197 Day DLXIII

This day started early as usual. I had a bad night, because of a swarm of thoughts in my head. The whole situation about Followers of Divine Tree wasn't feeling right to me. I knew that at some point, if we ever were to reach earth back again, decisions like that would come, because of the abilities we had. Abilities that many people would kill for. Abilities that not all people should possess.

I just didn't expect those decisions to come to me so soon. I didn't feel ready, but then I started to wonder if I ever would become ready. Maybe nobody is ever ready to decide about such things, yet they have to as leaders. But I didn't feel like a leader, nor wanted to be one. Others seemed more suitable for that.

Eventually, I got up, took my last bath for a long time, and went to eat my last warm meal before departure. Gulash with bread. It tasted soo damn good.