1 Chapter 01

The curtains were closed when I woke up. It means that ma had not woken up yet and it's still too early to get up. I turn towards my nightstand to check the time. It's still 4:38 am, too early but yeah I can't go back to sleep now. Can I? If I sleep now I'm sure that I'll wake up at somewhere around 8 and I'll be late for my flight.

Damn.. . yeah my flight to Seoul, South Korea. Finally. I still can't believe it. Just thinking about it makes me feel euphoric. Ah... they joy of finally living in the city where my favourite people lives. I can start crossing out the list I have made in my planner once I reach Seoul.

I was still in high school when I discovered the boys through YouTube. They were freshly debuted just a year before and I found myself instantly being attach to one of their earlier songs. No More Dream will always have a place in my heart no matter how many albums or songs they may produce in the future. It's been years since then and I'm still in love with their music. Odd, to me it is since it was EXO that caught my eye at first but after the Chinese members started leaving I lost my interest in following them. To me, no other band seem more appealing than BTS. I can relate and understand their music so that's really what kept me going back to just have a listen to them. I just love their music. As a fan, I too do have a bias. Thinking about that man who captured my heart is just heartbreaking.

Min YoonGi, the moon to my stars the sun to my earth. Ah~ I just fell for him through the music's that he had produced. His gummy smile and shy giggles might be the death of me.

I just lay there, daydreaming still, about what I want to do after settling down in Seoul as an vocal coach in an Art Academy. My time as a student to get the formal diploma was worth the wait.

I'll join as a paid member of the fandom and try my luck in getting the tickets to fansign to atleast talk a bit to the boys for the first time in my life. Aside from seeing BTS in real life, there's so many things I want to experience in South Korea. All the traditional carnivals, Lunar eve, and so on. I'm just too excited for everything!

Not wanting to fall asleep, I got up and decided to just start my day early and get ready my flight at eight in the morning. I could maybe cook up something for the breakfast for my parents for the last time before I go settle down in Seoul.

HOURS LATER:

I'm glad they decided to just stay home. I never got along with my father anyway and it might get awkward with even my mom with whom atleast I'm kinda friendly with. But still, I prefer they don't come along with me to the airport to sent me off. It's better this way.

I never liked waiting so I came in with just few minutes to spare before boarding my flight. It was a wise decision I made I think, because i was never a morning person and there's a toddler crying his eyes out right behind my seat. Just great. This is the thing I hate about kids, the endless crying. The mother is not even trying to make the kid stop bawling his tears out of his eyes. Silently, I shook my head and just pull out my headphones to listen to some music and ignore the loud ass crying kid.

I work up startled. Maybe I fall asleep earlier. I saw people around me waking up as well and it made me wonder what happened.

"Please, fasten your seatbelts!"

I snap my head towards the front of the aisle to stare at the air hostess who was making a frantic announcement after announcement about safety precautions.

The plane jerk to the side and the realisation made my heart sink down and built up the nausea up my throat.

The plane is not safely flying and it might obviously kill us any moment now.

I haven't had a panic attack in years! but I started to panic. What the hell was even happening when I finally score my stay in Seoul?! I haven't even meet any of the kpop band I like! I haven't meet my bias yet! I haven't got the chance to make Yoongi smile at me like I was planning to when I get into the fansign!

Gosh! we have been in the air for hours and I haven't eaten anything yet! I'm hungry and I never thought I'll die hungry! Where did my wish to die happy went away?! this can't be happening, can it? this is so annoying-

The plane tilts and I knew that we were falling.

So much for working hard and studying hard all my teenage years to get my diploma. The years I spent honing my vocals to be a coach for others. All this years I pushed through to get a job and live in Seoul, to live near were the man I love lives. All these years of hard work and no actual fun, just to die on a plane crash?! How much pathetic my life can be?

I realised I was crying when the women next to me turn to look at me like I'm some psycho for smiling and crying at the same time as I stare down at my lap. What more can I do than cry my heart out in this moment. I'm going to die with all this strangers. Some were crying just like me and some were trying to stay positive while some were prying with their hands clasp together. In this chaos, the toddler behind me was sleeping peacefully. Atleast, the kid will die in his sleep and won't feel a thing.

I put my headphones back on and played BTS's Spring Day on full volume, because why not? I'm gonna die any second now. The gravity pulling us down, I can feel it.

It's funny how I said BTS music when a quiz ask what I want if I was to die right now.

I didn't care that I was having a full blown panic attack with music playing, sobbing my eyes out with snot probably coming out my nose. I was also aware that my heart was beating unnaturally faster than normal. It might have needed a medical attention since it was unhealthy.

There was a crashing sound so ear defending, it made me shudder with goosebumps rising on my skin.

Than everything went black.