1 gerontophilia
The love of the elderlies, well in my own dictionary elderlies are people older than me with three years or more, don't get me wrong I know you like what about people older than me with some days, months, a year, two years.
Well I find it hard to fall in love with people of that age gap, I tried hard to love them, to be sexually attracted towards them, not going to lie, I am sexually attracted towards them but it's all lust, there's no other emotion involved just lust, pure infatuation!.
I am going to explain why I use the word elderlies, I know it's not the appropriate word well I haven't gotten the time to think of another word all what keeps popping up in my head are older,elderly, elderlies, I would change it once I figure out another word to use.
I know the first thing that enters your head when you hear or read the word elderlies is grey hair, wrinkled skin, sugar daddy or mummy well in here that's not what it means, it just means someone older.
I am attracted to older people, I love them,I am likely to fall in love with them easily, they give me this solace I can't seem to find in the younger ones, the peace of mind I get when I am around older people is different, the joy I derive is on another level, afterall it's you people that said "do what makes you happy" and guess what!?, older people makes me happy.
Being a gerontophile is no big deal, it's nothing to be scared of, as long as you don't have evil thoughts towards the person, hahaha, but for reals though
Being a gerontophile also comes with sapiosexuality, well for me although I don't know if it's the same for others.
sapiosexuality means an attraction towards one intelligence or the way a person thinks, sapiosexuality does not mean that you have to be intelligent for you to be sexually attracted towards someone else intelligence or way of thinking, I am sapiosexual, I like it when I am able to learn from someone else afterall they say "we learn something new everyday".
They say you can love someone deeply and still not know how to love them, it's true, when I love someone, most especially when the same feeling is reciprocated, I get overwhelmed with the feeling, I wanna love the person limitlessly, the feeling takes over my soul and mind whenever I am with the person, I always want to use every minute, seconds to show my love to the person.
The feeling clouds my way of thinking, trust me when I say the feeling of having someone who loves you the same way you love them is really satisfying, comforting, ethereal and tranquil.
Sometimes the way I express my feelings to the person I love comes out wrongly, sometimes I can't control my emotions, I end up crying cause it overwhelms me, I hate seeing my love one hurt, it hurts me too, feels like I'm being poked with pins and needles, whenever I love someone I become obsessed, not in a bad way but in a good way.
I have attachment issues, I know I'm not the only one on this table, when I love someone, I be really clingy, I am like a moth to flame, even if loving the person hurts me I still want it, sometimes I'm like how can the same person who makes you happy make you sad.
I so much love being a gerontophile, it's so comfortable, I get to be me, no faking, no hiding, just me and an older person I love so much. Trust me it's not easy to make an older person fall for you, cause they always like you look so young, you not smart, my level of education is way higher than yours but you know the saying, trust the process, and that's what I do.
Well that's where my story comes in
I hope I have been able to enlighten you.
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