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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

The author of the book "The world of emotion" is Avipsha Ban. She was born on 12th of March and was born and brought up in Kathmandu Valley. She is the first child of her family. The book world of emotions is her 12th book and her writings are presented many times in the writer's workshop. She goes to Akshara School.

She has been interested in poem writing since her childhood. She has been writing a lot of poems. She prefers a simple life rather than a glamorous one. She believes in staying motivated every time along with critical thinking.

1. MY ROOM

Mornings know my laziness

And night knows my activeness

My pillow experienced my cries

And my walls know all my secrets

Windows know how lovely I was

And mirror knows my confidence scarcity

Plates know how kind I was

And books know how bored I was

Pens know it replaced my words for someone

And my diary knows unlimited and untold emotions

Guitar knows my willingness

And my cupboard includes all my desires

Bed knows my stupid hobbies

And balcony knows my killing attempts

Floor knows my footsteps

And carpet knows its dirt

Teddy became my best friend

And my door provided privacy

Mobile knows it shouldn't be exposed

And my charger knows how impatient I was

Corners know how loud I was

And handkerchief knows how tears would make it wet

Mess knows how cruel I was

And my dustbin knows how it threw my negativity

2. LGBT society

An uninvolved male grabs a makeup kit

Including to arise and admit

Oh shameful! Against society rules! God! How can someone be that!

Is it dishonored if he prefers a skirt more than a coat?

This is their way of expressing

And this is their way of let go the time

This is their way of creativity

And this is how they express

Makeup all over me, that's what she choose

Being with any gender is what he desires for

Harsh words, physical treatment and packs them in turbulence

Also Clutch their name when it proceeds to "UNPLEASANT"

Just because he chose to wear tight dresses

Instead of jeans below the hips,

Just because he chose to pick eye shadow instead of cigarette in this cursed world,

They just want to live this way, doing this,

Cause this in only in few fate,

Why should his makeup suffocate you?

A entirely disheartened, you the shine to the whole

They're not tormentors! They're differently sensed

They're not society troublers! They hand the outstanding identity

Regard them for their unique personality

Every time a corresponding joint won't make a punctuality

Approve them for clipping assorted aspect to this planet

Don't let their smiles fade as winter shadows.

3. STRESS

These turbulence arises and sets in its own way

If marathon away keeps on chasing

If stick towards keeps on troubling

Struggle! Struggle! Struggle! Why do you even exist?

Solution! Solution! Solution! Why don't you come to me?

Is that overthinking or is that the reality?

Confusion strikes but have to wait for a time

Waiting would cost millions, each day would be an eternity

Wait a while! Give some time to you

Stress is gulping every each second

Thoughts are craving to gulp down

Every time this happens, I make me a Jin and negativity my lead

Till when? But why?

Stop this! Stand up! Look yourself, you are the lead not a Jin

You have the power to provide your success elegance

You can do it! Have hope!

You'll reach the miles you desired to climb from so long!

Killing and dying for others, most important one is out of head

Yes! Important is you yourself

Decision is hard, you faced this cause there is a reason for it

You are important, you are lovely

Realization is hard yet, you can put the full stop

There is a conclusion to this stage: wait and watch!

What is hard? Nothing is hard if you believe!

Plan and make a special card, you are a beautiful art

Some flaws are blocking the beauty and know this is just the start

Blast the worst and form the best, you will make it to the end

This is your life's test Do not fail yourself

4. ME (WOMEN)

I possibly may prefer to be anything I want

Attired makeup for existence of being assured

Girly look to be embracing

Short clothes to be authentic

Loose clothes to be comfortable

I desire to be whatever I wish,

I'm not a Jin nor, you my lead

I can be charmed towards anyone

Why do you judge so much?

I can reside with anyone

Why do you supervise so much?

Don't compel, you suppose I'm formed for your scullery?

Drawing myself into the compass of indiscriminate individuals

Fluttering here and there for rights

Perching with no-one with benevolence

Inner rage fighting to stab out

Dragging the stoppers behind

Claiming myself ahead with a tread

And persuading I can do anything I want for my good.

Undergoing the clashes, peaks and valley

Unbearable issues furnished verbally and physically

All we are diverse to each other

All we have variable opinion

We're supposed to be complementary to men

Yet, they effort to envelop us

And set out to conclude our success

5. Wish to god

I own the entire bundle of desires to be discharged

I demand for every single to earn the attainment

Alternatives emerges and designs an obstacle

Me, Counts on the fortune and calm myself

Life is sprinting with an ebb-and-flow

Intensity is packed with pleasure

Awful days drags to the low feel

God, You there? To have my back

The struggles only alarms me of you

There is believe in my heart you exist

There is a detect that you only prop up right

I too undertake responsibilities and urge a desire

We always have a smart deal with each other

Incautious me, would always shatter the deal

I'm terrified and motivated for everyday the wrestle arises

I call up "There's the double of it to face in coming days"

Sun's disappearance on delayed evenings

Someone sat there and perceived it gleaming

Glow was hunting his eyes

But realized it was smoother than heart's pain

He sensed the similarity of innocent moon

Along with his women

The apparent associate and the one to never get tired with

Same as the moon's spot

He accepted his girl's flaws

And made an oath to stay forever

6. Scrambled heart

Anxieties production from the interior heart

Pinches me every time I act a complication

I receive the loud alarm from me everyday

For the reason to build an excessive change

And reverse into the old YOU

I miss the moments with me

And my lovely time, every day is taken by gadgets

Every time a reasonable excuse is steady to drag me behind

The need is to punish and move ahead

Every people arriving my face has a lesson to perceive

I really don't to how but I really have too Everyday

Every night is banned with the turbulence I'm in

I want a satisfaction that's it I will complete my goal that's it, heavy mind is always there to ruin

Though I'll make this heavy thing the reason I succeed

Sometimes my intentions are pure as white

A tiny speckle shatters the entire heart

After the wrinkles replacement to my baby skin

She realized that her existence was for others

And her own heart was out of senses

She forgot who she was

For the sake of reminding others

My tears project your smile

My heart perceive our memories

My eyes search for your company

And my nerves stick waiting your arrival

I know some moments are just a paragraph to my thick book

But some are highlighted so bright that

7. My teenage mind

Desires a year ago excluding the maturity

Craves to look like someone else

And began to sweat without reason

Those sweats converted into a poison

And cursed me to realize my unknown fault

Regretted for endless thoughts over the dream that'll certainly not achieve

Presently, proud of the grip I discharged. Surely, would attain a new path in future

Excited to discover the coming challenges, along with steady to handle them

Over consciousness was killing then. Currently, assembled the correct decision

Grabbed a new life and living to the fullest,

Proud of this achievement and always would be

I got notified to accept who I am, I enlarged my confidence and satisfaction as well

Possible transformation for the best version of me, Affected towards Myself and roads to nourish them

His stage is the process we all enlarge

New life begins and old life gets discharged

Our influence and efforts do matter the moment

Something better to do is just commitment

Persuade yourself to do something impressive everyday

Promise your leads that you will accomplish and obey

Honor the ones above you

Convey the love to your futures

Cleanse your atmosphere and embrace the place you're in

Make your place peace and have some devotion around

You're here for a reason and exit to discover it

It's hard to get but it's obviously worth it

Everything is not normal now!

You're not a kid anymore, there is a real feel of changes

Dealing with an ant seems harsher

Wake up! You are a teenager now!

8. HER MARRIAGE

Arose here for my mom from the starting

Dad was ones to carry and walk through every stairs

Ones to hold your palms and increase our self-believe

One and only family by blood or heart

Raising and seeing us grow was their biggest delight

Depressing culture to lest the ladies away from them

Family's bravery deserves a salute!

A daughter with you from 20 years gets apart

With the only reason grabbing "culture"

Everyone wants each other to be patched and be their side lifelong

Disheartened this world cripples and

Takes you to the family you never wanted to be

Hardness to replace the other parent with the owns

Why only women? Why not men?

This culture so stick with this tradition

No other can replace because it is already labeled as ancient

This is the fact and hope society will change someday

She is similar to him, she got less devotion

She got less fortune and got less in everything

Her infancy was a load to some

And movement was a jealousy to the society

Sadly, he got excessive and she lacked

They made her conclude my existence and wanted me to apart

In a young age, she was affected towards her

And gradually, she got flipped towards the other family

She was separated in the name of culture

She was compelled in the name of tradition

She was dominated in the name of history

And she dropped her tolerable tears.

9. That moment<3

I was thrown out of the class

Grabbed my copy and pen and started encompassing feels

Tons of giggles producing out my throat

My brain stopping me to let that out

Agreement or disagreement?

Diverse question arising my head for no reason

Me with zero sensation of what occurred

Emotion collected and waiting to get stirred

Sorrowful and regretful for idiotic action

And yes, I will repeat in unconscious

Just a second, written these words

The moment I was dragged out

Identified different and was cleared as worse

Insult was obvious but didn't feel

This is my way of expressing

And this is my way of let go the time

This is my way of creativity

And this is how my words flow

Teacher's eye was pointed to me

Is that my imagination or is that the reality?

I was bad or was I bad in her eyes?

The other one was caught up!

I was worse then,

Bored me waiting for the time to strike fast

Common 12:20? Where are you?

Legs ache, I miss my old place

Regretting every action I took

Feels as if this will never repeat till eternities

Unnecessary ideas popping out my head

And yes, still I'm waiting for the stick to reach its point

10. Counting stars: The whole night :)

Nights are firm to pass and sleep is stubborn at entrance

I got infinite thoughts running on my nerves

She tried hard to eradicate one but each of it had tremendous ton

Hardness to let go any, knowing it did not have the value of penny

Why aren't thoughts controlled through remote?

I get clutched by non-sense and start wondering if it is cold or hot.

I feel like crashing the time and compelling it to strike morning as fast but unfortunate me and the universe to not make it able

I hear and sense the never experienced sounds

Tumbling of rain drops, Snore of father and dream talk of my brother

There lies a steel nearby my room Raindrops penetrating the steel roof to shout and the loud roof passing my ears with a water scout

I have to get dozed off but how?

Millions of thoughts are in love with me and are mounded to crave a tea

-Go get a tea then...No I cannot! mom will recognize my footsteps and throw me to sleep with a slap shot

I'd rather crave and grave, disheartened my heart reversing to compel my apathy sleep again

Recently realized that many teenagers received this issue

Due to the similar thought I got, I wanted to be dissimilar, Unfortunate my never supporting system

Tilting me to the insomnia phase .I right now, am fearing my mom

Who's going to suspect me for, Talking to someone named "tom"

But, how can I describe her? That I got millions of fur that runs in my head

And is penetrating to wake me up night late

I have to stop wasting my time until the sun awakens to shine

I am fearing the agony the next day my eyes will pass through

Turning off my light won't actually work, I'll just have to put my paper and pen aside and

Dig in more space to fit in my infinite thoughts

11. LIFE?

Unknown about the self's existence Yes, she was bugged fluttering diverse roads

Finding her true purpose

Why does she breathe? Why did she deserve the air present on earth?

Why did she qualify two feet to step into this world? Why did she earn a brain to recognize the universe?

Unrevealed motive to sense the world! Infinite accomplishments holding back there!

Encouragement to sway the world in palm and feed my soul with thrilling fulfilment

She is carrying a responsibility to grant a new life

Getting alternated to the piece of heart Lesson of presence,

Two lives of an average human was; Living life as new and giving a life to a new

I clutch the unlimited amount of creativity in me,

It's just that I didn't have adequate time to present it up

Know ledged on future is more of my present

Sorrowfully, the time shuts like a river

And all my motivation crashes

All my pressurization collaborate

And all my time goes away

I feel that I can't but positivity won't let me down

My goals are perpetual presently

And my every action should feed my soul

With enlightened future

Besides the moment I depart towards the mirror

My waistline size pushes me backwards

My big hand dares to pinch my waist fat existing

And anticipates to eradicate the compelling moment

I want my achievement to scrape off everyone's jaw

12. Distance from people

She is bulged by the instant transformation occurring this stage

Mom penetrates me to be independent

Dad consign me to include a life asset

Brother no-more fights with me for a twinge

I no more associate like a care-free kid

Love seems to flutter like a sea

I sense the distance forming among my friends so early and it's ridiculous to visualize

Yes! I feel so disheartened

Though, my desire was fulfilled

It dragged a contrary content

Along with it

The thought of investing the own self; onto his tiny heart,

Which is lagging the generosity to let the lover in

I sense you as a whole life individual

Apart from everything I went till now

You match my every vibe, you occur my every thought

And you are never mine!

I continued my life, carrying a broken gear

The gear is no longer going to trust

Cause the every single amount was torn by a knife

Not only you no-one has a seat in my heart now

Bravest thing was to continue my life

And letting my heart beat allow

Centering myself on someone else

Was again a biggest fault I made?

Similar pain the next time is going to bounce a real high

Will kill my whole body mind and heart

I was literally centered upon her

And I was not really aware

I often practiced to drag me away

As I was sure the day to exit would arrive

13. PRESENT KILLS

The tale about the affection

Felt raw enough to get scrambled in this

Stubborn me desirous on pointless things

Furnishes and makes a feel on awful site

This concern keeps on biting me

Still don't know why I am continuing?

Fear of losing gives a goose bumps

Fear of future permits the goose muscle

The habit of postponing is just killing

Ideas to do it the other day never exists

Obviously future is important

But seriously don't know what I am doing

Transformation concept keeps arising

No path visible to start

This goes on, then obviously going to suffer

Lost in the thoughts to find the way to start

14.I SAW THEM, CHIEF DEVOTION

Significance of the companion rises with the declining years

Real affection's existence is apparent

Knowing they hand a several life span

Making out the most of it seems their seriousness

Tons of love expressing through actions

Compromising own comfort,

Letting the partner adore their life

Was the best motive they embraced?

Was dense to cook and eat

Did that by him to her for his merriment

Was sharp to protect her from cold winds in her sleep

Blanket was evenly heavy for her to pull through her arms

He stood up sacrificing his sleep and defended with her issues

By tugging in the blankets for her and for her pleasure

Ideal ones for the definition of real feels

Endearment and appreciation for each other is the centered lesson

Comparing the rarely devoted relations in the raw era

This should be the worldwide moral