19 How to handle things that still scare you

> Maya

I should never have sat on his lap.

I should never have let him be so gentle with me.

I should never have agreed to this or stared into his eyes like that!!

I know he felt weird because of me and that’s why he decided to look away and buried his face in my neck but the thing is, that’s even worse!

Our bodies are even closer now.

“You shouldn’t stare so intensely.”He said the words softly right next to my neck. I get it, it’s strange having someone stare so intensely into your eyes. But his words sent shivers down my whole body. My skin stood up as it came in contact with his warm breath, “What if it sends the wrong idea?” I bit my own lips as his lips were so close to my neck they brushed over my skin when he talked.

I had no idea what was wrong with me and I had no intention of feeling like this but I started feeling it down there.

I stiffened as soon as I realized I was turned on

Oh God forgive me! I can’t believe my body is doing this!