2 He Saves You

Author's note :

This chapter contains self harm and suicidal thoughts etc. These are considered sensitive topics so read only if you're comfortable with such topics.

The song : invisible by 5sos.

Play it while you read the chapter.

Your pov :

I'm sorry.

That was the last thing I wrote on the piece of paper that was ment to be my suicide note, I felt the tears roll down my cheeks and onto the table. I stared blankly at the One Direction poster on the wall beside the clock that read 8pm.

"I'm sorry, I won't make it"  I mumble as though the posters could hear me.

I decide to take a few moments to just cry when I heard a knock on the door. I decided to ignore it and wait for the person to leave.

The knocking continued when I finally gave up and shouted

"NOT NOW" I yelled trying to make it seem as though I wasn't crying for hours.

"Let me in, it's Ashton" I heard his voice.

"NOT FUCKING NOW ASH!"

"I called you, and texted you. I'm worried are you ok?!" He asked

"FUCKING LEAVE ASHTON!" I said as my voice cracked

"Have you been crying?" he asks me through the door.

I didn't have a reply.

"Ash please leave" I practically begged him to leave

"I won't until you let me in and tell me what's wrong"

"FOR FUCKS SAKE ASHTON LEAVE!" I said almost growling.

I didn't hear a sound, he left. I hurt him, urgh I have to find him. I washed my face and ran outside to find Ashton. I messed up. I dont want to leave this world with my favourite person mad at me.

I find Ashton sitting on a park bench, it was fairly close to my apartment.

"I'm sorry" I mumble to Ash as I sit beside him.

"What's wrong?" He asked looking into my eyes

"When you knocked, I was about to kill myself" I stated as the tears started falling

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked as I heard his voice crack

"I was scared"

"It would hurt me if you left" he said

All I did was hug Ashton.

"I'm here for you, don't let go" he says hugging me back.

"Fuck I ruined your shirt with my tears" I replied as we pulled away from the hug

"It's fine" he says wiping my tears gently.