1 First

We have the rights to love whom, even if your ugly, or detestable. Life is unfair, it is injustice. I am simple, and what I like is just simple.

I may have a dark past, but I buried it and no matter what happens, I will never go back to what I was before. I sick tired to what I used to do.

Now I am just a normal 2nd year student in IE University. If you ever ask me what I look like, I look like a nerd or should I say, I am nerd. I always wear long sleeve checkered polo, a boe tie and thick eyeglass, of course my hair always fixed in two sides.

As I am about to tell my story, I want you to listen very carefully on what I am going to say. There's nothing wrong on loving a girl/boy who's already committed, because love is unconditional, even if you tell him/her that you like him/her, he/she didn't need to love you back, love is all about sacrificing and selflessness.

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"Dale, What should I do? James are with another women again." She's crying.

I look at Carmela as if she is stupid, no, it's not as if, she is already stupid. She's my precious friend and I will do anything for her. I hug her and let her cry on me. She cried while hugging me, I can't do anything right now, even if I do anything about it, Carmela will just hate me for it. I pat her head while having a sad look on my face.

"Sshh.. I already told you about him but you are stubborn, I give you so much advice and yet you always do stupid decision. If you're not my friend, I will just live you here." I said at her in low voice but you can trace the sadness and anger.

She let go in my embrace and face me, I can see her tear stained eyes. Her eyes is saying that she can't take it anymore, but she always betrayed what she see. I wipe her tears using my handkerchief.

"I love him, and it is not easy to let go of this feelings." she said sadly.

I felt her pain, those eyes, her looks. I fixed my eyeglass and pat her head again. I give her the look 'I know'.

She smile at me sadly and said,

"Dale, am I not enough? Is there something wrong with me? Am I bad at relationship?" She ask.

I look at her for a second then look at the flowers in front of us, I just stare at it shortly and after that I look at her again. Her expression is telling me to give her a push for their relationship, but I prefer to not say anything that will make her more stupid.

"Carmela, there's nothing wrong with you, you are already a good partner for him, infact you're too good for him. You know what is the problem? no, you know who is the problem." I said.

She already know the answer so she stay silent and she just look down. She's crying again silently and she's forcing herself to contain the pain and sadness she felt towards James. But, I can't take it anymore.

I stand and lift her face to look at me, her eyes is watery and its swollen. I just close my eyes and sigh. I saw James and he's looking around the garden, perhaps she's looking for Carmela.

Carmela took notice on it and she look at me as if she's assuring me, her expression tell that she's okay and let her go.

"Go..." The words I can only say right now.

She smile at me and thank me for hearing her out, after that, she run towards him. My heart sank. Why choose a person who can't love you wholeheartedly? I glare at James and giving him a warning look.

Then he just smirk at me.

CAN I KILL THIS GUY!?

I left the place mad and hurt, I take a walk on the campus and find my friends. Yes, I have a friend. I took notice the four guys I'm looking for.

They notice me approaching them and while walking towards them I notice that they are grinning at me. What the hell, did they see me earlier? If that's the case, then I know why they are grinning at me.

"So, what's the result of your continues effort of giving an advice to person who doesn't pay heed the advice they get?" Phil teasingly said.

They laughing at me, O' God! That's why I don't want them to be involved in my wasted effort in Carmela, they are always like this. I wanna smack them in the head.

"Stop your feelings for Carmela, no matter how much effort you put, it doesn't matter. She's an idiot you know? and so are you." Edwin said.

I look at him as if he said something impossible. Yes, it is really impossible to get rid of these feelings, just like Carmela said earlier. I love her, she love him. That's why love can sacrifice everything for their loved ones, I can sacrifice my feelings and be like this because love is selfless, and I really love her.

I snatched the sports drink in Andrei's hand and took away the french fries in Migs hands. They are siblings, Andrei is the oldest one and Migs are 1 year younger. Migs is a member of the band in this campus.

Edwin and Andrei are basketball varsity, while Phil is a varsity in Soccer. They are well known in this campus, and here I am. Well, they know me very well. These four guys are my friend since high school, and they know what I am and who I am in past.

"Soon you will understand me, Edwin. Just wait." I said.

I look at him in a meaningful way and he just smile at me. He understand what I am saying.

"Dale, we're heading in our next class. How about you?" Andrei said.

"We're going to be late, lets go. Later, Dale" Migs said.

They are classmates in every subject since they take same course. They take business administration, and I took Entrepreneurship. In all subject, we only have 1 same schedule.

"Okay, later guys." I said.

I throw away the empty sports drink bottle and french fries small paper plate in the trash bin. After that, I run towards the comfort room because I need to pee and I can't resist the urge anymore. I immediately open my zipper and let my urge free.

O' God, I feel relieved.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THE GIRLS COMFORT ROOM!!?"

A loud voice was heard in the comfort room, and I am shock and immediately turn around.

"AHHHHHH, WHAT ARE YOU DOING!! THE BIRD'S OUT."

I immediately turn my back at her and zip my pants.

"PERVERT!!" She screamed.