What am I doing here, am I really going to see a psychiatrist.
I have never been one of those who go to a psychiatrist or a life coach, but what I've been through over the past five years has been too much. You can't imagine this confusion that I am going through, I feel that I am going to lose my mind.
The psychiatrist took a closer look at him. He was a middle-aged, wheat-colored man, with a thick and stylized beard, fine hair and hazel eyes. You see in his eyes sadness and confusion, as if he were a lost person.
The doctor said to him, "Let's get started, what's your name?"
He said, "Michael."
The doctor said, "And I am, as you know, Tony."
Michael: I don't know what happened to me. I love my wife and my children, but ...
Tony: "But what?"
Michael: But ... but I think I'm gay.
Tony: "You think you're gay or you're really a gay"
Michael said nervously, "I don't know, Doctor ... I just want to end this nightmare."
Tony said, "It's okay to be gay, and you love your wife in the same time. The question is, do you enjoy having a sexual relationship with her?"
Michael: "Yes I'm enjoying having sex with my wife, but sometimes I feel empty after a sexual relationship."
Tony: "It's normal for one of you to feel upset and emptiness sometimes after a relationship, even if the performance is outstanding."
Michael said in a faint voice, "But sometimes I watch gay porn, and by the pool or at the beach I find myself staring to men genitals which appeared under their swimsuits, and sometimes I imagine that a man is having sex with me while I'm having sex with my wife."
Tony: How long ago did these feelings for men begin?
Michael said, "Five years ago, and the beginning was a massage session."