PROLOGUE

Orlando is dead , how will I live now ? how will I live without him ? how did this happen all of a sudden ?. i thought i loved him , why am I not feeling any thing ?this man cherished me took care of me ..I continue to stare at Orlando's coffin bow it time for it to be lowered into the grave I can't believe I don't feel anything missing i watched how his loved ones were wailing over him and I just stood there questioning myself why am i not crying like others are they are all crying hard and am just staring i don't know how i will face the world now , someone's hand held mine and I knew who it was, my best friend molly .

"don't worry Bea all of this will get better soon".

" molly what should I do now? where should I live now I don't want to live in that house where I can remember all the memories we spent together ".

" you can come and stay with me".

"no it will be difficult for both of us to pay for the house rent i don't want to be a burden to you".

" no don't ever say that Bea ".

" but I need to secure a job first,the expense and everything we will both split it".

"Bea am your best friend i will manage till you secure a job".

" you are sure about this".

"Yeah am sure so let's go pack your things and go to your new home".

molly and I left the funeral to pack my things after that we went to her apartment, thankfully it a three bedroom flat, molly showed me my room and we both arranged my things in the room .

" welcome home Bea don't worry you won't regret your decision feel free to do whatever you want".

"Thanks molly i love you".

" Welcome Bea".

Am going to reset and start a new live but first let me enjoy for now and I will look for a job later I wonder if I will be a burden to Molly i know we are best friends but still I won't use this to my advantage i wonder how it is to start a new life but I know one thing for sure to love will be a difficult task for me right now so I won't go out for now when i will my little heart must have being prepared for whatever obstacle it will face I hope no one will be able to destroy this little thing in the middle of my chest hmm Orland see what you cause why did you leave me why didn't you tell me you will soon leave me why.

"Bea don't cry everything will be okay".

" oh sorry".

"Don't be ".

" What will i do without you ".

" Bea you are my best friend ".

" i will never forget you mol".

molly hugged me and I cried in her embrace till I couldn't cry again.

ALEXANDER JONES...

Arrrrrg the sun is too bright I just want to sleep some more, The previous night was so good and the chick beside is so good I wish I can have another round with her but I don't want her to think we have something special I only do a night stand and that's my policy am not gonna break it because of a chick, I should probably wake her up before she start to act stupid when she wakes up herself.

"Hey wake up I don't need you anymore you can leave my hotel room now".

" Let me sleep some more ".

" Nah, get the fuck out of my room before I call security ".

" But what we did was special ". I said it she will start to get stupid ideas.

" Sorry I don't do special I only do one night stands so get out".

"But.....".

" Get out already before I Call security ".

" Am going just know you will regret this".

"I have been doing this for a long time but I don't think I have ever regret it till now".

" Okay you'll see when you fall in love".

"Yeah love is for dump people so I will never fall in love, BYE!!!!".

" Okay don't say I didn't tell you, you fall in love one day and you will regret all of this".

"Just get out". she left my room slamming the door on her way out.

" Hey you know you can't afford that". I waited for an angry lady to come barging in but she never came back , I can't believe her she's just talking rubbish from her mouth love only people who are stupid fall in love, well there are chicks that I have been with that they are worst than her, I need to check out and go to my penthouse, my pent house is a no go area for chicks or even women, I freshened up and took a drive to my pent house changed into work clothing and drove to work, Few hours later I was driving from work to the club I need a chick to fill in with my d**k, I entered the club after parking my car somewhere in the clubs parking lot, I called the bar tender and ordered vodka, I waited for a chick to come to me and yes one came to me.

"Its like you want some company".

" Yeah I do".

"Okay can I be your company".

" Yeah maybe we should just go to my hotel room to discuss about having companies ".

" Yeah we should". I gulp down the remaining of my vodka, I lead her to my car and went to the hotel to feel the moment at hand I feel she is gonna be good.