4 Pain from your past

The pain from your past

That still prowls through your mind

And stop you from pursing your dreams

It's nothing but a paper tiger

It can't hurt you anymore

It's nothing that can't be burnt down to a pile of ashes

I realized that if we don't have any friend it's normal if someone don't talk to me so just tell that person go away. If someone hurt you so just go away from that person. At this time I'm thinking like that life would be easier we make it difficult. Sometimes tears are good for you, it's a new phase of life. Everything gonna change suddenly school,friends,living place. Gonna meet some new people, make a new friends but the biggest mistake in my life I believe everybody, whatever they say I believe, I believe their lies. I believe they love me but actually they didn't. Meet a new four school friends group fifth is mine this time, however on the other side I also do friendship with nature, love rain; playing with the rainy drops. Making sketches, wrote a diary, sing songs, spend some time with myself.

I walk in the rain alone

Living life through dreams of you

Praying the rain softens this heart of stone

Because you have been returned to maker of you and your beloved rain

But you know, my love

Even time can't discard this pain

I had chosen to run with you forever

So, there will be only you and the rain to kiss my face, I swear there will be no other.

The best thing I chosen it's painting, when I see a painting hung on a wall. I feel the intimacy it's demands, for I begin to imagine not just-the artist mind, but also their body as they throw themselves onto the painting streching, swaying, quivering, stopping like a visceral dance with the canvas I confess the painting entices me but it's the artist behind the painting who excites me.

The person I see in myself is more different now, making fun and enjoy alot in those years. Five student group, playing during lectures, making fun of each other, bunk leavtures, go for a break before break time, all the happiness I found in those some years. Sometimes we can't forget about some memories; like something happen suddenly. Random joys with friends random trips etc.