15 Special Chapter

Carly's P.O.V

Ever since I witnessed Blyx's miserable and horrible life... I locked myself up. She did all of those things to me... because she loved me. Her childhood. Her parents. Nothing. All I saw was her always alone and getting bullied at. She was always alone. She was suffering but I... didn't noticed it. I hated her... I hated her the entire time she was suffering and I feel guilty. I locked up myself inside her room and cry until I passed out. It's been two years and I've managed to just get out of her room and just roam around the house. The house she grew up in alone.

She gave me the inheritance of her company even though it was supposed to be hers! She's too good to be true. I can't believe I wasted someone who loved me so dearly. She saved me a lot of times while I saved my hatred towards her that time. Every corner of the room, I swear she tried to kill herself. She's tried to commit suicide a lot of times but never to actually do it. And the only thing she'll say to stop herself is... "I still have to confess to Carly and say sorry." which always sends me to cry again. Haven't eaten a proper meal in two years.

Her childhood hurts me a lot. Seeing her being bullied. Seeing her being gossiped even if she was there and was still a kid, didn't help much either. I admired her just smiling at her enemies and locks herself up at home. When highschool came, she changed her warm smile. The sweet Blyx was replaced and was hidden inside those tall walls. Our history then began. Now, I understand why. And I hated it. I hated not knowing that I'm already making her suffer. What I've been through wasn't even half of what she experienced.

She was right about Jerdon even from the start. Why didn't I even believed her in the first place? Right! Because I was too ignorant and hated her! I'm starting to wonder why she puts herself behind me when I'm this selfish. I start on wondering how she loved me. I hated myself when I feel so hopeless. When I cry, I would go to her closet and smell her natural scent. I grabbed one of her pajama's and hugged them all night then cried myself to sleep. I can't describe how much I miss her.

Then, just a single night. A single night and she died. She endured all of those. Letting herself get raped. She'd walk ahead of me and check if there would be thugs. I could see how tired she was but as stupid as she is, she would always smile when she looks back at me and saw that I was fine. Then, she'd do the same again. I cursed myself if I unconsciously knew that she was there and made her suffer. I know that the neigborhood I live in was dangerous and yet I kept on walking. She even blamed herself for Chris' fault. She always blamed herself. Then, when she saw me entered the house, she heaved a heavy sigh and was gonna return to her house when I came back out. I was wearing my earphones then so I didn't really hear or recognized that it was a gunshot since I blasted off my eardrums. She let herself get raped for me to be pure. She used herself to shield me from the bullet. She threw the knife for him to not take another shot towards me. She killed another person just to protect and save me. She really did die for me. I even felt happy after I heard the news that she died. How I cried that night.... wasn't enough.

The moment I knew that my mother knows this and didn't tell me anything about it, made me feel guilty. That last day she spent with us, their cries, they were crying. The one thing I can't have is a complete family. Blyx's thoughts... it felt worse than a gunshot. I'm gonna miss her. Her thoughts made me cry in agony. That last day she cooked us a meal... it brought me misery. This is so deviate of me but I know that if I really did marry Carly, this will be everyday. Every thought... is engraved in my heart. I'm not gonna have sex with her, just gonna satisfy her. I want to but I'll be gone and I can't take responsibility. Every thought left a big hole in my heart. Carly, you don't know how much those words mean to me right now. I feel so happy. I really love this side of her. Always thinking about the positive side. Carly... I love you, with a heavy heart. I seemed to think that since they were big holes then I might've as well lost my heart due to the holes. That time before she collapsed.... a certain conversation with her guide...

"You have to say goodbye, Blyx."

"It's... time?"

"It's not.... but... I know you have a long goodbye so I'm gonna do you a favor. Although you might feel breathless and weak."

"If it means I can say proper goodbye then so be it."

'Are you sure you'll be fine?"

"I came prepared."

"As you wish."

Blyx... you left me with nothing. I can't forgive you for that! Who am I kidding? I love her too much to even not forgive her. Look at me, I'm in the same shoes as Blyx was when she was still alive and well! She was head over heels for me! And now that she's gone, it became vice versa! When she was head over heels for me, she thought I was unreachable because I hated her. And now, still the same situation but she really is unreachable. She just died.

"Your time is almost up, Blyx."

"Yeah."

"Don't you think you should already apologize?"

"I'm planning."

"While staring at nothing?"

"Don't state the obvious." she sighed.

"I'm just worried that she might never know how much you love her. You even sacrificed your own life."

"...."

"I'll come back when you're ready."

"Thanks."

"You're welcome."

Everyone knew how much she loved me but I never did. Was I ignorant? Did I feel nothing? Did I not see her interesting? So many questions.

"All of you guard Carly."

[Ma'am?]

"If anything fucking happens to Carly, your heads will be your payment."

[O-of course, Ma'am.]

Her possessiveness that causes us to think that she's a threat. She's willing to kill and to be killed just for me. I smiled bitterly.

"Sooo?"

"Stop torturing me, will you?"

"Hmmm... can I ask you something?"

"Yeah."

"If there is a possible chance that her mother will not survive, would you be willing to give her a month? That month will strengthen her and she'll live again." I look at her suspiciously.

"Of course. Anything for her." she smiled.

"Okay. She's coming." then she disappeared. The door swung open.

She even gave up half of her chance living to my mom. And I am always grateful for all of that. I can't think of repaying her. A kiss on the forehead means that person is very important to you. Willing to risk your life for that person just to make them happy. That kiss froze me. I should've known from there on that I was special. If I was gonna die then at least I want her mother to live. I already took his father's life away. This is the least that I can do. Baby, I'll let you hate me more than you hate me before. What a crazy teenage girl inlove. And that moment after she stormed off the hospital.

"Hey, you there?" then she popped out of nowhere.

"I'm guessing you really are gonna give your one month to her?"

"Carly's mother is worth it." she sigh.

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Please?" she nodded. She kissed my forehead and my body started to burn.

It's already Wednesday and I feek weaker. I became paler. But I didn't care. I didn't leave my room thinking that they might've been giggling and flirtling again. I know, I can always put a stop about Jerdon coming here but I was afraid he'd do something to Carly so this is better than seeing her or knowing that she was raped. Even though she felt weak, she still manages to think about me. Why didn't I just leave that bastard and be with her? If I want her to forgive me then I'll just suck this up and ask for forgiveness. This might hurt me but at least she's gonna trust me after I falsely accept. Her thought sting, it stings bad.

"It's not progressing well, don't you think?"

"Don't remind me."

"Aren't you gonna ask how her mother is doing?"

"I'm sure she's fine. She's recovering."

"You were asking, right?"

"About?"

"About why you were given a chance."

"Yeah. I think that this is the second one. Someone told me before that I almost died."

"You knew..."

"Yeah. So, why?"

"Well, you were so strong on holding your own problems. No family to talk to nor friends. Didn't get paid that much attention from anyone. You did a lot of horrible things because you were inlove. You were just loving someone who doesn't love you back. You also did a lot of great stuffs without you noticing."

"Like what?"

"When you were twelve, you got into an accident. One of your kidney came out but it was still usable. That same time, one kid also got into an accident. He lost a kidney. The doctors wanted to give your kidney to the other kid since he lost his only kidney. But since you were the original owner, they gave it back to you in which your body rejected. Just thirty minutes after they put it, you started to bleed. They retrieved your kidney and gave it to the other kid. He even lived."

"Are you serious? Is that even possible?"

"Miracle as it may sound, it's the truth."

"Okay... well, I should sleep inside my room now."

"Okay."

That guide sure is right. I couldn't have said it better myself. As I remember those again, I can't help but cry again. Until I cried myself to sleep.

"Hey baby." that voice...

"Baby.... you have to go back." I turned around and saw...

"Blyx!" I hugged her. I miss her.

"Baby, as much as I miss you and you miss me right now, you're still a mother."

"A mother?"

"Baby, remember baby Prince?"

"Prince!"

"And your mother. They all need you right now babe." she says as she wraps her arms around my waist.

"But I need you..." she laughs.

"My princess... if you come with me right now then all of my efforts of keeping you alive and safe will be in vain." I froze.

"Baby, I want you to have the family you wanted. Even if it means you forgetting about me. Please, live?" she kissed my forehead.

"Okay...but it's gonna be hard."

"Yeah. And do me a favor, tell our child just how amazing I am? I didn't live to tell the tale so... I guess that leaves you for that task." I smiled.

"Okay... but, kiss me?" she grins.

"My eternal pleasure!" she kissed me to tenderly and gently that I'm beginning to think that she doesn't want to break my lips or something.

"Now go be an awesome mom to our child! Tell him I love him! Oh, and your mother too! And my parents." she gave me a kiss on the forehead before I woke.

I did everything she told me to. One of those days, mother gave me a piece of napkin. Wait, two napkins. I read the first one and let my tears go down like a waterfall.

"Dear Carly,

I know for a fact that when you read this, I'm already gone. So, read this. I want you to know how much I love you. And I'm sorry if me and your mother kept our secrets. We didn't want to hurt you. I wanted to keep this to save you the trouble of feeling down. I do love you. I'd do anything in the world just for you baby. With a heavy heart, I LOVE YOU. May you live your life as happy as before you met me.

XoXo--- Your Assuming Wifey.."

I read the other and clenched my jaw. A vow....

"Carly, babe, sweetheart, sugarplum, pancakes, princess, and every sweet name I can think of, isn't actually as sweet as you. I did so many things and that's because I love you. I never wanted to die before telling you this but I was weak. Carly, you're much much more precious than a diamond. You can't be bought by money and that's what makes you special. Your simple and shy self made me love you more each day. I'm saying this because if you ever decided to change your last name to Stephens then just show this to the City Hall and they'll glady change it. Baby, I love you in sickness and in health. Poorer or richer. I don't care as long as you love me back. I represent my life to you as my eternal love for you. Now, Carly, do you accept to be my wife?"

"YES!"

I turned the napkin around saw nothing. What was I expecting? Another note or what? But then the door of her room bursts open revealing everyone, except her.

"You're a Stephens now, dear!" mom exclaimed. Her statement made me smile.

"Here... Blyx made sure to planned this all out." Blyx's father handed me an extra large human sized teddy brown bear that smelt like Blyx herself. Blyx's mother then gave me a deathly hug.

"We love you like our own.. even if we didn't really get to meet our daughter." she handed me a red card. I opened it and smiled with new tears coming out.

"Now, you're my wife. And death still can't make us part. I love you, Mrs. Stephens. Forever will."

Eighty years came by and I finally died. I lived quite a fulfilled life. The business continues. Not having much family affair because of Blyx's commitment towards me. A lot of them became really good lovers because of Blyx.

"You thinking about me?" I turned around and saw the same beautiful Blyx.

"Blyx..." I heard my own voice and it turned back to when we were still teenagers.

"Hey, Mrs. Stephens." she said and kissed me.

"What are you doing here in the dark?" she chuckles.

"I waited for you silly. I begged them to let me wait."

"You... waited...?"

"Of course. Even if you were immortal. So let's go, shall we?"

"Where?"

"To our paradise."