au revoir |till we meet again|.

Lying to myself just to eased the pain crying silently in the middle of the night a devastating news that's change myself a broken heart and my world says GOODBYE. my heart felt empty. In middle of the night while the weather isn't that good we decided to take a shelter in one of the taverns in the Hill but while I am smiling like an idiot .Shan my boyfriend drop a very devastating news. Xena , I am sick and I don't want you to become sad just because of me . please let me go for the sake of my love for you .i don't want to see you crying silently while seeing me pass away from my sickness . please iam begging you to let go of me . shan told me while crying and begging in front of me . w-what sickness ! don't joke with me shan Miguel !i know I'm not perfect being a girlfriend but you must know how i love you so much please stop joking . This isn't funny anymore . are pranking me again ? where's the hidden camera ! haha please stop being like this i told him while some tears leaving my eyes . Im sorry but I'm not that good in joking and you know that . he told me while wiping my tears away. Xena I love you . I love you that i just wanna keep you forever by myself but i cannot afford to be so selfish to beg you to stay while I'm going to die .i cant please j- just let me go and move on. .please xena i cant . shan i don't care about your illness, even if your dying i want to stay by your side .Don't Force me like this, i wanna fight together with you please let me stay please sorry but I'd rather die alone than staying with you while you suffer because I am going to leave you please xena .move on and be happy I love you goodbye .shan kiss me in my forehead while crying and left me alone in the tavern crying. shan !!!!! please don't . don't leave me please please .i cant please let me stay .. the last word I utter before i pass out.