1 Amnesia

The night everything I had high hopes for had just vanished into thin air leaving me to feel empty and cold. I couldn't bare it anymore what is this feeling everything was going just fine and now I have nothing...I finally got Katsumi's answer, not to long ago I remember I had wrote a letter of how when I'd met him it felt like love at first sight. I know it was stupid of me but I put in my backpack, but when I arrived I had seen a girl who dropped him off she looked like a model and she pulled him into the car to give him a kiss even though it seemed like it was a forced kiss I was thinking how could Katsumi be able to reject her as he wiped the kiss off he looked at me in shock while I ran away trying to hold back the tears. We had always been best friends but we grew apart when he started to become popular and my heart slowly broke into pieces. We used to eat lunch together, have conversations, get along, and tease each other. That all came to an end, we had stop talking and he avoided me and I didn't even get to express my love to him until... While I went to class the teacher said to take out our books so I went to open my backpack and had seen it wasn't fully closed and the letter was gone?! "She forgot this..." Katsumi said *he read for who it's from: Sachiko to: Katsumi* he thought to himself "what could this be?..." *he read it* I don't know what to do should I reject her I can't believe she actually loves me this isn't fair I've been hiding my feelings for you to protect you so why now... Katsumi thought to himself *class bell rings as school had finished for the day* "Hey Sachi can we talk.." As Katsumi bumped into her as most of the students had already gone home "..of course what is it, it's kinda funny we haven't talked in a while haha or is it just me" I said " no so I've guess you've noticed of how distant I've been" Katsumi said "..well of course I've noticed who wouldn't" I said "I guess that always has been you..." Katsumi said "huh?" I said " oh i mean it's just that you've always notice the little things" Katsumi said "not really those little things I notice are most likely just about you now that I think about it and Jen you know my best friend says I'm not really smart when it comes to remembering things but she can't say anything really with how bad she is at spelling am I right?" I said while smiling " hahahah yeah I guess you're right" Katsumi said while blushing "so what is it you wanted to say?.." I said "oh ummm I have a girlfriend now and I found this" *Katsumi hands the opened letter to Sachi* ".....gir-girl-girlfriend...wait that girl who kissed you?..." I said stuttering as my heart dropped "..yeah I'm really sorry about that and how you had to find out that way earlier this morning..." Katsumi said "oh it's okay! Just forget about everything have a great day, bye it was nice talking to you hopefully we can talk like we used to!" I said while smiling and running towards my bike that I take to ride home as the rain started pouring at its heaviest "wait! Be careful Sachi!" Katsumi said while he thought she was smiling Wait somethings not right I look behind and stop there's a car?! *crash* what is this why is Katsumi still here…? wait who is what wait.... "Sachiko!!! Can you hear me I'm right here don't leave me!!! You can hear me right?! Sachi!!! Someone call the ambulance!!! Someone, anyone?!...(Katsumi said) I thought to myself why does everything feel so foggy my brain feels like it's forgetting something but I can't seem to remember what it is...                  4 months later.. "Doctor is she up?" The nurse said "Yes currently she is suffering from Amnesia" The doctor said. I honestly don't know how i got here but I did somehow I feel like I should cry but I can't, my heart feels like it's trying to break on it's own while myself conscious is gluing it back together while the doctor talks to me about an accident I can't remember. Someone walked in calling Sachi which is my name the only thing i can remember is my name, childhood up until 8th grade and that's it. As a girl around my age walks in and says her name "Jen is my name do you remember me, your old childhood friend you knew since 1st grade I used to take the bus with you and you'd always help me get out of trouble.." she had said holding back her tears begging for validation "yes I remember you, but it still feels so new to me. Have you heard anything from aunt Lia? Did she ever get out of the hospital, she's going to be so happy that I woke up! I can't wait to see her face when I see her....huh? Jen what's wrong why are you crying, let me guess you're crying tears of joy right?" I said softly and hesitantly "Sachiko I have something I should tell you,....she never got her cancer cured and she just couldn't fight it off I mean she tried her hardest for you, but I guess the only thing you can remember is up until you were in 8th grade... the doctor was right. "Jen said ".....when... did she past.." I said shocked while trembling in fear " I'd say it's been about one year, hey you're okay right? You know have me okay so don't worry" Jen said caringly "okay" I said still trying to hold back my tears.... and yet hear I am i thought i found something that can make me find myself again, but instead I got hit with something worse now I have no one. I really do wonder how the old me handled these situations because this all feels so new yet familiar, but that's only because i remember some parts of my past...