9 The Uneasiness - (Ray's P.O.V.)

Ray was sitting on his desk staring at the notebook in front of him, under the table lamp.

He let out a loud sigh.

It was a picture of Rhino, having a dialog bubble on his head saying, "I am sorry, Teacher."

"Aaahhh…", he shouted loudly, scratching his head.

"What is wrong with you, Ray?", he said to himself.

Remembering today's morning, he pressed himself back, to his chair. Then he held both of his hands behind his head and looked above, at the ceiling.

'Why did I draw 'her' picture in the first place? Well, her expressions were really amusing when she said that....Hehe....'

A slight smile appeared on his face.

'She seems funnier every time I look at her…..And when she stumbled from her table this morning...Haha….That was the cutest!.....Her eyes were so big!....Haha….Was she trying to look what I was drawing?'

The smile got wider.

'And the time when she looked at me suddenly?.....And our eyes met?...Wowww…..My heart was beating so fast...Like it was out of control...I really felt, that my ears were getting red! I couldn't even look at her for the whole day because of that!'

While thinking this, his ears turned red again. He touched them and said, "Aww….What is wrong with youuu?"

Then he closed the notebook, got up from his chair and jumped on his bed.

Lying down on his stomach he placed his head on the pillow.

'…We also got punished together. I was so nervous at that time, that I didn't know what to say. I just kept moving the tables…

This is so strange actually. I never used to get any difficulty to talk to anyone. So why do I have to think so much before talking to her?'

He turned and then lied down on his back. Putting his arm below his head, he stared at the ceiling.

'And the way she stared at me when I gave her my handkerchief….I thought like my heart stopped for a while.

Her big, black eyes looking at me like that…..'

Ray kept his other hand on his chest. He could feel his heart was beating faster.

"Hhhh…", he sighed again.

'Pulling myself together, I tried to talk with her again. But the words which came out were ..."Clean it properly!"...'

"Aaahhh….", he shouted again annoyingly and turned to his right.

'Why didn't I say something better…..'

"Idiot!", he yelled at himself.

'I am really a huge idiot…..The thing I said at the end…..that, "Let's not come late tomorrow. Otherwise we'll have to do it again."...She really seemed sad after that….

Did she think, that I don't want to work with her anymore?...Ohhh…..Nooo….I really didn't mean…ughh…And I just ran away when I realized that….Idiot!...Idiot!'

And he punched his pillow several times.

"You should have cleared things up, Ray.", he said to himself.

Then he got up and went near the window, staring outside.

'And on top of that, you moved your table close to hers.

Why did you do that?...Do you think, she likes you or something?...Impossible...She doesn't even know you that well…..You transferred to this school like 2 days ago…...And…. she looks so cute….and….'

He closed the curtains and again jumped on the bed.

'…..But the way she was staring at me…..and her eyes when she was paying attention to me, while I was telling her the incident...and her smile...Ughhh….'

He again punched the pillow really hard.

"No, Ray. No. It is not possible. Okay?"

He stood up quickly.

"You are going to school early tomorrow and then you are gonna move your table to its original place. Do you get it?"

"Yess!!", he said making a tight fist.

"And do not hesitate while talking to her. Act normal. Stay calm."

Then he lied down on his bed again.

Revising his own thoughts again and again, Ray finally fell asleep.