1 Student life

I wake up and saw, i am at school all around me was brilliant students making their future plans. i will become a doctor, engineer.... etc.

and i was in pain that what will i do.

i was a below average student. who always try to open and the electrical intruments that are reached(kharab hona).

I always try to fit them sometimes they are fitted and sometimes instead of fitting i broken them.

its my love. but my parents expected that i should become engineer/doctor/ District magistrate. but i was nill in study.

after seeing their expectations for me.i also started giving them a blind believe that i will become that..... etc.

i start studying towards becoming a good doctor . i joined a coaching institution i worked very hard but didn't got any college.

i tryed next year again i fail to got my aim. again try like this i was trying from 5 years but didn't got to fullfill my parents expectations.

Now this is my last chance and i am totally broken inside.

all society think that i am going to be a doctor soon. cause after pluse2.five year's have passed away so they think i am doing mbbs.

but still i am struggling to got selected for mbbs.

whenever i go to my village . all villagers call me "or doctor" kya ho raha hai ( means what's going on doctor). at that time i feel a pain that was big enough for the thought comming in my mind for suicide. and i make my mide that i will today end up, and go back to home colsed myself to a room and started making arrangement for committing suicide. the when was going to do the same. i thought of my parents they live for me only. i also have to more big brothers but their nature towards my parents was like ( relation between King and the servent).

so my parents thought that i will become their "old age stick." suddenly i stoped.

and make my mind that i will become a doctor at any how. and again started working hard.

now its my last chance what will happen i dont know but i knew that i will do somethings good with my life than committing suicide.......... will be continued after may 2020.🙏