Beautiful but cursed we want to be love

Confessing to your crush, being accepted or rejected, mixing your desire and love with a kiss, all this is a base of a relationship for normal persons. In my family we are far from normal, we were blessed with incredible beauty but also with a curse following us for generation to generation. Kissing is a no, confessing is a burden under the penalty of being forgotten by your love. After seeing my sisters multiple deceptions, heartbreaks , tears I finally decided to never fall in love thus I refuge myself in studies and books. So why this sudden heartbeat, why can't I breath normally in front of him, why do I desire him so badly I am surely sick!!!!!!!! Brief to find more about Why did we got cursed ? Would they be able to find love ? Who is the object of my desir...sickness ? Follow the love stories of my crazy and weird family !!!!!!!!