1 First born

I was the first born on both sides of my family. Mothers family was small there were three of us, grandma lucinda my mother and me. Fathers side was very large, couldnt keep track of how many people even lived in one town. But it was only ever my father, mother, uncle or aunt and me. The only thing was no matter how many cousins were around i was always the outsider, i never fit in. I never had anyone to talk to even after my parents divorced, i couldnt say a word without messing something up or making one parents life worse by saying the wrong thing. we stoped seeing or hearing from dad he had a new life even more messed up from what it was before. I graduated or was about to i turned 18 and even after being alone i still couldnt get over the pain and sadness of no one being there. I worked 2 jobs and was tired almost all the time and if it werent for caffine id probably lose my job, but it was easier after having my very best friend, noah. Yes i had a guy friend and the weird part was he was in my corner since i was 14 and I dont know why he is still there after being the only one. He was my best friend and the only person who made me feel a sense of calm and peace, not to mention he was virtually a husband to me. He worked long hours like me and made my life bareable by sharing my load even though he had his own life to live. He kept me grounded through all of my milestones.