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I knew I shouldn't have let my feelings get in the way of our bonding. My life, his life, were the priority.

He was so sure about doing the First Touch while I hesitated every step of the way. And what's worse? I cracked right in front of him. What a great way to introduce myself to my mate. Hurting his feelings by making him realise that I hate every part of this soulmate thing. But it wasn't his fault. I was being selfish.

Min Yoongi, the man that fate chose for me. He surely was blunt. Anyone would've lost their cool earlier than he did but he still tried to understand. I'm sure he has a lot of questions but we can set them aside for now. Just like what he said, we have the rest of our lives to know each other.

For now, the business at hand.

He still had his palm in the air looking quizzically at me. But... how do we exactly do this? There wasn't any manual provided when we had First Sight.

"Uhm, you think we should... uh..." I really don't know how to complete this bond.

"Let's do it with our right hands. If it doesn't work, we have the rest of the day to figure it out. I'm sure they won't bother us until we're done with this." That smirk. His cocky smirk that I know so well from watching him for so long. Min Yoongi. Does he know how hard my heart is pounding right now? "Ready?" My heart surely wanted to leap out of my chest.

Why does he have to look at me like that? Eyes sparkling and soft. Lips slightly parted. Oh my God, Eunjung!!! What the freak are you thinking about? You're just bonding! But hey, this is no ordinary bonding. My mate is Min Yoongi. OMG! If I don't faint from hunger, I'll surely die of my nerves.

What I felt next was... I don't know. No words have been concocted for this feeling yet. It started from the tips of my fingers then crept to my chest. A light tingling feeling beneath my skin, like the first time he was able to touch me but much warmer and... what is it... calmer? Peaceful? Safe? As our rings slowly turned gold, he bent his fingers to lock our hands together and my body responded by doing the same. With it, I felt more of him. His heart also pounding hard like mine. So, he was also nervous I see. I feel my lips stretch into a smile. Never in my life have I felt so good, belonging to someone.

Looking at our hands, there was a slight glow where our skins touched. Not really noticeable if you don't pay attention but it sure looked beautiful. Like the omniscient yellow glow of a reading lamp.

I felt his rough palm on my cheek and I automatically moved leaning onto it, closing my eyes as I felt us merging. I'm longing to have more of his warmth, I want to touch him back. Is this how good it really feels? I don't want it to end. After days of hunger, his presence surely made me greedy. I want him all to myself. Here, in this moment, forever.

"Ehem..." a voice, so distant. "Ehem!" A voice. Wait, what?! I opened my eyes to his face merely centimetres from mine.

"Yah!" My instincts kicked in and I slapped him right on his exposed his cheek. Oh fuck! I didn't just do that!!!

"Yah! What was that for?!" He surely looked pissed.

Giggles can be heard from the door. And looking at it, we found Jin sunbae and Sooyoung eonnie snickering at us. I don't know how we must've looked in their eyes but it surely looked to me like Yoongi was about to... Gah!!!! No!!!! That wasn't it!!!

"Hyung!!! Seriously?! What are you doing here?!" I wasn't able to help the chuckle that left my lips. He surely sounded whiny. Same way he does during Run! BTS episodes. "And you, why did you smack me?!"

"I... uhm... it's just..." Why can't I just tell him?

"Cause you were about to kiss her. Without her permission." Sooyoung eonnie came to my rescue. His eyes surely blew out while his ears turned crimson. Hihi. He's cute being all embarrassed like this.

"Me? Wh-what are you saying? I didn't..."

"You did Yoon. We both saw it. Right, Sooyoung-ssi?" Jin sunbae quipped. And when did they start being a team like this? But they look good together. Jin sunbae being all confident and derpy and Sooyoung eonnie being all shy and cute like that. Whoa! When did I start having cupid duty?

"I did not do that. Right, Eunjung-ssi?" Oh God why does he have to throw the question at me? I mean, he really was about to do it. And I... fuck! We are sooooo doomed.

"You... uhm... well, see... we were..." It was surely my turn to be on the spot and I am not liking it.

"You mean, I really was? Fuck!" And the two at the door burst out full cackle at us. They are surely enjoying this too much. "Hyung, I swear! If you don't disappear this instant, I will hunt you down and kill you!" Both of them squeaked a little, cracked in laughter once again before removing themselves from the room.

Now, just us, again. It's taking all of my self control not to throw my arms around his torso and press my cheeks against his chest. Is he feeling the same or is it just me? I hate that my body is reacting this way but I guess this is how we were made. I can see now why my parents kept to themselves all the time. But did it give them the right to neglect me?

"Hey," his voice came to my ears. " you're silent again. I'm sorry about earlier. I don't know what came over me." He surely looked sorry. Is this really how he appears when he apologises though? He surely looks like the little meow meow I love seeing over twitter.

"I'm sorry too. Your cheek must still be hurting." And as I touched his chin it all started again. The warm life force running between us.

"It's all better now. I guess, also helps us heal faster. Who knows maybe we have superpowers too?" Seriously, is he really this funny in real life? I always thought of him as the all business type of person.

"Superpowers will be cool. I wonder what mine would be?" His eyes disappeared as he smiled at me. I've never felt this good making someone smile.

"Are you feeling better now? I think we need to go to the next room if we don't want them talking about us." Oh shit!

"Freak! Yes! Let's go now."

"But..." he was still sitting at the table as I started for the door.

"Sunbae?"

"Can I hold your hand or maybe just your arm if you feel uncomfortable? I still need a little more... uhm... charge?" My lips automatically curved into a smile. Being needed, it surely felt good. If there's something all this has done, it's surely making me feel happier. Atleast now, there is one person in this whole universe who needs me.

"Sure sunbae. I could use some charge too. Our training didn't necessarily stop while we were waiting for this meeting." He smiled as I held out my arm to him. He immediately held onto it but scrunched his nose a little. Was that disappointment I'm seeing?

Chaos was an understatement to describe the next room when we arrived. They were surely talking about us and even our CEOs were smiling softly at us. Yeah, we can never trust our teammates to shut their mouths.

After all the bantering and teasing and contract discussing for me and Yoongi sunbae, we were sent home.

"We will see you guys tomorrow then?" Namjoon sunbae confirmed for everyone.

"Yes!" We all answered before bowing to all of them.

"Jess PDnim." I had to turn back. It was Yoongi who called our boss.

"Yes, Yoongi-ssi?" She also looked quite surprised but there was a certain understanding in her eyes as she looked at Yoongi and Bang PDnim.

"Can I maybe borrow Eunjung for a few minutes more?" And this started the teasing once again and I had to hide my face in my palms with shame.

PDnim just laughed softly at his request, as if she knew this was going to happen. "I told you this would happen PDnim. I think we would need that new dorm soon."

"I understand." Was all Bang PDnim said as he whispered some instructions to Sejin-nim.

"Ofcourse, Yoongi-ssi, you may. Thank you for asking for my permission. We will just send the company car for Eunjung-ssi later." She looked at me like she was about to cry. "I'm happy that you're safe now Eunjung-ssi. Just send a message to Byung Ho later once you're ready to go home, okay?"

"Yes, PDnim." Yoongi and I both bowed to all of them as they went out of the room.

"I trust you know what to do Yoon?" Sejin-nim asked before letting himself out. Yoongi just nodded with a smile.

"Yes Hyung. We'll just stay here."

"Okay then. Thank you for today Eunjung-ssi." Sejin-nim said before bowing to me.

He pursed his lips into a line, his hands in his pockets, unsure of what to do. So I guess we're back to square one. All that improvement lost because of all the teasing. I'm sure he would've wanted the earth to just swallow him whole just like I did.

"Eunjung-ssi, can I?"

"Sunbae?"

"Can I hold your hand?"