4 Chapter 4. Realization

Andrew's POV*

I walk into detention and sit in the last row near the windows so I can see the scenery because if I'm going to be in here for the next hour I need to have some kind of distraction from what I just did in the hallway. Not to mention it was only the first day of school and my dad was going to be pissed when he got the call from the teacher.

However, it was already too late and I realized that what I did in the hallway was none other than because of jealously. Jealously towards Anderson because how he randomly touches Stefan and it makes me mad knowing I can't do something like that without getting into a relationship.

But what really gets me frustrated in not understanding why I did that back there. I mean I have had plenty of relationships where the other person got jealous because of me but this is the first time I'm jealous because of them. I mean were not even technically friends in this sense.

I kept staring out the window; the trees looked amazing in this time of season its currently September going into October and the trees looked so colorful with the reds, oranges, yellows, browns, and the hints of green that are left and starting to fade.

Suddenly I heard the door creak open slowly and I turned to see Stefan walk into looking glum and what seemed to be confused. He walked towards the back of the class and sat in the same row as me in the seat next to me. He seemed lost in thought probably about getting in trouble. For all, I knew he was a Straight A student but then last year it's like he just stopped caring about his grades, his friends, his feelings just kinda died. Not that he wasn't already like this it just got worse kind of like it was forced and he's trying hard to get rid of the feelings he had inside, but he looks like something is holding back from achieving it.

Stefan seems to finally come out from his thoughts and notices that I'm there he seemed surprised, worried, self-conscious, but there was this one emotion on his face I couldn't register. It was like the look you gave someone when they ask if you're alright and you look happy but when you say I'm fine your smile is fake showing your lying. But his was more like the sadness of understanding you will never have something or someone and for some reason, I felt sad about the look. Though I could just be reading too far into this like I do a lot.

Those exposed emotions were soon covered by a blank look that when it laid eyes on me I couldn't help but feel the coldness.

We stared at each other for a moment before Stefan turned his head away from me to stare at the desk in front of him, not wanting to meet my gaze so I turned back to the trees.

I suddenly heard him speak with a soft and quiet voice," Are you mad at Anderson or something?" I turned back towards him to find him staring straight at me with the same brilliant eyes that were more grey and blue than anything I had ever seen. It took me a minute to answer before stammering out the reply," N-nn-o I'm not mad or angry with him I just took out my anger on him by ac-accident. I hope I didn't hurt him."

I mentally facepalmed myself for sounding like seventh-grader who has a crush but if I thought about it the right way I was technically an 11th grader with a crush a which was no better and just as lame.

I looked at Stefan, who was writing his name on a permission slip form with his full name Stefan Iris Reed. I thought it sounded cute. I noticed how soft his dirty blond hair looked and it made think of how it would feel to touch it.

Without realizing it I reached out and combed my fingers through his blond hair, transfixed on how it felt just like silk. He seemed surprised at the physical contact but as I continued now aware of what I was doing he relaxed and nuzzled into my hand which made me feel warm giddy inside.

He laid his head down on his arms which were on the desk while I still ran my fingers through his hair and as he mumbled," Anderson is okay he was just surprised and as confused as I was." I was going to reply that I was sorry, but that's when gently with soft mumble he said," This is relaxing." and I couldn't bring myself to talk with my heart unintentionally fluttering as he started to sleep peacefully at the desk with soft snores here and there.

I looked down at the paper he was filling out earlier to find it was a permission slip to go on the first all juniors trip to Atlanta, Georgia to hike in the mountains and stay at a ski lodge with individual cabins for 2 whole weeks in November at the cost of about 150$ per student for skiing unlimited and food provided by the lodge on top of all the necessities like bathing and provided gear for skiing. I looked at what he had filled out so far with him leaving only one blank space on the page.

From what I got from the paper there will be 2 people to a cabin and preferably of the same sex because you know, no girls with guys vise/versa thing. The person who would buck with him slot was empty and I realized he only talks to Anderson for the most part and Anderson was probably going to go with Jake because they are pretty close and I felt bad because he couldn't go without a partner.

And then suddenly I got a great idea. I grabbed the pen he was using and began to write my name on the line of his partner for the trip.

When I finished writing I realized my hour in detention was up so I got up and left, but not before making the rash decision to place a kiss on top of Stefan's golden-haired head and walked out as the bell rung. Not bothering to wake Stefan up because he had 2 hours in detention and it seemed like he needed the sleep.

On my way to Algebra, I had a realization that this type of thing would get me into a relationship, but I realized that this time I wanted the relationship not the other way around and I realized that my heart started working properly if only for an hour when i was him and I couldn't have been happier that someone could finally start making me feel that way since no one has in a long time at least not since Brian. At that thought, my mood soured but my heart kept doing backflips and cartwheels in my chest fluttering at the thoughts of Stefan. Even if it could kill me my heart wouldnt stop for anything.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a while. I didn't plan this out so I got writer's block. I promise to find some sort of schedule to update.

!!! I hope you are enjoying !!!