1 The crush

[ Eric POV]

for the past 10 years, I have been alone. I go to college in the mornings and leave in the afternoon, then I go to my part time job as a hairstylist. My parents have never been a part of my life and every now and then I ask myself " When will they come and visit me". But then my parents never really loved me, they only loved my older brother because I came out to my parents that I was gay and I thought they would support me but they didn't and when I turned 18 my father gave me one million dollars because he wanted me to leave and never come back. My father was a billionaire he was very rich and owned 20 companies that made him a lot of money and after he gave me the money I packed my stuff and left.

Now I live in a apartment all alone but to be honest it feels much better here then it was at home because my family weren't a loving family but that doesn't mean I have to stop missing them. After finishing talking to myself I looked at the clock and it was 12am I went to my bedroom and went to sleep.

(6:00am)

The alarm went on and I woke up and I got my head up and felt my body get heavy and I fell back on the bed I was to lazy to get up again so I went to sleep again and told myself just 10 more minutes 10...mor..minu...zzzzz(snoring)

Then I woke up from the best sleep ever then I grabbed the alarm clock and looked at it and it was "7:40am!!!! " I quickly got up and got ready to go to college I didn't have time to eat breakfast so I took a apple and took it as a snack I went to the car and started to drive to school I only had 5 minutes left. I got there one second before the bell rang I went to my seat which was the first row in the back right next to the window and the seat in front of me was my friend phillip seat but he was in sick today and I was sad because I wanted to talk to him about James which sometimes I call him "Jay" which is a cool name but James sounds cute sometimes it depends on my mood on how I want to call him.

Right now I'm in English class and James is in the seat in front of phillip's and everytime he speaks to his friends he always smiles and everytime he smiles it makes me smile and makes my heart feel warm inside.

Even though I don't know very much about him I feel like we have a connection not just any kind of connection but a special one I feel as if we were meant to be together. Everytime I see him my heart Akes for his touch but I feel as if he would reject me if I ask him to be by my side more just than a classmate more than just a friend, but like phillip said I need to take baby steps my first step is to be his friend I mean I can do that but there's a slight problem and that is when I speak to people that I don't feel comfortable with I start to stutter when I speak and I get embarrassed and I turn red and when I do I run away and go to phillip and he sometimes pats me on the head to comfort me. Sometimes phillip is like a mother to me but at sometimes he can be the weirdest person in the world that's why I love him as a best friend.