9 The Battle

(Clary's Pov)

I'm making my way to the greenhouse when the institute's alarm goes off. I quickly run to Jace's room to see him, grabbing his weapons belt, he then passes me my sword. We both run downstairs to see Jonathan, Valentine, and a bunch of men behind them. I look at Jace and he looks back at me putting his arm around my waist pulling me closer to him. My entire body is shaking, I can't breathe. All the bad moments come back, all the beatings, the raping's. "No stop!" As the flash's start, I start to freak out a lot more. It's getting hard to breathe, I turn around trying to calm down. Jace turns to look at me and hugs me, calming me down. I finally start to relax and I turn back around to see Valentine and Jonathan smirking at me again.

"Nice to see you again, Clarissa," Valentine said walking towards me. "Too bad you're a traitor to your own family," Valentine said as he moved my hair out of my face with his sword. That's what pissed me off. I grab his sword and throw it to one of my friends.

"You beat me up, rape me, yell at me, and you killed my mother. You never treated me with respect, you call that family. You don't know what family is. You were never loved; you don't understand what it's like to be loved and to love. That's why you killed my mother, I was loved and you did everything to take that from me. You're not my family, these guys are my family. So, you can go, get out of my life and leave. You would be doing everyone a favor! " I said, walking forward and pushing him back with my finger. Jonathan just starts laughing and comes to me.

"Hey little sister, hope you enjoyed your little vacation," I get so mad I slap him across the face. After about 20 minutes Valentine starts attacking us. I took on Jonathan, I jumped on top of him and started punching him.

"Hey, this is just like the last time we had sex," he says while smirking. Then start hitting him harder, yelling at him.

"YOU RAPED ME!" I yell, taking out my seraph dagger and putting it against his neck. "W-Why would you do that to me? I'm your little sister, I say as I start crying. He flipped us over and he held the sword to my neck. I kicked him off of me and I stood up to see everybody else fight. I was more worried about Jace. He was up against my Valentine, I hoped that Jace would be alright and that he would have beaten Valentine. I tried to jump towards Izzy to help her, but I felt Jonathan grab me. Next thing I know I hear a crack and I feel a sharp pain in my rib. His hands were covered in my blood. He broke my ribs and I didn't care. I scream and Jace looks towards me, causing him to lose his focus and I see him get stabbed. Before I can get up to help him, Jonathan grabs Jace. Valentine and Jonathan disappear with Jace.

"JACE!" I yell as he disappears. I crawl over to where he was stabbed to see a blood stain. I sit there and start crying as a million different possibilities pop in my mind. Izzy comes near me and she activates my Iratze. She kneeled in front of me hugging me. I just sit there hugging her while more tears come out. What if he died? I can't be without him.

"Hey-hey, it's okay Clary," Izzy says, rubbing my back.

"W-what if they k-kill h-him. Izzy, I think I love him. " I say, pulling away and looking at her. Izzy gets up and grabs my hand pulling me up with her. She puts her hand around my waist and me to my room. But then Alec started to speak

"Clary everything is going to be okay; I can still feel him, he's in pain, but he is still alive." I just nod and start walking back.

But I know Valentine will kill him for taking me away from him. Izzy has me lay down on the bed and tells me it's going to be alright. I get out of bed and go to my sketchbook to see a lot of sketches I did of Jace. I start crying again. I can't help but think that I'll never see him again. He changed my life for the first time in forever. I felt loved. He made me fall in love with him and all because of my messed-up family he will die for nothing. My life sucks. They took the only thing that made me happy. I got my hopes up. I was already thinking about what the future would be like. I can't stop crying. I already miss him. I take my sketchbook and go into his room. I go into one of his drawers and take out one of his shirts. I hold it up to my nose and smell his shirt. It smells so much like him. I take off my shirt and put on his shirt, I go to his bed and lay down on his side of the bed. All the memories come back, like the first time we kissed or the first time we cuddled. I curl up into a ball holding my legs to my chest as I continue to cry. A few hours later I'm still in the same spot. I try to keep crying but nothing is coming out, I have no tears left. I have the biggest headache from crying so hard and long, after a while I finally fall asleep.