21 Chapter 20: Lie

- MIYA'S POV -

"I've been worried about you! Are you out of your mind, Miya? Don't you know that you had almost killed yourself?? My gosh! Now that you're here, Kadita's the one who disappeared. I don't understand. Are you hiding something from me?" Odette asked and scowled at me.

I shook my head, "No, no. We're not hiding anything from you, Odette. Believe me, I don't know where Kadita is. I just got here!"

She narrowed her eyes and looks like she still doesn't believe me. I sighed.

"Miya is telling the truth. I've been by her side throughout this day and we haven't encountered or heard about the 'Kadita' you're looking for." Esmeralda said and glanced at me.

Odette switched her gaze to Esmeralda and raised her eyebrows, "You can see the future right? Can't you use it to find where Kadita is?" She suggested.

I looked at Esmeralda's direction to confirm if she can do it then she nodded, "I'll try to look for her whereabouts on the next day." Then she took out an orb from her back and closed her eyes. She started chanting.

At first, we were both calm then I frowned when I saw blood starting to drip off from her nose. I got nervous and faced Odette who's in a daze.

"W-What's happening?"

Odette shook her head, "We need to stop her. She's using too much of her energy and she might lose consciousness. If that happened, there's a big chance that she'll never wake up again."

My eyes widened and walked towards Esmeralda. I grabbed both of her arms and shook her, "Stop it, Esmeralda! You're killing yourself! We can't lose another Mystic like you."

Her eyes snapped back open and she almost fell to the ground if we didn't catch her immediately.

Esmeralda looked at me, she looked worried, "You need to find her. She's in the Burning Kingdom. Khufra is there and there is blood... blood everywhere. You need to warn them. A-And Miya, be careful. I'm sorry but y-you need to stop your relationship with Alucard then none of you will die. I-It's up to you if you're going to believe me. I saw the future, Miya, Alucard died."

My brows furrowed, "W-What? Why do I need to end my r-relationship with him? We're not even in a relationship yet! Besides, I can protect him..." I trailed off.

She shook her head and was about to speak but she lost consciousness.

"No! Odette, please call Angela!" I pleaded. Odette nodded and ran to find the healer.

I need answers. Why do I need to end my relationship with my mate though we don' even have one? Does she mean that I need to avoid Alucard? Reject him as my mate so he won't die? I don't know!

We just met and I already caused him pain, not physically but emotionally. I can feel it from him. Now that we're both okay, I need to reject him? Get away from him to save him from his death? Why is he going to die anyway? What's the reason? I have so many damn questions but I don't have a single answer to any of them.

I faced Esmeralda's unconscious body lying on a bed while Angela tries to bring her energy back. Should I trust what she had seen in the future? What if it's not true? Is there no other way? I can't just approach him and tell that we're over, right? There has to be another way.

I smiled bitterly when I remembered what Esmeralda told me last night.

"I don't want your love story end up like mine. Please, fight for it. I regretted my decision. I regretted sacrificing my happiness but if I become selfish? All of us are probably dead. We always have the option to fight. Your life depends on the choices you're about to make."

She wants us to be happy. But why is she telling me to break up with him?

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Two days had passed and I already made a decision. I need to make this quick, Esmeralda's vision is right. The council members from the Dark Empire visited our empire. They came here to talk about the recent attack on their empire. They were all shocked, they thought we initiated the attack.

Our king, Zilong was confused about their reaction. We already sent a letter directly to their queen to warn them about the attack but their council said that they didn't receive any letter. It also got me curious, their queen is not with them. She should be there to discuss this kind of problem, this is an important matter!

There are other creatures now in the Land of Dawn. The Dark Empire confirmed it, they saw Khufra. He's alive again after all these years of sleep because of the curse cast upon him by the three remaining Mystics. And now, only one of them is present. Esmeralda hasn't regained consciousness yet, the same thing to Lunox. Rafaela can't handle him by herself. The two Mystics need to be awakened again.

I don't know if she's going down here to help us but that means she'll be leaving her kingdom up there. What if Argus and the other demons took that as their advantage since the queen is not present because she's to busy to help us?

I sighed. I was too preoccupied with all of the Empire's problems that I didn't notice that I've arrived already at my destination. I'm at the Sacred Statues and waiting for Alucard. I sent him a letter, I want us to meet here so we can talk personally. I've made up my mind and I hope this decision will be worth it.

"I'm nervous."

"Don't be. You're doing the right thing." He said.

I looked up to Estes who looked so serious today. I wanted to thank him for coming here with me. Odette is too busy with her kingdom and Kadita is still nowhere to be found. We sent guards to check the Burning Kingdom but even her shadow cannot be seen anywhere.

"Thank you for coming with me. I appreciate it." I said while playing with my fingers. I always do that when I feel nervous or when mom always shouts at me, too bad she's not here with me anywhere. Now I feel I'm about to cry. Great.

"I know you're going to break down after this. You might need a shoulder to cry on." He chuckled.

I frowned, "I'm not going to cry!" I tried to make my voice normal but it broke. Damn it.

He raised his eyebrows, "You haven't talked to him yet but you're going to cry already?"

I shook my head, "I miss my mom and dad. I wish they're here to give me advice or comfort me. They're going to understand my situation since they happened to experience it too."

Silence filled the air. None of us talked until we saw Alucard walking towards us while smiling.

It breaks my heart to see his smile because I know I'll be the one to wipe it off from his face. I can't believe this. Never in my life, I have imagined rejecting my mate. I always admired my mom and dad's love for each other. We can always love but it will always have an expiration date.

His smile faded away when he saw Estes standing beside me. Alucard ignored him and was about to come closer again but I raised my palm in front of him, making him stop.

He frowned, "Miya? Is there a problem? Why is Estes here?"

I bit my lower lip. I should make him hate me, then this would be easier for me.

"We're over Alucard." Three words but are so hard to tell. I can't. I'll just end up crying in front of him.

"That's not a funny joke, Mi—" I cut him off.

"Because it is not a joke! Don't you understand Alucard?? We are over! Should I spell it for you? I'm done playing with you. I don't love or even like you at all. I just used you to know more about the Twilight Goddess but it turns out you're useless at all!"

He looked shocked and shook his head multiple times, "No, no. You're k-kidding, right? I can feel it, Miya. I can feel what you feel for me and I know that it's real. Don't make this another problem for us, Miya. I thought we are good?"

I tried to hold my tears and looked straight in his eyes. We're staring at each other, good. I clutched Estes' hand and showed it to him. I've thought of an excuse. It's mostly the reason why the people I know breaks up with their mate

"I thought you were a king or someone with a high rank that will give me power but then again, you are useless!"

That's not real, Alucard. I will never use you for power. I don't care about my place or anything. I'd rather be an ordinary person than be a goddess with a lot of problems trying to solve, including my love for you.

How I want to say that to him but I can't.

"M-Miya..." He tried to reach me out but I slapped his hand away. I can feel his pain, damn. I should make him leave.

"I will never accept you as my mate! I, Miya, the goddess of the Moonlight, reject you Alucard as my mate."

A second had passed and he already disappeared. I lost my grip and almost fell to the ground but Estes caught me then hugged me tightly. Tears started to fall off to my cheeks.

"I've d-done it, r-right? C-Can we go back now? I w-would like to be alone..."

Now I know the feeling of being rejected though I'm the one who rejected him.

I understand now why people choose to keep their feelings to themselves instead of declaring their love because they know that their love will only be rejected.