3 Thinking

Are humans destined to be sad and to hurt each other? well, i guess so. When i was young i never thought of being hurt because of love. I thought and believed that love i always receive and give is where my home is. You know? The one you will have forever.

When Manala died I was lost and became so dumb I even tried killing myself. I was dumb-founded. I know that's not the answer to all my questions. But a quick update. I am damn okay now.

I managed to gather my things up and live a whole new life again. I find myself at the bar 2 times a week. A progress it is. Baby steps, but atleast i am getting there. I kinda wish I have siblings to spoil with attention. It's kinda hard having yourself in times of destruction. Only child sucks.

I can always find myself thinking. How my life would be right now if Mamala is still alive. I have my parents to support me. But you can't blame me for cherishing my Grandma more because my parents are always bust onwork while i am growing up. Such a sad story.

Months ago I met different kinds of men but none of them was loyal. I mean? the attention?. I wish I can find someone whom I can spoil my love with. Uhh random thoughts.

I am on my way to the directors office right now. Wearing a black loose tshirt and a black ripped jeans i walk proudly. I am now a First year college student. Planning to take Architecture but I kinda want to go for an easy course. Hoping so.

"Hi! I have an appointment. New enrolee" i told the girl from the front desk.

"Just wait amd sit there. I will call your name later." I like her attitude super polite! not like the girl from my highschool.

After 10 minutes of waiting a guy wearing an all black outfit like mine sat beside me. I am shocked! There is like 5 more vacant seats but he sat beside me? Like? For real? I don't want to comfront him so I tried focusing on my cellphone, trying to read something.

"I knew that you won't recognize me HAHAHA" the laugh says it all. The guy i met at the Hospital's rooftop. What is he doing here? Stalking me? Uh no. Not worth the time.

"uh yeah hey" i awkwardly said.

"Don't be shy i already met you before" ah the guts? i am not shy! Im just you know? don't know him well and too lazy to answer him back. I noticed that hes holding a folder like mine so I was a bit curious if hes enrolling here or? you know? wanted to meet the director too?

"You're enrolling here?" I asked. he turned his attention back to me and said "Yeah, i guess so."