10 Hear Me Out

It was a gloomy afternoon. The beautiful flowers and plants from her mom's garden were dancing along with the windy air at the back of their house. Letting her wavy hair sway freely, she wears her favorite white loose plain t-shirt and black shorts while sitting on the bench just beside her mom's blooming garden.

Yep, she's at her parents' house because it's Sunday.

Yejin is currently left alone in their house as her mom, dad and brother went to the grocery store to buy food for their family dinner later.

Looking up to the gloomy skies, she folds her knees and lifts her index finger trying to draw letters behind the clouds.

She starts with... "B"

Next was... "A"

Then... "B"

Lastly was... "E"

She pouted her lips and bowed down her head. You can laugh at her as she might look like a high school teenage girl writing her crush's name above the sky, but she doesn't care.

'I'm really mad at you, Bin... But I really miss you that it hurts my heart so much.' She let out heavy sighs after stating those words while her eyes were stuck to the planted pink roses in front of her. This flower reminded her of Bin. These are the roses he always sent to her during their courtship days. She sighed again.

For the past few days, Yejin spent sleepless nights as she struggled thinking about how to prepare herself when she sees Bin tomorrow. Can she compose herself enough inside the conference room breathing the same air with him? Can she present her monthly report while Bin is looking at her? What if Bin approaches her? How will she react?

These are the things she keeps on worrying about after she was informed by her Managing Director that their monthly presentation report will be held in Sacheon branch.

There were days when she wants to shout inside her office or anywhere in Gimhae city to release how mad she is when she suddenly thinks of Bin's disappearance and marriage. But most of the time, she cries out of stress and out of longing for him.

She sometimes scans back Bin's sweet text messages on her phone. Replaying the songs he sang through their long calls— yes, unbeknownst to Bin, she recorded them all.

Sometimes after work, she walks blankly without knowing where her feet are going that mostly she got bumped by random people in the streets. Every fucking single day, she still hopes that is just a nightmare. She wanted to wake up and go back to her happy days with him. She misses his hundreds of I Love Yous, his presence, his kisses, his hugs, his addicting smell— that she didn't even wash the bedsheets they used when they made love the whole day and night at her flat. It's hard. It's really hard for her.

She knows it's wrong for her to feel this way as he is already committed to another woman. Even though they haven't had a chance to talk yet in person, but at least she deserves to be honest with her emotions even just to herself. If she keeps it and won't acknowledge it, she will surely lose her sanity. She'll be gone crazy.

When she's at work, you may see her lips and eyes smiling, but she's literally fooling everyone. She's breaking inside. She tried to keep herself busy for those days that Bin wasn't around. Drinking bottles of sojus almost every night thinking that the alcohol might help her to forget him... But the harder she tries, the more she misses him.

During their dinner, her mom asked her when she will bring Bin to their house so they can finally meet him, but she only answers her that Bin got busy with his work and trying to find time to have a visit. Yes, she lied to her mom, she felt sorry for doing this to her but thinking that's the better way to do this for now.

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Tomorrow morning...

Before entering the entrance door, Yejin stood up in front of the Sacheon branch's building wearing the most fitted and beautiful red long sleeve dress from her wardrobe along with her elegant black peep-toe sandals. Uneasy as she is, she tried calming her beating fast heart before taking steps towards the door.

She went directly to the ladies' room to fix herself a little and texted her best friend if she's already inside the building so they can go inside to the conference room together.

When Hyojin arrived, she caressed Yejin's shoulders trying to let her calm as nervousness is very evident from her face.

"Yej... I know this is hard for you, but please stand on your ground. You're excellently pretty. Bin will surely drool his ass when he sees you. Don't worry, I'm here... I got your back." Hyojin assured her.

After Yejin softly nodded, they went outside the restroom and walks towards the conference room.

While they're on their way, they can already see a man walking from the opposite side of the hall going in the same direction as them.

Hyojin holds her best friend's left hand and whispered to her, "Just ignore him, Yej."

Yes, it's Bin with a new haircut wearing a semiformal suit that showering his well-fitted manly body.

Yejin gulped as her heart began beating so fast...

The closer their gap is getting, the closer her knees are starting to betray her. However, with the help of her best friend's presence beside her, she took all her courage to continue walking going to the conference room while avoiding his gaze that was already stuck to her.

Bin arrived first in front of the door. He opens it while he waited for the two ladies to go inside first.

Yejin steps in before Hyojin while lowering her head. When Bin softly uttered...

"Hi, Yej."

What the fuck!?

She wants to run outside the building right now as she felt the shivers down her spine. How dare him saying 'Hi' to me as if nothing happened? She cursed at the back of her mind.

Yejin pretends that she didn't hear him and continued walking inside the room. Meanwhile, Hyojin shoots a flaming gaze at him before going her way inside.

The moment Yejin took her seat, she let out a deep sigh as her heart is beginning to sink. It went worst when Bin took a seat BESIDE her.

Hyojin on her left side, and Bin on her right side.

Their seats aren't that too close though, but still, knowing that Bin is just beside her, makes her body froze. Her body feels cold. Her insides are shaking. She wants to be eaten up by the floor right now to disappear.

Good thing the presentation got started early.

Yejin stuck her eyes straight on the stage. Pretending to listen to her co-Head Managers' presentations. She never tried or attempted to move her head to her right side to avoid Bin's presence.

When it was her turn, she tried her best to shower the remaining professionalism inside her. She must finish this report at least for the sake of her job.

The Universe must be on her side today as she was able to deliver her reports well enough by reminding herself never to look at Bin while she's talking in front of the stage.

Everyone's clapping their hands at her as expected. She's still the Ace of the Head Managing team after all.

She went back to her seat feeling proud of herself. While she's on her way, Bin's eyes followed her and the moment she seated, he tapped her right leg.

"Good job, Yej." He said while smiling.

Yejin felt the warmth of his hands. Fuck! This is his touch that she misses. The sensation of feeling their skin touching each other is making her insane. Good lord, please forgive her for feeling this way.

The only thing she could do is not to move. She can't push away his hand on top of her leg as it may cause commotion inside the room if she'll react like she was harassed by him.

Thank God as the host called the next Head Manager to present the next branch's report. Making Bin leaves his hand from her leg.

She sighed out of relief, but she would be lying not to admit that ninety percent of her body and heart wants it to stay. She even felt a little wet down there. Fudge, the power of his touch!

Now, it's Bin's turn.

Bin stands up and walks towards the stage. She never leaves her gaze on him after that.

However, everything went black to her when the moment Bin stood up on the stage and the host stated a few words before he could start his presentation...

"Hey, everyone. Let's give a round of applause to congratulate our Sacheon branch Head Manager for getting married last Sunday. Hyun maenijeonim, I heard you cried during the entourage. That's so sweet!"

'WHAT THE FUCK!!! EOMMAAAAAAA!!!'

Yejin wants to scream out loud. She wants to cry. She wants to run. She wants to disappear in an instant.

Everyone in the conference was clapping aside from her of course, and her best friend who looks so furious like ready to run towards Bin to punch him as well as the host.

Yejin can't contain the pain of load her heart is having. While everyone was busy clapping and congratulating Bin, she ran outside the conference room using the door just near where they seated.

Bin noticed her and runs after her.

Everyone was stunned as to why Bin went outside the room.

Hyojin was about to stand up ready to go to her best friend when Bin went back and peeked on the door breathlessly...

"I'm sorry, but can you please proceed to the next Branch instead? I— I... just need to take care of something emergency."

Hyojin stayed still as she realized they need to talk together alone. They really need this.

One of the Managing Directors nodded as a sign of approval to Bin's request and signalled the host to call the next Head Manager to be presented on the stage.

Bin ran as fast as he can going to the ladies' restroom thinking that Yejin went there... He opens every cubicle, but Yejin is nowhere to be found. He roams inside the building looking for her. Opened every room or office near the conference room, but still, he can't find her.

Until he heard cries behind the exit door not far away from where he stands.

He opens it, and there he sees Yejin, sitting on the stairs crying her heart out while covering her mouth.

"Yej..." He worriedly uttered.

Yejin stands up and covers her face with her hands while still crying without end...

"GO OUT!" She said while sobbing.

"Yej, let's talk... Please..." He softly begged while taking little steps towards her.

"DON'T COME CLOSER TO ME!!!" She shouted.

"Yej. I'm sorry... Please let me explain..." He begged again.

Yejin couldn't utter a word anymore as she's having a hard time catching her breaths while crying.

Until Bin hugs her behind her back...

"Yej, I'm sorry... Please, please, please I'm begging you... Let me explain... Please stop crying..."

Still, Yejin didn't answer... Instead, she took all her courage to release from Bin's embrace. She then went downstairs and got outside the door on that floor.

Bin punches the wall using his right fist so hard for how many times... Enough to leave pretty marks of blood on the wall.

Yejin got outside the building of Sacheon branch. She immediately took a cab and went to her flat. Good thing she was able to bring her phone at least while her bag was left inside the conference room.

She's still crying in the backseat of the taxi. She slid up her phone's screen and texted her best friend letting her know that she already went home and asks her to bring her bag when the presentation is finished.

When she arrived at her flat, she instantly ran towards her bedroom and jump her face off to the bed. She cried like a river again while punching the pillows beside her...

...endlessly.

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