49 Letters From Sunni

Jisoo had trouble getting up for class the next morning. She had left Jin's apartment last night after she finished meal prepping for him. She would usually spend the night at Jin's place being cuddled up in his arms, but all that she could think about was the moment he let out those heartbreaking words out of his mouth.

'I don't like her.'

She had told Jin that she missed her family and will be going home to spend time with them. Little did Jin know, she had returned back to her dorm and cried herself to sleep. She had been crying all night and finally fell asleep for two hours before her morning alarm blasted throughout her room to wake her up. She didn't want to get out from her bed, but eventually forced herself up and got ready for college. Plus, she needed to see Taehyung later on in the day.

After attending her last class, Jisoo walked to a nearby bench outside of campus and called Taehyung while putting her bookbag down next to her. She let the phone ring until it went to his voicemail. Jisoo doesn't give up and calls Taehyung again.

Taehyung sees the unrecognized number calling him and he let his phone ring until it went to his voicemail. He had tossed Jisoo's number away the day she gave it to him. He had planned on not contacting her and keep his distance away from her for a while. So when the same number popped up on his phone again he sighs with frustration.

"Why is this number calling me so much?"

Taehyung was currently abandoning his work and he was together with Yoongi. The two had been cooped up in Yoongi's room ever since Taehyung asked Yoongi about music. They were together with Namjoon and Hoseok. The four of them had completed one song together and even started writing a new one.

When Yoongi introduced Taehyung to his friend Hoseok, they instantly hit it off. With Namjoon being Taehyung's cousin and knowing all of Taehyung's motive behind closed doors, he was disappointed that his little cousin had not said anything to Jin and Jisoo yet. But Namjoon couldn't stay upset for too long with Taehyung. He warmly accepted Taehyung into their little circle of friends and even helped Taehyung with writing lyrics. It seems to distract Taehyung from any other thoughts and made Taehyung happy.

The first song that the four worked on together was titled 'I Need U' while the current one that they were working on was called "Save Me."

Taehyung goes over the lyrics that Namjoon had written.

['I want to breathe, I hate this night,

I want to wake up, I hate this dream,

I'm trapped inside of myself and I'm dead,

Don't wanna be lonely,

Just wanna be yours.

Why is it so dark where you're not here

It's dangerous how wrecked I am

Save me because I can't get a grip on myself.']

Taehyung's phone goes off and he grabs it but seeing that it was the same unknown number, he declined the call and put his phone next to him before returning to read the piece of paper in his hand.

['Listen to my heartbeat,

It calls you whenever it wants to,

Because within this pitch black darkness,

You are shining so brightly.

Give me your hand save me, save me,

I need your love before I fall, fall.']

His phone rang for the fourth time and Yoongi looks over Taehyung's shoulder to glance at the phone in Taehyung's hand.

"Who is calling you so much Tae?"

Yoongi caught Jisoo's number right before Taehyung declines the phone call. The number flashes once more and Yoongi was sure of it now that he saw it a second time. It was his sister.

"Wait, I think it's-"

Yoongi was interrupted with an annoyed Taehyung who finally picks up and screams into the phone.

"WHO THE HELL IS THIS AND WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME?!"

Silence was all that Taehyung heard on the other end before a tiny voice utter out that made his heart beat uncontrollably fast.

"It's me, Jisoo."

"It's Jisoo," Yoongi announced simultaneously as Jisoo spoke through the phone to Taehyung.

Taehyung's heart intensified as well as his breathing. He didn't know what to do or say so he hung up on her. He immediately regrets it the moment he ended the call, but his mind wasn't thinking straight. He needed to calm down his heart. The tiny muscle only fastens when his phone lit up again with Jisoo's number on display.

"Are you okay Taehyung?" Hoseok asked worriedly as he sat up in Yoongi's bed.

Namjoon was quick to catch on when he heard Yoongi spoke Jisoo's name. He got up and dragged a whiny Hoseok out of the room while Yoongi gave Taehyung an encouraging pat on the back before walking out of the room following Namjoon and Hoseok.

Taehyung cleared his throat and let out a deep breath before finally picking up his ringing phone.

"H-hi Jisoo. Uh, sorry about earlier. I didn't mean to yell- uhh, I mean I'm not- umm, I-I didn't h-hang up on you on purpose. I-"

"Hi, Taehyung," Jisoo's soft and warm voice on the other end cuts Taehyung off. His heart flutters and his stomach did flips as he listened on to her speak.

"How are you feeling now? Is your fever gone?"

"The fever is gone. I'm all better now."

"That's good to hear."

"Yeah. So ummm, w-why were you calling me so much?"

"Taehyung, where are you?"

"Huh? Why?"

"I would like to see you. I have something to give you and I want to finish our talk from last time. You were too sick so I didn't want to bring it up that day."

"Oh, um.. I'm actually at your house with Yoongi Hyung right now."

"Yoongi Oppa? I didn't know you two knew each other."

"Uhh, yeah. We just recently met. Anyways, what did you need to give me?"

"I have a letter from Sunni."

"Sunni? Why didn't she just bring it to me?"

"I'm not sure, but I'll be home soon. Don't go anywhere and wait for me."

"O-okay, I'll uhhh- I'll see you in a bit Jisoo."

"See you soon Taehyung."

Jisoo hung up her phone and grabbed her stuff. She quickly ran to the bus stop and caught the bus before it left.

Taehyung was left unmoved with his phone still in his hand. Jisoo was coming to see him. Was he ready to see her yet? He wasn't quite sure what he wanted, but he knew his heart was pounding away. He let out a heavy sigh before setting his phone onto the nearby table and climbed into Yoongi's bed. He screamed into the pillow as loudly as he could.

A muffled cry from Taehyung was all that Yoongi could hear when he entered his room to check on Taehyung.

"Everything okay?" Yoongi called out to Taehyung.

"Hyung, she's coming here to see me. I don't know if I'm ready to see her. I don't know what to do," Taehyung replies while still laying on his stomach with his head turned towards Yoongi.

"Taehyung, it's up to you. Do whatever your heart tells you to do. You can choose to wait for her to come here or you can leave. I won't stop you if you want to leave."

Taehyung sat up in the bed and patted the spot next to him for Yoongi to sit. Yoongi follows and when he's seated, Taehyung clutches Yoongi's hand and gave it a tight squeeze.

"Will you stay here with me Hyung? Stay by my side when she arrives, please?" Taehyung begs Yoongi desperately.

"If that's what you want, I'll stay with you Tae."

"Yes, that's what I want. Don't leave me alone with her. I might lose control this time."

"Yah, you're my buddy now Tae, but I'll still give you a nice punch in the face if you try anything with my sister."

"Knock some sense into me Hyung. Beat me up until I'm black and blue and don't let me go crazy again."

"I can't believe my baby sis has you so whipped for her. It's only Min Jisoo for goodness sake."

"It's because she's Min Jisoo. She's beautiful, sweet, and adorable. She's the most lovable and kindest person I've ever met."

Yoongi could practically see hearts shooting out of Taehyung's eyes as he talked about Jisoo. Yoongi smiles warmly at the younger who was so nervous and clinging onto to Yoongi for dear life yet his eyes showed how much he cared for Jisoo.

"You really love her, don't you Tae?" Yoongi asked interrupting Taehyung.

Taehyung doesn't answer but instead nods lightly. A tiny broken smile spreads on his lips as he thought of Jin.

"But Jin Hyung loves her too. So no matter how much I love her, we can never be..."

Yoongi clutched Taehyung's hand and wraps his arms around Taehyung's shoulder to give him some strength. It was hard to see Taehyung suffer, especially knowing that it was his sister who was the cause of Taehyung's heartaches.

In the little time that Yoongi has gotten to known Taehyung, he had become someone who Yoongi grew to care deeply for and want to protect now. His older brother senses were tingling and he wanted to tell Jisoo everything, but Yoongi knew better. Taehyung needed to tell Jisoo himself.

Soon, the front door opened. Taehyung and Yoongi could hear Jisoo down the stairs. Taehyung stood up and his heart beat increased as he heard her footsteps draw closer and closer towards them.

"She's here Hyung. Don't leave me."

"Chill dude. Relax, I'm right here," Yoongi let out a small chuckle as he stood up next to the taller boy.

"Right, I need to relax. Breath in, breathe out. Relax Taehyung. Don't be nervous. Don't be-"

Yoongi's half closed door swung open and there stood Jisoo on the other side. She smiled beautifully at Taehyung and his heart stopped beating as she made her way closer.

"Hi, Mingi Oppa," Jisoo greets her older brother first.

"What's up Minji," Yoongi replies to his sister as he moves forward leaving Taehyung to stand behind him.

Jisoo met eyes with Taehyung before she smiled at him again.

"Hi, again Taehyung," she gave Taehyung a light wave.

"H-hi..." His eyes widen as he saw the girl in front of him smiling so sweetly at him. His breath hitched causing him to forget how to breathe.

"So..." Jisoo started out and side glanced at her brother to get him to leave them alone, but Yoongi only smirked and repeats after her.

"So?"

"Mingi Oppa, can't you take a hint? I need you to leave. I want to talk to Taehyung."

"Oh," Yoongi playfully teases his sister by acting as if he didn't have the slightest idea of what Jisoo wanted.

"But, I don't think Taehyung wants to be alone with you though. In fact, he was begging me to stay with him just now."

Taehyung's face blushed bright red as Yoongi kept poking fun at the younger.

"Mingi Oppa, just leave."

"Why? It's my room."

Annoyed by her older brother's childish behavior, Jisoo was ready to fight him. She had so many things to ask Taehyung and she really didn't want to deal with Yoongi right now.

"Taehyung, do you want me to stay or leave? I'll do whatever you want," Yoongi asked already knowing the answer.

Taehyung swallowed a gulp of air before he finally found his voice and was able to breathe again.

"S-stay Hyung. He can stay Jisoo. It's okay."

Yoongi let out a huge gummy smile before sticking out his tongue at Jisoo like a child taunting her.

"So um, what did you want to see me for?" Taehyung asked trying to divert her attention away from murdering her own brother any second now. Jisoo let out an annoyed sigh before pushing past Yoongi.

"Here's the letter," Jisoo hands the letter to Taehyung.

"Oh, t-thanks," Taehyung nervously took the letter from Jisoo.

"So um, was this it?" Taehyung asked as he fiddled around with the unopened letter.

"No, I want to talk too but alone," Jisoo emphasis the word alone while glaring at her brother.

"I'll let you read the letter first and we can talk after."

Taehyung nods quickly before heading towards Yoongi's bed. He sat down and stares at the letter that had his name written in beautiful cursive in the front.

'Kim Taehyung'

Now that he sees her letter, it finally sinks in that she had not been calling him. She hadn't texted him either nor tried to reach out to him in any way. He hadn't seen her since the day he was sick.

He opens the white envelope and he noticed that there were 3 letters altogether. One was addressed to him, one to Yoongi, and another to Jisoo. He took his letter first and began to read.

['Taehyungie,

By the time you receive this letter, I would already be long gone to a place far away from you. Don't worry Oppa, I didn't do anything stupid to hurt myself. I'm probably either in London or Germany right now. I'm traveling around the world. I wanted to take some time off for myself and I guess you can say I sort of had an epiphany.

If you received this letter, then it means that I already met with Jin Oppa. I hope you and Jin Oppa were able to over any misunderstandings between the two of you. I wanted to tell you the other day that I met with Jin Oppa. He was really happy and he already found a girlfriend who he is really in love with. I know you have been telling me how much you've missed him. He misses you too Taehyung.  I think Jin would really like it if you went to visit him. He's already out of the hospital and back at his apartment.

I bet you're wondering why the sudden decision to leave Korea.

I know Taehyung Oppa. I know that your heart does not belong to me. It belongs to Min Jisoo, am I right? I wanted so badly to do everything in my power to keep you by my side. I even thought of using Jisoo against you to make you come to me, but that will only make me less of a person that I already am.

When Yoongi hurt me in the past, I took it upon others to make myself feel better. I never really took the time to stop and think that maybe it was me. I blamed Yoongi and then hurt many people in the process. I was young and naive. But I realize now that I was wrong. I was a selfish person Taehyung. I was someone who wanted everything my way. I wanted everyone to love me. I wanted the attention. But now, I want to grow up from my immature self in the past.

When you were sick, I walked in on you and Jisoo. I saw the hug and the tears that you shed that day. The strong and confident man whom I thought loved me was in another woman's arms. You cried and showed her your weak self yet you've never shown me your vulnerable side. I came to you that day after Jisoo left. I told myself if you cared even a tiny bit for me, then I would never let you go. But when I was there with you, you lied to me about the person who took care of you. You couldn't even look at me that day. That's when I realized that you really didn't love me.

I remember your happy childlike smiles when Jisoo was around us before we even got together. And I don't know why I didn't realize it then, but your sad and broken expression when Jisoo came to my apartment is only now hitting me as I write this letter. You already loved her then, didn't you?

I don't know the reason why you came to me instead of Jisoo, but I'm telling you now that if I was ever the reason why you couldn't be together with Jisoo then you are now free. I'm letting you go now to love her openly with all your heart.

Tell her that you love her Oppa. Let Jisoo know how much you care for her. Even if you are rejected in the end, as long as you were able to let her know your feelings. I have no regrets now as I am writing out my feelings to you Oppa.

Lastly, I have a tiny favor I'd like to ask from you Taehyungie. You'll notice that there are three letters in this envelope. If everything works out for you and Jisoo, please pass those letters on to the Min siblings for me.

Oppa, I loved you...

But I'm learning how to love myself... and in order for me to learn, I have to let you go. Take care of yourself and I'll be secretly rooting for you and Jisoo from overseas. Be happy, Kim Taehyung.

                                                                                                                        -Choi Sunni']

Taehyung's eyes read over Sunni's letter once more before he slowly let the letter and his hand fall down onto his lap. He stares at the two siblings in front of him and his eyes brimmed with tears when he saw Jisoo. Wiping away his eyes before the drops could make a debut, he grabs both letters from Sunni that was addressed to the Min siblings and gave it to them.

Yoongi gave Taehyung a look of confusion before seeing his name written on the neatly folded letter. He took the letter and sat next to Taehyung and began to read.

['Min Yoongi,

Back in high school, I was young and didn't understand the reason why you broke up with me, but I think I can understand now.

I've always thought you were amazing at writing music. When we first met, it was because of the melody that you played on the piano in the old music room. Do you remember? I was awestruck by a handsome young man who caught my heart through music.

Music, it has a deep connection with you. Even deeper than with me back then. You choose music over me and being the immature and selfish person that I was, I couldn't see your dreams back then. I blamed our broken past on you solely, and for that, I'm really sorry Oppa.

I can see you getting big in the future writing songs for famous idols and producing beats for big entertainment agency. Your music will be known worldwide one day. So, don't ever give up on music. You have a talent that everyone needs to know.

Also...

I won't be able to give you the second chance that you were asking for. I loved you in the past, but I don't love you anymore. I don't want to give you any false hope so I'm writing you this letter as closure for the both of us.

Yoongi Oppa, don't love me anymore. Don't wait for me either, because I will only hurt you.

Thank you for loving me Yoongi Oppa, but it's time to let me go. I will never forget you as my first love, but you will only remain as my first love. I'm sorry.

                                                -Choi Sunni']

Yoongi mimicked Taehyung's actions as he let his hand and letter drop onto his lap. His eyes coated with heavy droplets threatening to fall.

Jisoo didn't know why Sunni had written a letter to Yoongi. She didn't even know the two were talking acquaintance. She glanced down at her letter from Sunni before looking up to meet her brother's teary eyes.

"Mingi Oppa, are you okay?"

Yoongi was quick to dry his tears and got up from the bed.

"Yeah, I'm okay. I'll leave you two to talk now."

And with that last sentence, Yoongi left the two alone as he went to calm down his broken heart.

Jisoo opens up her letter last and she let a smile spread across her face as she read it.

['Min Jisoo,

I'm sorry for everything I've done to you...

Choi Sunni']

It was a short letter compared to Taehyung and Yoongi's who spent a while reading both their letters, but that sentence alone had made Jisoo's heart lighten up. She had already forgiven Sunni and her only regret was that she couldn't face Sunni to let her know that she was Minji.

The tiny smile that was plastered onto her face left as soon as she saw Taehyung's bloodshot teary eyes.

"Taehyung?"

Jisoo immediately moves in front of Taehyung to check on him. She leans down towards the taller man who was still seated on the bed. His head now lowered not daring to look at Jisoo. She places a hand onto his forehead to see if his fever was still active.

"Taehyung? Are you feeling sick again?"

"He said he will stay with me..."

"Huh? Who?"

Taehyung's red eyes slowly looked up and met with Jisoo's. His heart was racing with her soft touch on his forehead. Teardrops leaving his orbs as though it would never end.

"Yoongi Hyung... He left me, alone with you..." His voice cracks and he finally lets out a teary sob before his long arms found it's way around her tiny waist. Taehyung pulls her closer and he cried into her stomach.

"Taehyung-"

"I know I'm insane for telling you now but, I'm in love with you Min Jisoo..."

To Be Continued...