6 A Kiss That Was Meant For Me

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Esmeralda

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I was sitting glumly on Alana's queen-sized bed with her sleeping next to me smothered in her pale blue sheets. Angel is completely passed out on the couch since he needed to sleep properly for his games and Alain and Romeo are lying dead to the world on a few spare pillows and blankets on the floor.

A knock on the wooden bedroom door interrupted my deep slumber like thoughts so I carefully tiptoed over all the sleeping bodies until I reached the door.

I opened it, wincing at every creak and squeak it made. I am very surprised to see Sylver standing there looking like a complete mess. The cheating slash non-cheating bastard deserves it.

I feel slightly self-conscious, only dressed in my small white crop top and high waisted pink shorts with pink fluffy bunny slippers that Alain bought me for my birthday on Friday. Being around my best friends in this sort of outfit is different than my mate, my very rugged, sexy mate.

"Hey." Sylver hauntedly grumbled quietly, trying not to wake up the entire floor of teenagers. Pack houses are very strange but it brings the community together and keeps everyone safe.

All Alpha, Beta, Gamma and Delta, as well as the personal pack doctor and head warrior, are kept in the packhouse. Their mates and children normally also stay with all children on one floor, the teenagers on another, adults on yet another floor with the current Alpha and Luna on their own floor.

Most packhouses are at least four stories, ours has five. Not including the meeting hall that is for when ranked wolves mates are found or when the new alpha is appointed. Just stuff like that. That's where I had my birthday party only five days ago.

"What do you want now? I'm busy trying to sleep since I've been in immense pain because of your filthy hands." I barked angrily, raising my normally soft voice but calming down after Angel slightly stirred on his spot on the long pale pastel blue sofa.

"I'm sorry." He seemed broken but I'm not. I'm not weak and will not run into his arms as soon as he mutters those two words Delilah is desperate to hear.

"For what?" I spat, anger evident in my tone and on my face. I'm sure I don't look the prettiest right now but that's not my main concern. "For rejecting me after you kissed me at my birthday party then calling me a good for nothing slut and then cheating on me after you had the audacity to ask me about a stupid fucking book."

"I didn't cheat on you," Sylver argued with a fierce expression on his perfectly sculptured face, scaring me slightly. "It was only a kiss, nothing serious."

"A kiss that was meant for me." I pushed back the tears, internally laughing at my own stupidity of thinking he would ever love and want me. "That kiss will be forever that girls and not mine."

"It was a simple kiss, a simple kiss that meant nothing to me. I can do it again, I probably will, but I just wanted to know if you were ok." His silver eyes are now a dark blue with a hint of purple, a mesmerising sight to me. Sylver's wolf is now in control, I can feel Delilah fighting for it too but she would want to snog his face while I want to claw his eyes out.

"I'm fine, no thanks to you." I snarled, closing the door and stepping into the hallway with him so I don't wake my friends from their deep slumber that they needed. "My friends helped me like the good people they are. Alana got me some of her clothes and Angel checked me over. He's the future pack doctor so he knew a bit. Romeo went for food and Alain went to the pharmacy and got me over-the-counter pain meds. I'm fine, all without the help of you."

"Why are those pups looking after you? Alana could have done it on her own." Sylver growled lowly, his eyes as blue as I've ever seen. They are normally silver or dark grey, now they are the colour of a galaxy. Beautifully mysterious.

"Is this some stupid threat to your big strong male ego?" I scoffed at him, he truly is so stupid. "They are my friends, my best friends so if you have a problem with them then take it like a fucking man. I have a big fucking problem with you kissing other girls and most likely fucking them but I'm letting you carry on, just don't make me feel the pain. Reject me."

A stupid rule in the werewolf species is that only an alpha can reject the mate in the mateship. I can't reject him but if he was a Beta or under then I could. Alpha will always rule over everyone in the pack including his mate, me.

"I...I..." The same thing happened again. Sylver stumbled over his words before running away like the stupid fucking chicken he is.

I sighed before walking back into the bedroom, slipping under the covers and falling asleep in the dark. Listening to the deep snoring of Romeo, the mumbles of Angel and the constant movement from Alain. The same as always, I would never change it.

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It's Friday. Two full weeks since I met my mate. Eleven days since I learned he is a complete ass. Nine days since he kissed another girl. But every day there is a new heartbreak.

He's had my friends moved out of my classes, the only person allowed to talk to me is this precious girl named Elena. I think I remembered her from when she was the talk of the pack a year or two ago, her mate died but she didn't. Normally mates die of heartbreak after the other dies but not this girl, I respect her for that.

She's quite funny. She doesn't swear or curse, her father doesn't allow it. Her favourite colour is pink and her backpack has bright pink bows on it. Elena is the definition of a daddy's little princess but she doesn't care about it, she actually enjoys it.

Back to the bastard. Even though he doesn't talk to me, he watches me in my every lesson and during lunch and breaks. I can always feel his silver eyes glaring at me. Why is Sylver so protective when he hasn't announced me to the pack, marked or mated me?

He waits until I'm out of every class after the bell rings before he leaves. If I forget lunch or a snack then he drops some off without a word. He makes the boys sit away from me at lunch and when he doesn't have control over that then he sends them on some pointless pack jobs.

Before I found my mate, I felt empty like there was this missing piece that only he could fill. I always believed that he would fix me and I would be whole again but my dreams didn't come true.

"He just comes into my life and derails it completely. Like what the actual fuck man? I'm trying to get my life together and you're ruining my plan." I screamed at the top of my lungs, my hands pulling at my crazy brunette hair.

Elena is sitting there in my living room listening to me rant about my terrible excuse for a mate. She explained to me how she is the only one in the pack that knows about us being mates. If I wasn't found before Alana and Alain's birthday then Sylver would have mated her and she would have been the Luna of Lleuad Las.

At first, I felt slightly jealous but then she assured me there was nothing but a deal with her and his parents. She just thought if her mate was dead then maybe she could have a chance with him but would never get in the way of mates.

"I was doing good." I seethed, pacing back and forth my living room floor. My mother is in work right now so I don't have to worry about her hearing about my mate.

"I know," Elena answered with a happy smile, simply listening to what I have to say.

"I had a plan and I was ok." I continued. "I was going to find my mate and carry on with my art, maybe sell a few pieces. We would mate and have gorgeous babies but instead, I have that asshole."

"Maybe you still can have a life with that..." She hesitated, contemplating whether to curse or not. She thought against it. "the alpha still can give you that life but better. You could be the Luna of our pack, doesn't that sound amazing?"

"It sounds extraordinary but I can't have it. I'm stronger than he knows and he offends me. He acts like I'm nothing. One minute he's nice and then he's an ass." I stop and sit next to Elena who begins rubbing my back with her soft dainty hands. "Can we stop talking about this?"

"Of course." She smiled brightly. "We should talk about the Deltas party tomorrow night, we totally should go shopping tomorrow morning and buy dresses."

"Wow, I completely forgot it is their birthday tomorrow. I'm the one normally reminding people." I feel pain in my words. In the space nine days, I lost my best friends that I've had for life. It's funny how something that feels like forever can leave so quickly. "I have to buy them presents and stuff. Where is the party?"

"In the clearing." She answered simply, starting at me with concern in her blue eyes.

"That's strange," I mumbled to myself, thinking about why it would be there.

"Why?" Elena questioned with a confused look.

"We never normally have parties there unless it's for an alpha celebration." The pieces click together. Sylver is alpha tomorrow and I will be at his mercy. He can do whatever he wants to me and I have to accept or become a rogue.

I'm not going to go rogue. No. Just no.