1 1: Bloody Tears

*Izuku POV*

*at night in the common room*

Your friends don't care about you

You'll never be a good hero

Your parents think you're a mistake, just like your sister

You cry all the time

You're weak, even with your quirks

Freak

Useless

Crybaby

Jump off the roof, no one would cry, no one would even notice...

I started shaking, blood running down my face. It felt like the walls were going to crush me. It was hard to breathe. Tokoyami must have been awake because he ran over to me, attempting to help me. "Midoriya, take deep breaths. I'm right here. I want you to think of 5 things you can see." I could see the T.V, his face, the light from the kitchen, the couch I was sitting on, and the blanket wrapped gently around my shoulders. He decided to take the blanket and adjust it so I was a bit more comfortable. "Now, think of 4 things you can feel." I could feel the blanket around me, the tissue in his hand that was gently wiping the blood that running down my face, the couch under me, and the sweater on my body. Kacchan gave it to me for my birthday. "Okay, now think of three things you can hear." I could hear his calm but worried voice, the songs my sister and I sang together before she ran away, and the footsteps coming down the stairs. Tokoyami must have dealt with panic attacks before. "Think of two things you can smell." I thought of the cookies aunt Mitsuki made when Kacchan and I were children, and the melted marshmallows and chocolate from the s'mores we made during the inside camping we did. Uncle Masaru helped us make them since he didn't trust his wife to make them. "Think of one thing you can taste." I could still taste the chocolate milk I had before sitting down on the couch. My breathing was back to normal. "T-thank you, T-tokoyami. N-normally p-people don't c-care." He just looked at me. "I don't normally help people, but Dark Shadow must have felt something about you that made him make me want to help you." I looked away nervously. Dark Shadow soon appeared next to Tokoyami. "Hey Izuku!" He smiled at me. Or at least, smiled as well as a shadow demon bird thing can.  "Hey Dark! Haven't seen you in a while." Tokoyami looked a bit confused. "What is happening now? Dark Shadow doesn't tell me much when it comes to you, saying it doesn't really matter to me. And why were you crying blood?" I looked nervous. "O-oh, I cry b-blood because m-my father c-cries blood and Dark Shadow and I know each other b-because I couldn't sleep o-one night so I came downstairs a-and you were asleep, s-so Dark came out and we t-talked for a w-while." "Okay, I guess." I felt a light tap on my shoulder and saw the hand of my best friend, Rin Katsumi. "Who is he?" I was the slight confusion in Tokoyami's face. "This is my childhood friend, Rin Katsumi. Rin, this is Tokoyami Fumikage." "It's a pleasure to meet you, Tokoyami-san, but I need to borrow Izuku-kun for a bit." Rin proceeded to drag me to the kitchen and made sure no one was listening. "I was checking on your mother and sister for you and..." I tilted my head in confusion at why he paused. It seemed like he was carefully choosing his words. "Your father attempted to murder your mother. I stopped him from doing so, but he still slightly cut her chest. She is in the hospital." Tears of blood formed in my eyes. "T-thanks for i-informing me, R-Rin. G-go back t-to the o-others." He nodded his head sadly. "Sorry for not protecting her as well as I could have." "I-it's okay, R-Rin. It's n-not y-your fault." "I will let you calm down. I will see you another time, young master." He then disappeared. I pulled the hood of the sweater over my head carefully and walked back out to the living room silently. The blood was now running down my face, and I noticed Jiro was now sitting on the couch. Tokoyami and her noticed...

A/N: 735 words. I know not all people do what Tokoyami told Deku to do to calm down from a panic attack, but it works for me, so I decided to use it. And just a reminder, this is an AU, so Tokoyami is a friend to Deku. Rin and Jay are Deku's closest friends though. Deku's mom is only mean when she's drunk. She's not very nice when she's sober though. I hope you enjoyed this. Author-chan out