Mr. Bad boy {JK FF Chapter: 4}

"Miss y/n please step forward to claim your awards."

finally, sitting impatient to wait for what was right in front of her was impossible to be patient. she's been waiting for this, working her whole life, long and hard for this and now it was right in front of her. she walked gracefully letting her beautiful blue dress fall beautifully. as she took the 3 awards assigned to her significance, hard work, and passion. as she held the award her lips lifting up to her blinding smile she wasn't even aware about.

her eyes searched the room for her parents but their faces were nowhere to be seen. pictures were taken. strangers. all of them.

click click click

she smiled even though. her masked face would not break no matter what circumstances she was at. this is one of the best victories she had. she was happy. But why did she feel so incomplete? was it the mysterious boy she thought she would never see again? was it the new friendship she had made with the boy with many regrets? Or was it the fact that wanted to ignore and kept it deep down in her heart?

she claimed her awards before standing with the row of hundreds of students.

it was the time for the principal to give his speech. Y/n found herself in disbelief when she got a clearer view of the principal. almost impossible that he looked a lot like Jungkook, the careless mysterious boy. she kept a fake smile plastered on her lips.

Jimin nudged her shoulder.

"what are you thinking about dummie?" he asked her softly his face bare he wasn't hiding any emotions. He was genuinely happy with 1 award.

she nodded flinching back from jimin. before shaking her head to scold her herself. It's just Jimin she reminded herself. she moved her hair back to the side before answering Jimin

"I was just thinking, I know this sounds crazy but, look how much the principal looked like Mr. bad boy." she said her voice filled with humor as she thought of him. at that time he appeared scary to her. but now? she thought how stupid it was of her to react like that. It left her fond of the scary guy.

she only had to bear it for awhile until she left the school. the ceremony was over. there were families meeting each other, others laughing taking pictures. everyone was so happy she envied all of them.

Jimin had already left. Dahyun was also long gone since the fight in the cafeteria she was only here for a vacation anyways.

Jisoo was currently at the university she was going to abroad having a tour around in America. she had received her award and everything else early because she had made a request about how she had to shift abroad which would make this very impossible for her. Y/n smiled bitterly. she walked holding her heels in her hand her beautiful aura becoming more and more bitter as she walked on sharp rocks. she smiled.

she walked home. no one was home either. she carefully locked the door before walking into her room. she shut the door turning the lock on. she let her tears slip. she let her sobs get out as she fell miserably onto her knees.

"why me?" she screamed looking at the ceiling expecting a reply back from the God who had shaken her life up like this. even her guardian angels couldn't help her she was a mess her feet bleeding. she realized she must've accidently stepped on glass that was on the sidewalk. with her shaky hands she treated it. she didn't want her mom to see. she was going to become a surgeon like her mom wanted her to be.

tears slipped her beautiful eyes, her cheek felt wet soaked with tears, her sobs escaping with so much pain she was so vulnerable.

she hugged her knees surrounding herself in this tiny black hole. she kept counting to 3 in her head. but it didn't work she was too worked up. she started packing. she tore her dress away from her fragile body that was apparently at fault. she insulted her goddess like body in mirror she wore baggy grey sweats and a loose navy blue t-shirt as if she was ashamed of herself. she wanted to disappear.she let out a scream of frustration when she couldn't fit everything her suitcase.

she grabbed another one and started packing the rest of her stuff in it. not even bothering to fold it as she was so anger she was basically throwing her clothes into the suitcase.

"i hate myself." she whispered the amount of agony in her voice was so painful to hear even mountain would be brought to their knees.

she then realized this is not what she had wanted.

she wanted to become an idol. she want to sing dance love her fans beautifully in a irreplaceable way. she wanted to scream and yell on stage. she wanted to hear her fans begging for her with so much passion that time would stop.

she let out a laugh.

she calmed down. she felt more happy. relieved she wasn't lost anymore. she didn't need to what anyone asked of her she just had to be herself and practice no matter what it took she was making it.

she wiped her makeup that had been "destroyed" because of the chaos she had caused. she folded her clothes properly and put them in the suitcases. one that that was half way full and the other one loaded. she cleaned her messy room until it was absolutely spotless.

she was so happy to know what she wanted. she felt like she wasn't lost anymore. she didn't have to listen to her mom she didn't have to become a surgeon. she felt so free from all the guilt. she was about to call her mom and tell her but her mom beat her to it.

"hello? Mom?" she asked the happiness not being able to control it self.

"Y/n your dad got into a car crash-" she broke into sobs. Y/n's eyes widened she was shocked as she looked around trying to control her tears.

"where are you guys right now?" she said grabbing her sweater walking out the door locking it with her house keys. grabbing a taxi quickly.

"the public hospital," y/n made out as her mother was sobbing. she held the the taxi's door handle about to get in and tell the driver to go to the hospital as fast as possible.

"this is why i wanted you to be a surgeon," her mom whimpered across the line.

Y/n stopped dead in her fast movements. her heart clenched. her tears fell from her already red swollen eyes. the beauty in her face was gone replaced with hurt, sad, and bitter feelings she couldn't explain. she let go of the taxi's handle with to much to bear.

"what?" she whispered her voice barely coming out of her pink plump lips. she didn't even know how she managed to make the word out as her mother sobbed harder.The taxi drove off leaving the beautiful girl in her driveway.

she lied to you.

her own daughter.

she didn't want the best for you.

but for herself.

for herself and her husband.

it didn't matter if you got destroying in the process?

isn't that what a mom's for?

love, warmth, worry?

when's the last time you felt that?

everything was dark and scary but what was more scary was this voice in her head felt real. It was Jungkook's voice hitting her as her heartbeat sped up. And what was even more shocking was it was all true. Jungkook was telling the truth in her head. she grasped her chest trying to get a hold of herself. Jungkook was the only one who had protected her. But he was the one who also told her the ugly truth.

she was too scared and shocked to see the car that was coming right at her.

it was so fast for her to even blink.

'goodbye world' she thought before shutting her eyes.

-TBC-

do you guys see what i did in this chapter? no pov's just me narrating it! (: anyways have a great day! i've been pretty busy but, i can't help but to upload!

i hope you like me narrating this chapter!

(fun fact: i re-wrote this chapter 3 times before giving you the final product so please like this chapter)

-Author: why am i here?

word count: 1434

(p.s do any of y'all have good movies i can watch? i'm pretty bored.)