5 MY DILEMMA

I woke up late that morning and after waking I was still on my bed. I did not know how I will face him in the office so I thought of resting at home. I called my assistant and told her to cancel all my meetings for today. She asked me if I was okay then I replied to her that I am having a cold after that she told me to take rest.

I was wondering how will I face him after what we have done. I was not ready to face on the other hand I was thinking " Is it only me or he is also going through the same", or I am the only one getting mad over here???.

My mind was all fuzzy and I could not anything straight what was happening with me and how I am gonna deal with it. Meanwhile, I was thinking all this my phone beeped and when I unlocked my phone and saw his message buzzing on the screen. I could feel my stomach churning and butterflies going wild inside of me. After some time I opened it and saw his message he wrote " are you fine? why didn't you come today? ".

I was on cloud nine my heart was telling he cares for you and my mind was fighting don't ever think of him. I was in a dilemma what to do and how to behave after seeing him and what should be my reaction. All these thoughts were making me go wild and then I thought there is no one in this world to make me think like this. How cum he is able to control my mind.

I stand up and braced myself and told myself " He has no effect on me and I will not give him this much attention and importance".

I told myself " Let's go I can do anything without getting influenced by anything.

Without any notice i got ready and left for office.