123 The Dark part of the heart
Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.
Usually, Hogwarts will be shining with life all over it.
But today the situation around it looks so weird and different.
Quiet...
Hogwarts school looked so calm and silent...
Even the sound of the wind can't be heard anymore.
The clouds were so calm and depressed. And around the school, many creatures moved restlessly. As if a giant beast scared them appeared.
While the dark creatures in the sky, gathered around the school, but not daring to get an inch closer.
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Inside the school, the halls that should be filled with students were so calm, and quiet.
And many unconscious bodies can be seen everywhere.
From what those bodies were wearing it can be seen that they were the students who lost consciousness a few seconds ago, from the shock that suddenly appeared.
Not only the students but almost every living creature in the school fell down, even the dead ghosts disappeared.
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Defense Against the Dark Arts class.
This class was so lively a few seconds before.
But like the rest of the school, everyone lost their consciousness, and the walls of the room have been damaged with many cracks all over the place.
While only two figures were standing there at this moment, which are Gray and Perona.
*Breathing sound* Gray breathed heavily, while his hand clutching his chest and the color of pain were clearly painted on his face. Apparently, he's really feeling a lot of pain right now. Pain comes with the emotions, that appeared just now.
Gray raised his head and looked at the closet that the Boggart already hid inside while his entire body was already soaked with sweat.
But looking at his eyes, it can be seen there is a terror inside them, so he didn't dare to look at the mirror of the closet more and turned his eyes at the students and Professor Lupin who already fainted.
Then finally he looked at Perona...
"CoughCough" Gray coughed few times and sat down on the ground painfully.
"Gray...What's wrong with you?" Perona who wasn't affected by Gray's Haki as a Haki user herself, run to Gray's side and asked with fear.
Not fear from Gray, but fear that Gray is hurt.
"@$%@" While Nagini already flew to Gray's side and kept moving around him restlessly, not knowing what she should do, Like Perona, Haki won't affect her so much, she's not a normal being after all...
*Breathing sound* But Gray didn't answer and kept breathing heavily, and tried his best to calm himself down.
'Calm down... Calm down' At this moment Gray's mind kept repeating these two words while trying to control his emotions.
At the same time, his mind also cleared a lot.
'What was that just now...' Gray asked himself, why he feels sad, why he's mad, why he wants to kill those few figures he saw, what is this hatred inside his heart, why will he feel fear and despair seeing that woman dead. Obviously, he never saw or met anything like this.
And that's what scared him even more.
Gray is not a child who can't control his own emotions, besides the stronger he is, the stronger his mind should be, the moment his mind awakened, he realizes many problems here.
Just now he used Haki when he was about to lose his control over his emotions.
If he didn't vent all those emotions by using Haki to suppress himself, the wrath would have devoured him.
Maybe because his mood was so wrong, his Haki was... weirdly strong, even though he actually wanted to rule over his emotions only, but the effect of the Haki slammed the entire school.
If he wanted to really release the Haki against someone in that mood, not only the walls of this room would have been damaged...
'What's with that scene... Why is there such heartache... Why is there such anger' Gray started asking himself.
He really doesn't understand his own emotions at this moment. And more doubt appeared at the same time.
Those emotions are so familiar and true for him.
Some miss, some hurt, some sad, some angry, some want to destroy everything, and mostly fear to lose something...
He could understand the meaning of those emotions as if they were his own... Or not... They are his own emotions. Emotions that he never felt or known before, buried deep inside his heart.
Unlike all that Gray felt before, he knows this is coming from his very own heart. Not something confusing him.
And also because of this, Gray felt confused.
Such negative and complex emotions shouldn't appear inside him. In all his life, he never saw or met the scene he saw just now, so he really shouldn't react like this...
He had few expectations about his own fear, after all, he knows himself the best... But he started to doubt this...
Gray looked at his shaking hand with deep fear in his eyes...
Then he looked at Perona and Nagini's worried eyes and more fear appeared in his heart.
He had a hunch...
If... Just if... He really let those emotions control him, things might have gone far beyond the regretting point...
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*TIIG* But then the door of the class was opened and Dumbledore walked in with both Snape and McGonagall, whose faces are white.
Seeing the three troubles came, Gray didn't try to do anything. What happened here already happened, he should now think how should he explain...
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In the headmaster's office.
Gray who finally calmed his heart completely looked at Dumbledore in front of him and kept silent.
Dumbledore already knows everything that happened.
In the school, besides him, only a few people were able to stay awake after meeting Gray's mental shock.
Fortunately that no one really got hurt in the entire school, Gray's shock only knocked down everyone.
With a simple spell, the still awake teachers awakened the other unconscious students and teachers.
And now the school is already back in order.
For this accident, Dumbledore told the students not to be worried, there are no threats for them. But didn't tell anyone the reason.
But because of what happened, some trouble appeared, like the Dementors who became more active around the school, and the creatures in the forest.
Not only this, even the ministry started questioning what happened, after all, Hogwarts is one of not many schools in this world... Most of the students here are relative to someone in the ministry in one way or another, let's not say the pureblood families.
First Sirius black and then the Dementor... And now Gray's problem...
For Dumbeldore Gray is really a problem right now...
Gray told him that he lost his control over his magic and this happened. Which made Dumbledore look at him with skeptical eyes...
Please... losing control over your magic, won't scare the Dementors like this... Won't knock down the teachers... Won't give him shock on the soul like this...
Gray's mental shock was so majestic and tyrant, directly imposing Gray's will over all beings, including himself were subject to rule over by this tyrant shock.
Yet this is a magical world... Dumbledore himself saw more incomprehensible scenes in his long life. So Conqueror Haki, wasn't enough to make him fear, at his level.
But what made him look at Gray with deep eyes is what he felt from the shock Gray made.
Other than Perona, Dumbeldore is the only one who was able to feel Gray's emotions at that moment...
Such chaotic emotions, this is the first time he felt something like this. He even wondered if such emotions belong to the calm Gray in front of him.
What made him really worried is the wrath in these emotions... And also the reason he felt Gray is a problem right now.
He watched Gray for two years already.
He already has a clear picture of Gray's personality, Gray is a person with many secrets, originally he let Gray enter the school, to watch him carefully and make sure there won't be another evil wizard out there.
And from what he saw after long observation, made him feel relief...
Gray is not an evil person, and because of this, even though he has an idea about Gray's power, he said nothing and treated Gray as a student, only kept watching this talented student.
But now, there is such a problem appearing in Gray, it made him worry. If Gray went wrong... This would be more troublesome than Voldemort...
So after thinking for a second he sighed and said...
"Fear... This is something everyone has in their hearts... But Fear is also The Dark part of the heart. Fear is something everyone has to face... And this is what makes us what we are today ... What happened today is the result of.... you facing your own fear... and apparently... it's not something you're ready to face" Dumbledore is being *Dumbledore*, and looked at Gray who's hand started shaking gently while talking about fear.
Gray really controlled his own emotions, but talking about this, reminded him of the picture again, which again made him feel extremely stressed.
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