends to be involved on this.

Why? Why it has to be that scumbag! Carmela didn't deserved to be treated like that, and it's been a long time that she always endures that pain inside of her. I can't see, why he loves him so badly that she clung on him after all his torment against her.

I wait for him at the back of the gym. When I heard a footstep, I look at that person's eye. My face are full of anger and pain. He smile at me.

"So you show your true self, Dale." He said.