33 Song 6

LJ

Our love story can't seem to move forward

It seems we're scared to read the next chapter

We haven't started but we're already over...

~

Jamie glanced at me from where he was standing; he had been watching Sush and Cess place our clothes on the clothes rack. The clothes looked familiar, they were pieces we already wore for the album photo shoot last week. I was softly singing as Ylana brushed my hair, careful not to move my head. Jamie said, "That's not your part."

We were looking at each other's reflections in the mirror in front of me, since I can't turn to look at him directly. I chuckled. "Nope, it's Burt's, it's the part he sings after my part," I said.

He nodded and I continued to sing.

"You know Mark's part too?"

"I know everyone's part," I said.

He chuckled, although when Jamie chuckles, it's like a derisive grunt rather than an amused sound. "I guess you really like this song, then."

Ylana had taken her hands away from my head as she picked up her bottle of mousse, so I turned to directly look at him.

"Don't I like all our songs?" I asked him.

"Sure, I guess," he said, not looking at me, as he inspected a pair of pants that Burt had worn. "But you usually don't know everybody's parts for most of the songs. You only know them when you really like the song."

"I do that?" I frowned, curiously. "What made you think that?"

"I've shared dressing rooms with you for nine years, kid." He looked at me and winked.

I smiled and had to straighten my head again for Ylana, as she applied mousse on my hair.

~

I will go to you right now

And find you on this dead-end road

I will wipe away the tears

Staining your beautiful cheeks and I'll say

I really want to know how to fix us

So don't cry no more

If you even really see me

Don't cry no more

~

Jamie sang harmony with me on "If you even really see me..." and the beautiful sound reverberated in the room. The stylists all giggled appreciatively, making me smile wider. "I really like this song," I said to Jamie. "It makes me think of you know who."

"It's about breaking up, when did you break up?" Jamie still didn't look at me.

"No, it's not, it's about deciding not to break up," I argued. A lightbulb popped in my head. "You sing the part where you decide not to break up, so you should know that."

"I do know that," he agreed. "But when did you nearly break up?"

"We never nearly broke up, but we were almost over before we started so I guess it made me feel like Steve wrote it for me," I mused. "Jame, do you think Steve wrote this song about me? Didn't he say in an interview before that all his songs are from personal experience? But he was never in a real relationship with anyone, so maybe he based it on our relationships."

Jamie glanced at Ylana, and I remembered that Ylana was new and didn't know us so well, and maybe I should shut up. But I didn't say whom we were dating, I only said that we were.

"You should ask Steve," Jamie shrugged.

"As if he would tell us," I rolled my eyes. "Do you know what he said to Matt on his show when Matt asked him where he gets ideas for his songs and Steve said 'From my brain'? Do you know that I asked him that first and that was the exact same answer he gave me?"

"Well, it's true, I guess," Jamie said, taking Steve's side. Jamie always takes Steve's side, it's annoying.

"If Steve and I fell into the ocean, who would you save first?"

"I would save Burt, who would immediately stupidly jump in to save both of you, because he's the one who would most likely drown," Jamie said without hesitation. "Both you and Steve can swim."

"That's the sweetest thing I've heard today," I rolled my eyes again and continued to sing.

~

I knew that I took you for granted

But the thought of you not being beside me

I can't deal with that

My world would fall apart...