8 Chapter 8

"Good job Rowan. One down and nine to go. We should be done with a week or so." Kai said as I packed up my stuff.

"We'll decide the debut some when they're all recorded?" I asked.

"Yeah. I'll go over some more of the music for the tracks tonight. See you guys tomorrow." Then they all left.

Instead of going home I went to the dance practice room. I hadn't done anything except record today. Physical activity really helps with stress so I decided to come here for bit before leaving. I had so much on my mind today.

I took out my speaker and set it down, connected to my phone. I started playing begin and just danced through the songs I had on the playlist. There was so many thoughts on my brain. How did I feel about Taehyung?

When he would come over the house just felt complete. I would be a little sad when he would leave. He would come over everyday when we all left the company and we would just do anything. From cooking dinner to doing the list of chores that were ignored that day. We would do things with Wynter or watch tv. Things were just great, and then he stopped coming around. These rumors started, and everything just suddenly wasn't how it was anymore. I realized I did have feeling for Taehyung, but I hadn't even debuted yet so I knew I couldn't be in a relationship with him. It just wouldn't be allowed. It was something I was just going to have to get over.

The beginning of Spring Day started and I heard footsteps coming in. I assumed it was someone to tell me it was late and I should be going home, but I still kept going.

I spun around and came face to face with Taehyung. I had tripped trying to stop myself and caught myself on his shoulders.

" Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Can I dance with you?" He asked me and I nodded my head, taking a step back.

We just continued dancing together. The song was soft and he would laugh as he twirled me around at the end, causing me to be in his arms, hands on his chest. The last song had ended and it was quiet in the room. He and I just looking at each other. I noticed he was slowly moving closer to me. I wondered if he felt as nervous as I was. I took a deep breath and leaned on with him.

I closed my eyes when were close and finally I felt his lips touch mine. He pulled me closer to him and I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer if I could. It felt like forever, our lips moving together, when he finally pulled away and looked at me.

"That's why I was so mad." He told me. "When I thought the rumors were true. I thought my friend had stabbed me in the back."

"He didn't." I said and he leaned his forehead against mine.

"I know. I just couldn't think past it. Then when you told the world you thought I was the most handsome... I don't even know why I was mad then."

"It's ok." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

"Please tell me this means something."

"I want it to. I do." I felt my eyes water again.

"Then let it be something."

"We can't. You know they won't let it."

"Then we don't tell them. We don't tell anyone for now."

"Taehyung-"

"You know I've never been in love?" He pulled his head back and I looked at the seriouos expression on his face. "My whole life, until now." I saw his eyes start to water. "After some time they'll let us. They will Ro. Just please, let this be something. I miss coming over and being with you all the time. I miss listening to you play video games and laugh whenever you would rage out." The both of us let out a laugh. "I miss playing with Wynter with you. The three of us. "I miss coming over in the morning and jumping in to help with breakfast. I miss standing in the hallway listening to you sing Wynter to sleep at night. But i don't wanna have to say goodbye every night. I don't wanna leave I wanna be able to stay with you."

I didn't know what to say. I felt a few tear slide down my cheeks but his hand quickly wiped them away.

"Come over tonight. Stay." I asked him. He nodded his head. Neither if us really knew what we were doing at this point and yet, we would worry about it all later.

~o~

I woke up in the night to my phone going off. I looked up and saw Taehyung sleeping soundly, his arm lightly holding me to his side. I went over and saw Namjoon had texted me asking about Taehyung. The boys hadn't seen him since they left to go home. I reasured him that Taehyung wa safe at my house and that I would tell him everything later.

He agreed and I turned back to look at Taehyung. He looked so peacful. His gangs were slightly in his face so I lightly moved them to the side. I was afraid of what was going to happen. What of Taehyung an I did be together in secret? What would happen is we were found out? The press? The company? Everything was so crazy right now I didn't really know what to do. I did know that I wanted to enjoy this while I had it in that moment.

I laid back down and laid my arm across his chest, listening to his heart beat. I closed my eyes and realized that this was what I wanted. Even if it was a risk. I wanted to be with Taehyung more than I wanted this job. I wanted him here next to me every night, just like this. To wake up to him every morning and make breakfast before going to work. To come home and do anything with him. As long as he was here, I was happy.

I didn't wanna lose that.